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“You’re not my Kaiser. What happened to you?” This world's Ness keeps repeating, heartbreak bleeding through every word. “I want him back. Give him back to me!”
“I want to go back, too.” Kaiser dissociates, retreating from the sting of rejection by someone he didn’t know could cut this deep. “This world disgusts me.”
“Why? Because I see you?” Ness is firm but kind, crawling across the tangled sheets to close the space between them. “Because I know you?”
"Shut up!"
Ness falls silent, but there’s a fire in his eyes that lets Kaiser know this version of Ness is dangerous. Maybe his Ness is, too. Because, under Ness's gaze, Kaiser is completely-
“You wouldn’t let me kiss your neck for the longest time,” Ness says, like he isn’t unraveling Kaiser from the inside out. “Now it’s your favorite.”
-naked.
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Kaiser is ripped from the violent hands of death by a soft brush of lips, but when he wakes, he finds himself in a strange, altered world - possibly a parallel universe, or a far-off future - with Alexis Ness sleeping quietly in his arms. Can he survive this second chance, or will the past pull him under?
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22 Feb 2026
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Serve Me Gently @vbarchive99
Replying to @sunarin
I think jnt gets away with doing batshit stuff because all their members are gorgeous
Iwaizumi Hajime @iwaizumi207
Replying to @vbarchive99
They get away with it because im constantly doing damage control
Serve Me Gently @vbarchive99
Replying to @iwaizumi207
!!!! okay, sir, respectfully, when i say jnt members are gorgeous, i am including you too (respectfully, pls don’t scream at me again oikawa senshu)Weaponized flirting, Praise kinks and a Study in Jealousy
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20 Feb 2026
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[nski] But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh by YearningTopsLover
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
18 Oct 2025
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Kaiser keeps bringing his hookups home, and Ness is not taking it well.
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12 Feb 2026
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Kaiser has always known that Ness's hair grows faster than most people's.
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12 Feb 2026
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[nski] Could you hold me through the night? by YearningTopsLover
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
30 Jun 2025
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Kaiser's typical night time routine.
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- Part 2 of Nski daily routine
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12 Feb 2026
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[nski/ngro] You can lean on my arm as you break my heart by YearningTopsLover
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
03 Sep 2025
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Ness and Nagi meet in their dreams, and they talk about their relationships.
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12 Feb 2026
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“Don’t tease me!”
“It’s my god given right to tease you.”
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Mizi and Ivan are childhood best friends, obsessed with a particular novel/manhwa series. Imagine their surprise when they’re reborn as the FL and ML, meant to end up together but both gay and in love with characters destined to die!
Inspired by @_momorxn 's isekai AU tweet combined with @megasuger 's fairy tales AU twitter comics on Twitter/X
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30 Jan 2026
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Following the unexpected death of Alexis Ness, Michael Kaiser tries to move on until he opens a forgotten box, filled with fragments of the life of someone he never fully knew. Each item leads him to a new memory, a new regret, and the painful realization that their love was always greater than the time they had.
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Alexis dies and Kaiser grapples with the grief of discovering too late that he loved him too. Perhaps more than Ness himself ever knew.
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- Part 1 of Do you believe in the impossible?
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29 Nov 2025
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How did we end up here? by Shreks_leftballsack
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
27 Nov 2025
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When Ness accidentally destroys Kaiser’s prized lucky cleats, what starts as a quiet disaster spirals into a tangled web of half-truths, awkward confrontations, and desperate attempts to keep a secret. But Kaiser isn’t fooled — and neither is Ness’s panicked imagination.
What follows is a wild chase across cities, horrendous misunderstandings, and a reluctant journey that somehow leads them both all the way to Mexico. Through the chaos, cracks begin to show beneath their guarded exteriors, and the line between kinship and something more blurs with every step.
Messy secrets, dry humor, and the kind of trouble only these two can get themselves into. Will the cleats ever be found? And what will they find in each other along the way?Buckle up. It's going to be one heck of a ride.
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Ness and Kaiser are at a Cafe. Ness panics about Kaiser finding out about who destroyed his cleats. He acts weird. Kaiser thinks its because Ness has a little crush on him. Cue: Ness spiraling and escaping through a bathroom window. With a lot of incredulous misunderstandings arising.
Note: me and editor do updates every 2-3 days now 😭 we ran out of pre-written chapters and ideas... But we'll try to get back ASAP
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24 Nov 2025
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Ness hasn’t slept properly in weeks.
Every night, he dreams of Kaiser, tangled flashes of 19 and 26, neon lights and warm honey, the rose tattoo he once traced with shaking fingers.
Beautiful at first.
Then collapsing into screams and static.He wakes every morning drenched in sweat, exhausted, irritated, and terrified by how real it feels.
Working in PR doesn’t help, especially when the CEO he’s trying to avoid keeps pulling him closer, in meetings, hallways, in every way except the one they keep running from. Kaiser pretends he hates Ness, but secretly he’s desperate for his attention, for the way Ness used to look at him before everything fell apart in high school.
But when Ness finally snaps, Kaiser confesses something he shouldn’t:
He’s dreaming of Ness too.
Their memories blur.
Their realities bend.
The past bleeds into the present until neither of them can run anymore.Bookmarked by KILSELF
24 Nov 2025
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[nski] The shape of you was jagged and weak by YearningTopsLover
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
28 Oct 2025
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Ness is sick and Kaiser is trying his best to take care of his boyfriend.
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30 Oct 2025
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"I’m serious, you can’t. I’ll wash your ugly coat and return it, but you can't enter. I am engaged. If Kaiser finds out I let you in-"
Throughout the whole night Yoichi had been so, so strong, but this time he couldn't hold back from facepalming. If mermaid tales, U.F.O. sightings and vampires were part of humanity’s greatest mysteries, then the thought process of Alexis Ness regarding all things Michael Kaiser followed close behind.
Trusting two highly dysfunctional adults to solve their own relationship problems was the first mistake and Yoichi, slightly drunk, involving himself in that dispute the second one.
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21 Sep 2025
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Suguru Geto has a Stupid Girlfriend by satosugushi
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga)
18 Nov 2025
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Suguru brings home his new girlfriend, for the first time ever, and Satoru hates it, especially because he lives with him in an apartment now and this unseen element adds a whole lot more complications to Satoru's already complicated life. Both characters have their flaws, will have to experience forced growth and change, in order to find their way back to each other. What will that look like for them, once all is said and done? Relationships will change drastically, many different "things" will happen, but one thing will always remain the same. These two idiots love each other and will ultimately, end up happy together. The real question is... can you bare the angst to get there?
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07 Sep 2025
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Five things Michael Kaiser loves about Alexis Ness and one thing he hates from the bottom of his heart.
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06 Sep 2025
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Atsumu has spent the last year falling in love with Sakusa Kiyoomi, but it's a secret they've never told anybody else.
When a car accident snatches Omi's memories from the past two years away, Atsumu is left as the only one in the world who ever knew their relationship existed.
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26 Aug 2025
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It had been ten months of realizing how poisonous Kaiser was, how that poison saturated every aspect of Ness’ life like a drug. Ten months of Ness desperately trying to survive alone after the lifeline that supplied him had turned out to be chains. Ten months of trying to forget, because that was the only option where Ness didn’t go to bed wanting him back.
And in walked Kaiser, like none of it mattered to him at all.
Or, after almost a year of no contact, Kaiser shows up at Ness' doorstep in the middle of the night.
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22 Jun 2025
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He traced a circle on the snow, and a second, smaller one inside it. It would have been nice to dig out his old spellbook for the occasion, but Ness didn’t want to push his luck too much. Besides, though it had been years, he still remembered the runes and their significance. He inscribed them carefully in the gap between the concentric circles until he had filled the space with the same summoning spell he had attempted when he was a child.
Now, all he needed to do was visualise the magical creature he wanted to bring to him. He was spoiled for choice, really, when there was an abundance of magical creatures he wanted to meet. Any one of them would do, he really wasn’t picky.
All he could imagine was choppy blond and blue hair, red and black and blue tattoos, blue roses—
Oh, who was he kidding? Kaiser was about the only thing he could think about.
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Frustrated over the growing gulf between him and Kaiser, Ness tries to find a distraction and ends up summoning another Kaiser "by accident".
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- Part 6 of Give Me Everything [BLLK]
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you're drowning in the pit of my stomach by breathepurple (bleedpurple)
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
07 May 2023
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“Why–” Reo starts, but never gets the chance to finish.
Nagi brings up a hand and runs his fingers along the edges of the mark on his collarbone, more delicately than Reo thought he was capable of.
“Hey, Reo,” he says blankly. “I have a soulmate, I think.”
Or: Reo and Nagi have been attached at the hip for eight years. They've yet to receive their soulmarks, but everyone knows it's only a matter of time.
They're soulmates. They must be.
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- Part 1 of floodwater
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Everything or Nothing by Wellthathappened (Cataclysmic_Calamity)
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
01 Jan 2023
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College AU where Chuuya finds out that the boy he drunkenly made out with the night of orientation is his new roommate.
His arrogant, smug, very straight roommate.
And the boys are each convinced the other is trying to ruin their life by making them go absolutely insane.
Turkish Translation Here
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- Part 1 of Tell Me a Story
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02 May 2025
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genuinely no fucking words THIS WAS SO BEAUTIFUL IM ABOUT TO KILL MYSELFMLW
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I Was Screaming Your Name Through The Radio by ElectricSplatter
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
05 Dec 2020
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“Four months from now will be the seven year anniversary of when you and Osamu Dazai released your hugely successful first and only album Double Black and its diamond single Corruption. After performing with Dazai earlier this year, are you planning anything special to celebrate?”
“Corruption is insanely overrated, and I would prefer to never hear Dazai’s voice for the rest of my fucking life.”
gorgeous art by @Letnia919 and liz
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23 Apr 2025
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Okay so. okay so. this might be the best. the BEST THING . EVER ???????? HOLY FUCKING SHATBALLS AAUAUAUAU i cannot even begin to yap abt how much i enjoyed this fic like im gonna be mentioning this to my grandkids 30 years from now not even kidding. 20,026/10 !!!!!! skk loml… CHUUYA LOML… angsty w happy ending ugh it makes me so happy
LOVE HOW THE CHAPTERS ARE ALL INSANELY TERMENDOUSLY LONG BTW LMAOOO I pride myself in having read 3 chapters all w 30k+ words in a single day #imjusthatgood #anythingforsoukoku
no genuinely not even just the fic and skk but like the WRITING, the way the author structured it and just how they write brings me so much joy . eveyrthing is so detailed amd there are SO many details that make the story feels just so much more alive, easier to connet with, easier to get immersed in. details that might feel unnecessary but in the end just bring the story together in such a nice way. loved how the fic was and stayed about soukoku but the glimpses we got into the lives of other characters and ESPECIALLY the relationships soukoku (esp chuuya) built aside from eachother, while they were away from eachother WAS SOOO CUTE AND MADE MY HEART FEEL SO FULL AAUUGHWN finally some kajii appreciation holy shit i LOVED the whole black lizards thing. like gen cant put it into words and THEN TACHIHARA OH MY GODDD TACHIHARA ive always been a sucker for tachihara and chuuya friendship in fics and this was SUCH A PRIME EXAMPLE Oh my goly gee this was truly peak. I fear after this my standards are way too high i might never be able to feel this fulfilled and gleeful after reading a fic again (hope im wrong but Still)
OK SORRY FOR YAPPING BASICALLY THIS IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that doesnt even begin to explain it but im gonna just leave it at that actually .