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    When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane’s relationship first—and decide that instead of letting their captain move to fucking Ottawa, they’ll just kidnap a his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Shane knew himself well enough to admit it, there were real feelings there. Complicated, messy, painful feelings.

    And despite everything, despite the rejection, the distance, the confusion, he still craved him.

    Craved the intimacy.

    Craved the softness he had seen in flashes but never fully received.

    Why couldn’t Ilya open up like this?

    Why couldn’t he just… talk to him?

    Because this, this right here with Hayden, was easy.

    Shane looked at Hayden and couldn’t believe how natural it felt.

    Why was it so hard to be like this with Ilya?

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    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped and hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better, and then things get complicated. Ilya's jealousy soars. He pushed Shane right into Hayden's arms, now he's fighting for him back.

    *No threesomes, some Shayden and Hollanov action - gets a bit messy but don't worry it should all end well

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    21 Feb 2026

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    What if after tuna melts, whispered names and the Rose of it all - in a post All Stars Game world - Shane thinks the world is finally starting to make sense again to him. Once the ground is firm under his feet - or so he thinks anyway - it's turns out to be less than stable? What if when Shane was getting his hook ups in Mexico and Hollywood - he wasn’t as unnoticed as he had originally thought?

    When Montreal shows it’s true colors sooner, a No Trade Clause is waived and Boston gets an opportunity to build a dynasty that rivals the one of their largest rivals up North.

    What if Shane and Ilya’s worlds are turned upside down and things with their over 8 year long situationship (now maybe relationship?) suddenly got more complicated and somehow simplified at the same time? Shane honestly thinks this is possibly the most ‘them’ resolution to a situation he has ever found. Ilya is just doing his best - he thinks. Maybe.

    Also, the Power Play in Boston is about to be the thing of nightmares, if a certain Russian can stop blocking Shane's damn shot…

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Shane does not know what he is staring at when he reads the name of the chat and the influx of texts.

    This looks like actual hell, and more importantly why on earth would Ilya ad him to the Boston WAGS chat?

    TLDR: In an attempt to socialise in this new country Ilya puts 'jane' down as his WAG to connect to the team, this has unforeseen consequences for himself.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    Shane was looking down. His eyes were squeezed shut, his brow furrowed in intense, painful concentration. His lips were moving, silently shaping the words. Good. Night. Forming them slowly, carefully, in the secret space of his own mouth.

    Ilya’s breath hitched. He’d never seen this. Why would he have? Shane had never been sad around him. Never hurt. Never in this kind of quiet, defeated pain. Around Ilya, Shane had been pleasured and angry and frustrated and gloriously competitive. But never this. Never shattered.

    (or, everything is same but Shane has a slight stutter that gets bad when he's sad. Ilya has never heard it because Shane has never been sad around him. Until their night in Vegas.)

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    14 Feb 2026

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    In the summer of 1960 Franklin, Tennessee, enigmatic physician Dr. Michael Robinavitch saves small-town farmhand Dennis Whitaker from heat exhaustion, beginning the most turbulent period of his life.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Ilya’s blood has always run hotter than Shane's.

    Or: Yay Hollanov free use! Everybody cheered!

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Will and Mike accidentally overhear a couple talking dirty over the walkie, and start repeating some of the filthy phrases to each other for shits and giggles. What starts as a joke, soon turns into something they can't stop doing – and can’t tell anyone about.

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    Mike and Will start talking dirty to each other for fun. What they don't consider is that it would accidentally turn them on.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    "Ilya, I'm not—we can't—I'm not pregnant."

    Ilya grins. “Not yet.”

    All Shane wanted was a nice, romantic weekend. A little yoga, a little relaxation, quality time with his husband. What he got was three days of prenatal classes, a room full of pregnant women, and Ilya treating the whole thing like his personal comedy special.

    They were the only couple without a baby bump. Ilya decided this was a minor detail. By the final day, he was more invested in their "pregnancy" than half the actual parents in the room.

    Or;

    Shane books the wrong yoga class. Ilya makes it everyone's problem.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Alexis: Considering how he throws Hollander around on the ice, I’m worried about you girl 😂

    Jane: Oh, he does love to throw me around.

    Jane: Haha.

    Or,
    Ilya’s decision to fuck with Shane backfires spectacularly. And Shane gets a support system along the way.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    It’s not going viral because Jane’s true identity was exposed—or even because Ilya was blatantly sexting in public. That part’s as expected as Shane doing yoga or any human being on earth breathing.

    No, the texts are going viral because no one can believe how bad this “Jane” is at sexting.

    The women of the world are outraged. The men of the world are baffled. No one can understand why Ilya Rozanov, whose abs have their own fan club, is wasting his time on ‘a piece of cardboard that wished to be turned into a real girl’ (this particular joke has 300k likes and counting).

    Or: After a social media trend mocks Shane's sexting skills, he tries to improve them. It goes about as poorly as you'd expect.

    Now available in Russian

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Shane has never belonged to himself.

    Raised by the Yakuza to kill without hesitation, he knows only loyalty, discipline, and control. When a political wedding threatens to expose the cracks in the underworld, Shane is ordered to attend not as a groom, but as a warning.

    Ilya Rozanov is a rumor with teeth.

    A Bratva ghost, feared even among his own, he sees Shane not as an enemy, but as something far more dangerous. Something he wants.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    “I want one,” he blurts before he can stop himself.

    Ilya blinks. “A baby?”

    Shane’s face burns. He can feel it creeping up his neck, warming his cheeks, hot and humiliating. He has been scrambling for a way out, not realising he was only digging himself even deeper. There is no way he can laugh this off anymore, he knows. Not a single chance of escape, but because his body betrays him—his hand drifts down, fingertips brushing over his stomach as if the mere thought alone could make sense if Ilya could see where he would go. “Yeah,” he whispers. “In here.”

    Where there is a will, there is a way. Or so they say.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    When he looks up to check if anyone noticed, Hayden has put his phone away and his eyes are trained on them, arms crossed together.

    Hayden is still watching them, and Shane feels his blood turn into ice-sludge when he realises that Ilya is pushing inside him steadily enough that anyone can see how their hips move into each other. Shane stares back. Hayden’s eyes trail down from his face to where Ilya’s hand is visibly on Shane’s waist under the blanket, and—Shane tightens up enough for Ilya to double over and muffle a groan into his neck.

    And Hayden’s eyes are still on them.

    A beat, then two, and a wicked look takes over his face before he mouths: Having fun?

    Shane is horny. Ilya provides the perfect solution. Hayden is just here for the show.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    It doesn’t matter what Shane looks like because he’s got a jersey and pads and a helmet on. It doesn’t matter what languages he speaks because he’s got a mouthguard clamped between his teeth and too many plays to chew on to even think about talking. It doesn’t matter who his parents are or where people think he should be from because he’s here to play hockey and he’s here to win.

    Shane Hollander is very good at hockey.

    He’s even better at winning.

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    Everything is harder when you don't know where you fit in. Shane Hollander can attest to that.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    Shane is silent for so long that Rozanov leans, slouching against the doorframe, and raises his eyebrows at him expectantly. “Yes? You are selling bibles?”
    “You fucked my girlfriend.” It tears out of him.
    “Ah,” Rozanov drawls, as if the thought is just now occurring to him, “yes. I did.”

     

    based on a tweet

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    29 Jan 2026

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    "The hotel," Ilya repeated in a flat tone, cupping under Shane's jaw. "What hotel?"

    "Uh," Shane replied again, because he had no fucking clue. "I just need to not be here."

    "Hollander," Ilya said firmly, squeezing his chin. Shane melted, just a bit, but he tried to remain determined when he started to look for his shorts. Ilya's hand didn't allow for much movement though, his head unable to turn. "Shane, tell me now. Are you going into heat?"

    or the one where ilya calling shane by his first name sends him into heat

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    29 Jan 2026

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    Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.

    Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.

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    129,648

    28 Jan 2026

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