15 Works by FirstLoveYourself
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An eye for an eye, a leg for a leg (a shot in the heart doesn't make it unbreak) by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
04 Aug 2022
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The truth is that, after being on the verge of death so many times, facing evil creatures taken out straight from your worst nightmares, you tend not to care so much about the same kind of evil in people; not about the all-consuming darkness of their soul trying to dig its claws into your heart, nor the freezing cold atmosphere surrounding them, your instinct telling you to bolt, to just get out, or you’ll maybe never get the chance to ever again. You tend to look the other way as they keep roaming the earth, the venom of their heart proliferating and poisoning your body, your mind, slowly, viciously spreading to everything that ever mattered to you; because you know you survived other kinds of monsters that openly tried to kill you. Because staying alive was the priority, still is, and you know there’s always something worse, something bigger, lurking out in the darkness and ready to swoop down on you and the ones you love.
When facing such horrors, you tend to forget that other kinds of monsters exist.
Max never got the luxury to forget.
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Steve couldn’t say why he still believed in happy endings; in everything going alright, in the end. He must be pretty naïve, or fucking stupid (that sounded more like it), seeing how many times he had been proved wrong in the last years. That’s why he probably should have guessed that things would go amiss. Because it always does.
Hastily stuffing his only source of both light and fire back into the pocket of Eddie’s vest and hoping it’d be enough to keep him alive until he found something better, he couldn’t help but think back to what the brunet had said few hours earlier, the memory of Dustin jumping up and down excitedly warming his heart and forcing him to run faster; a smirk forming on his lips as he made his way back into the woods surrounding the trailer park, words being carried away by the wind as he heard the beat of the bats' wings already chasing him.
“Mordor, was it?”
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- Part 1 of Lichtenberg Figures
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The Oracles, that’s what they were called; the people supposed to save the world. Pure bullshit.
An excuse to transform helpless children into military dogs.
Nothing more.
He was about to help them up when he heard the rattling of the chains; and thus at that moment understood two things: first, that the wall they had put up had been, already, a way to prioritize Tony’s survival, because cutting through magical chains was almost impossible without the right artefact or amount of power, and they knew it; and second, that the Oracle had, indeed, contained the spread -more than probably willingly at first- but that at some point they had been forced to, and chained up with a bounding spell to the fortress; exposed like a trophy and used as a personal shield.
He never hated humankind more than at this moment.
For what felt like hours, his eyes followed, horrified and disgusted, the chains he hadn’t previously noticed from the floor up to the Oracle’s feet, waist, neck and arms, like claws preventing him from escaping, encaging his weakened body as if he was an animal.
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- Part 6 of Whumptober 2021
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I've dug two graves for us my dear by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
19 Apr 2022
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Dabi was Shouto's responsibility, had always been, would always be. Since the very first time their eyes met, he had accepted it.
Shouto had killed Touya, and had kept the ambers under the ashes of his body subdued enough for him only to bear, yet never managed to let them be put out forever. He had kept them close to his heart, in foolish hope that one day he would come back home; never realising Shouto himself was the sole reason why their house was already nothing more than rotten wood engulfed in hellflames and returning to dust.
Touya was the world's way of holding him accountable.
Shouto wouldn't fail his brother, not this time.He did dig up two graves for them after all, didn't he?
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I'd give you the sun by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
19 Apr 2022
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There’s blood under his fingernails.
It shouldn't bother him as much as it does. It never did before. Maybe was it because he had lost so much of it throughout the years, maybe was it because he sometimes felt the need to bring it out of his body himself, like you would remove polluted air from your lungs with a few careful breaths; hoping it’d be enough for you to feel alright again, secretly praying it would have been strong enough to take the impurity out of your alveoli darkened by second-hand smoke and fire you never asked for.
But today, there's blood under his fingernails, once again.
The kind of blood that neither the weeping rain nor his pouring tears can seem to wash away.
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- Part 1 of Mind Over Matter
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If we don't keep smiling when they can't, then we might as well just be gone too by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
25 Dec 2021
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May was the kind of person believing in perseverance; firmly convinced that no matter how many shitty things life would throw at you, even in the middle of a storm, you just had to learn to dance with the wind long enough for the sun to finally reach you.
Peter wished he could say he still had enough faith in the world left to try.
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Peter isn't coping. He barely survives, and with no one by his side it's getting harder for him to have the certitude he's real and not still trapped after turning to dust, or stuck somewhere in the multiverse. He might need a little help.
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- Part 1 of Three Is The Magic Number
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Where the fields are painted gold, and the trees filled with memories of the feelings never told by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
20 Dec 2021
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There’s something quite comforting, Peter thinks, in the fact that the wind playfully tangling his brown curls might be the very same that carries the air and hope to the people he loves the most so that they can fill their lungs one breath after the other, or so that their soul can travel peacefully without fearing to be forgotten; keeping them, despite everything, tied together by this string of fate that, for once, let him have for himself the translucent dust of memories he’ll now be the only one able to cherish.
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I've got red in my ledger by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
05 Nov 2021
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He hadn’t planned on punching Captain America.
But now seeing him on the ground, holding protectively his more than probably broken nose with one hand as blood pool in his palm and drop onto the pristine floor while his other hand instinctively reach for a shield that isn’t here –and that, in his opinion should never be again-, Peter can’t help but feel particularly satisfied with what he just did.
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- Part 5 of Whumptober 2021
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Trust fall by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Spider-Man - All Media Types
03 Oct 2021
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Peter loved Fridays.
And even now, the barrel of a gun pressed against his head as he stands as the only defense between the rest of the employees of the whole floor and one of the numerous men in this world wanting Tony Stark’s death, he can’t seem to change his mind.
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- Part 4 of Whumptober 2021
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Sticks and stones may break my bones but... by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
02 Oct 2021
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Something was wrong with the kid. Actually, if Tony had to be honest: everything was wrong about him: his moves, his breathing, his answers, even the way he kept shooting his webs and swinging through the air was unusual, and he couldn’t help but worry against his better judgement.
Only when the arachnid suddenly stumbled backwards, barely catching himself up onto the wall behind him, that he finally realized what was wrong.
He was bleeding.
A lot.
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- Part 3 of Whumptober 2021
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Since as long as he can remember, he was always told to stay away from the shore; deep into the abyss, where it’s safe and even the nosy two-legged animals –humans, as he had learn later on- wouldn’t be able to do anything to harm him.
So, technically, this should have never happened.
He had been careless.
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- Part 2 of Whumptober 2021
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All trussed up and still nowhere to go by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe
01 Oct 2021
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He wasn’t stupid. Tony had known from the very moment his informant had told him about the report getting spread throughout the country accusing the Prince of treason, that he would more than probably be injured once he’d manage to make his way to the young man in order to get him to safety.
But nothing had prepared him for what he was seeing now.
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- Part 1 of Whumptober 2021
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I'm at an all time low by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
25 Mar 2021
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Toga loved them. She truly did.
So it was fine.
They would be ok.
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Lo Vas A Olvidar (Can you let it go?) by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
23 Feb 2021
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His throat itch. It already happened before. Maybe it’s from the screaming, maybe it’s from the foreign feeling that settled in his chest since he left the house through a shattered window tainted with perfectly tepid blood, or maybe it’s from the thick smoke that suffocated him for so long he doesn’t even remember when was the last time he hadn’t to inhale it.
His feet burns. His left eye is closed. His body is numb. His mind remembers.
Touya.
Touya is safe.
Touya will help.Series
- Part 1 of Iliamna Rivularis
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He knew.
Im Changkyun knew this would happen at some point. He just didn't expect that it would happen so soon.
But here they are, again, facing each other, as they did hundreds of times before.This is his last chance.
He won't let them die.