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    Ilya gets injured during the Centaurs hot streak and spirals. Shane takes care of him, and has to get creative about it (aka they both have to grapple with some role reversals + Ilya gets railed for a change)

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    20 Feb 2026

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    “You look terrible,” Shane says bluntly when he greets Ilya at the stairwell. “Are you hurting?”

    Ilya shrugs. He is hurting, actually. The adrenaline from the win wore off somewhere between his texts with Shane and the medic’s second consult. His face feels swollen and it hurts to speak when he says, “I am not wilting daisy, Hollander. I can handle getting hit at hockey game.”

    “Well, I’m glad you’re okay.”

    A strange pang hits Ilya’s chest then, unassuming and small. Ilya chooses to think nothing of it.

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    Or Ilya Rozanov on pain, love, and family throughout the years.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Alexei's world tilts on his axis on a regular Thursday, when he finds two police cars and an ambulance parked in front of their driveway.

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    Alexei Rozanov and the ordeal of growing up too fast.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    "Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."

    "You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"

    "I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."

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    Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.

    OR: What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?

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    08 Feb 2026

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    “I was never going to hit you, Hollander!” Ilya blurted out, eyes shining. “You make fool out of me. And worse…” he took a sharp breath, his hands finding his temple. “And worse is, you hit me.”

    The words hung between them, heavy and ugly.

    Shane’s breath caught in his throat. He wanted so badly to reach for Ilya, cling to him like an anchor.

    “I waited,” Ilya continued, voice shaking now, his control beginning to crack. “I waited for you to stop. I waited for you to look at me like you recognized me. You didn’t.”

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    Or the one where Shane fights Ilya on the ice and expects him to fight back.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    “Oh shit.”

    Shane looked up, turned his head to where J.J. was sat across the aisle. The blue glow of his phone lit up the too-wide whites of his eyes staring down intently at whatever was on his screen. Shane’s stomach lurched again, anticipating a sudden stop his body hadn’t quite caught up to yet.

    “The Centaurs’ plane crashed in Tampa.”

    There was a moment where everything was still moving, where Shane and the world were still spinning at the same speed they both always had, and then it all came crashing down. Shane wasn’t sure whether it was him that had stopped, or the world around him, but either way, in a matter of seconds the distance between himself and the bus he had only a moment ago been sitting in became staggeringly, dizzyingly vast.

     

    The Centaur's emergency landing plays out a little bit worse, and Shane is left with the harsh reality of the cost of loving Ilya in secret.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    It starts, as many things do, slowly. He quietly stops seeing Galina. He lies about taking his medication. The medication hasn’t been helping anyway. Then it’s Shane noticing he isn’t doing well, and begging Ilya to talk to him. There is nothing to say.

     

    Objectively, everything is fine. His life is amazing. He’s married to the love of his life, they play for the same hockey team, they don’t have to hide their love anymore. They have a dog and a place that is home. He has a family with Shane and his parents. He has friends with the centaurs and Svetlana. On paper, his life is amazing.

     

    The thought definitively doesn’t help the guilt he feels when he holds the handful of painkillers.

    Or: Ilya commits suicide. But when he dies, he finds himself as a ghost and is forced to watch Shane grapple with his death.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    Hayden could not imagine someone losing that and their mother in the same day. It would age you. It would change you. Perhaps by the time Ilya had been thirteen, and fourteen, perhaps he had already been grown.

    Hayden Pike grit his teeth because he knew he had been wrong. Ilya Rozanov had never just been an obnoxious hockey player with a colossal ego and nice smile - nice enough to entrap Shane Hollander, anyway - and now his hatred was mostly unfounded. He hated it when people were more complex than they seemed. It meant he had to change his mind.

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    Five times people see the impact of Ilya growing up too fast, and one time a tiger becomes a boy again.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    The second announcer switched in. “That’s right, and with the score at 5-3, it seems unlikely the Centaurs are going home disappointed tonight. A superb performance from the team and from their captain.

    Well you know what they say?

    What do they say?

    No one can take a hit like Ilya Rozanov.

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    5 times Ilya Rozanov takes a hit, and 1 time he doesnt have to.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    It happens in a fraction of a second. David rolls his eyes playfully, in a way he has done a thousand times before. With that, he reaches out for Shane’s cheek—for a playful shove, Ilya will realise much later.

    He does not think. One moment he’s sitting on the couch, the next he’s standing before Shane with his hands held in front of his face, shielding him from a blow that does not come.

    Or the one where Ilya deals with childhood trauma, and comes to realize that not all families are the same.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov was not foremost in Yuna Hollander’s affections at the start. But, eventually, he has come around.

    (i.e. Yuna and Ilya take their time to warming up to one another but, as the virtue goes, patience is a virtue.)
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    Now updating with better Russian language and transliteration!

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Alexei visits Ilya in Boston. Ilya plays a game against Shane with broken ribs.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    When Ilya begins receiving notes from a mysterious admirer, he brushes it off as nothing more than an adoring fan. However, as the intensity increases, and the adoration turns to threats, Ilya realizes he may be facing someone far more dangerous.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Ilya shifted the conversation to his upcoming game against Boston, promising to send Svetlana the details of the post-game bar the team decided to visit that night. Shane listened halfheartedly, his own mind working too hard to focus fully on the conversation happening around him.

    He was so used to being on the other side of the conflict, the side that Ilya resided in now. He thought of the dinners assuring his friends of Ilya’s tender heartedness hidden behind blunt humor amidst gentle scolding and good natured laughter. His stomach twisted, wondering if Ilya felt a similar way when he just couldn’t click with Shane’s friends off the bat. In the past he had little trouble getting along with others, but every time Svetlana’s gaze shifted to him he felt the weight of her judgement.

    or, A year into playing for Ottawa, Ilya introduces Shane to Svetlana. When he's hospitalized a week later, the two form an unexpected bond waiting for him to wake up.

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    28 Jan 2026

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    Shane’s extended family stays with him and Ilya for Christmas. Shit ensues.

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    28 Jan 2026

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    There hadn’t been a whole lot of tape, back then, not on a bunch of kids who were likely to get chewed up and spit out by the KHL, but Rozanov was a special case – his agent had clearly known his aim was for North American leagues, and there’d been a few tapes leaked here and there of the fourteen, fifteen, sixteen year old phenom who had more trick plays up his sleeve than Yuna, personally, thought was true hockey. The video of his spin on the Michigan had made the rounds in David’s McGill email chain, and Yuna had tipped her chin up and sworn up and down he’d be a one-trick pony who’d be flat on his ass the first time he tried that shit in the pros.

    Shane had downloaded the video to his desktop and studied the tape like he did old games of Scott Hunter.

     

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    Yuna Hollander works through years of memories in attempt to discover when she should have known her son didn't trust her with all of himself.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Ilya told Shane's family that he talked to Scott Hunter. He didn't tell them when.

    Scott and Ilya and the times they met up on rooftops over the years.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    The sound of joy has begun to settle down into a tense silence, some muttering and asking about what was going on. 

    “Be careful with his head,” Hayes is saying, voice thick with something. It is disturbing to see him so serious. Bood nods, and starts moving a lump out of the seat.

    Ilya raises an eyebrow, confused. “Who is passed out in my seat?”

    That is when Ilya finally sees what Bood and Hayes are crowding over. It is himself, his own body, passed out and slumped against the seat in the row in front of him. There is a worrying amount of blood coming out of his nose and a cut by the back of his head. Head wounds are terribly dramatic, but Ilya feels worried about this one. Mainly because he’s floating around like a ghost.

    ilya gets hit on the head during the emergency landing in Tampa and thus begins his week-long stint as a ghost. whatever bad thing that can happen, the proceeds to do so. it's definitely not fun for ilya, and definitely not fun for shane either.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Troy notices that Hollander is giving Roz extra attention at practice. Then he realizes Roz must be having a bad brain day.
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    "Shane will get mad at me if I tell you—”
    “Then don’t.”
    “—but I will tell you anyway.”
    “Jesus Christ,” Troy mutters.

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    17,846

    20 Jan 2026

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