FirstLoveYourself
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An eye for an eye, a leg for a leg (a shot in the heart doesn't make it unbreak) by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
04 Aug 2022
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The truth is that, after being on the verge of death so many times, facing evil creatures taken out straight from your worst nightmares, you tend not to care so much about the same kind of evil in people; not about the all-consuming darkness of their soul trying to dig its claws into your heart, nor the freezing cold atmosphere surrounding them, your instinct telling you to bolt, to just get out, or you’ll maybe never get the chance to ever again. You tend to look the other way as they keep roaming the earth, the venom of their heart proliferating and poisoning your body, your mind, slowly, viciously spreading to everything that ever mattered to you; because you know you survived other kinds of monsters that openly tried to kill you. Because staying alive was the priority, still is, and you know there’s always something worse, something bigger, lurking out in the darkness and ready to swoop down on you and the ones you love.
When facing such horrors, you tend to forget that other kinds of monsters exist.
Max never got the luxury to forget.
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Steve couldn’t say why he still believed in happy endings; in everything going alright, in the end. He must be pretty naïve, or fucking stupid (that sounded more like it), seeing how many times he had been proved wrong in the last years. That’s why he probably should have guessed that things would go amiss. Because it always does.
Hastily stuffing his only source of both light and fire back into the pocket of Eddie’s vest and hoping it’d be enough to keep him alive until he found something better, he couldn’t help but think back to what the brunet had said few hours earlier, the memory of Dustin jumping up and down excitedly warming his heart and forcing him to run faster; a smirk forming on his lips as he made his way back into the woods surrounding the trailer park, words being carried away by the wind as he heard the beat of the bats' wings already chasing him.
“Mordor, was it?”
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- Part 1 of Lichtenberg Figures
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The Oracles, that’s what they were called; the people supposed to save the world. Pure bullshit.
An excuse to transform helpless children into military dogs.
Nothing more.
He was about to help them up when he heard the rattling of the chains; and thus at that moment understood two things: first, that the wall they had put up had been, already, a way to prioritize Tony’s survival, because cutting through magical chains was almost impossible without the right artefact or amount of power, and they knew it; and second, that the Oracle had, indeed, contained the spread -more than probably willingly at first- but that at some point they had been forced to, and chained up with a bounding spell to the fortress; exposed like a trophy and used as a personal shield.
He never hated humankind more than at this moment.
For what felt like hours, his eyes followed, horrified and disgusted, the chains he hadn’t previously noticed from the floor up to the Oracle’s feet, waist, neck and arms, like claws preventing him from escaping, encaging his weakened body as if he was an animal.
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- Part 6 of Whumptober 2021
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I've dug two graves for us my dear by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
19 Apr 2022
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Dabi was Shouto's responsibility, had always been, would always be. Since the very first time their eyes met, he had accepted it.
Shouto had killed Touya, and had kept the ambers under the ashes of his body subdued enough for him only to bear, yet never managed to let them be put out forever. He had kept them close to his heart, in foolish hope that one day he would come back home; never realising Shouto himself was the sole reason why their house was already nothing more than rotten wood engulfed in hellflames and returning to dust.
Touya was the world's way of holding him accountable.
Shouto wouldn't fail his brother, not this time.He did dig up two graves for them after all, didn't he?
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I'd give you the sun by FirstLoveYourself
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
19 Apr 2022
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There’s blood under his fingernails.
It shouldn't bother him as much as it does. It never did before. Maybe was it because he had lost so much of it throughout the years, maybe was it because he sometimes felt the need to bring it out of his body himself, like you would remove polluted air from your lungs with a few careful breaths; hoping it’d be enough for you to feel alright again, secretly praying it would have been strong enough to take the impurity out of your alveoli darkened by second-hand smoke and fire you never asked for.
But today, there's blood under his fingernails, once again.
The kind of blood that neither the weeping rain nor his pouring tears can seem to wash away.
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- Part 1 of Mind Over Matter
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Whumptober 2021 by FirstLoveYourself
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Spider-Man - All Media Types
05 May 2022
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A collection of (mostly) unrelated oneshots written for Whumptober 2021.
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- 27,663
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Three Is The Magic Number by FirstLoveYourself
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Spider-Man - All Media Types
25 Dec 2021
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It's just a lot to think about the world I'm used to, the one I can't get back.
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- 14,062
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Iliamna Rivularis by FirstLoveYourself
Fandom 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
23 Feb 2021
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As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you.
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Mind Over Matter by FirstLoveYourself
Fandom 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
19 Apr 2022
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'Cause I'm a young man built to fall.
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The Sins of the Father by AlabasterChambers
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga, Fullmetal Alchemist (Anime 2003)
13 Feb 2026
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Trisha Elric dies from illness when Ed and Al are only 5 and 4. Her sister-in-law, and Ishvalan widow living in the far eastern mountains takes them in, but ultimately the boys lose her and parts of themselves to the war. Ending up in Central they are found by the genius Hohenheim who claims them. A cold, callused man he uses them for their skill in alchemy, forcing Edward to join the military to advance the man's ambitions and to set a game with the Fuhrer.
Struggling to survive is all Ed knows. Distrustful of his military superior, beaten down by Hohenheim, and constantly worried for his brother, he somehow starts to find place with Mustang's Team.
Bookmarked by FirstLoveYourself
14 Feb 2026
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Five Times Edward Elric Shocked Jean Havoc and One Time it Was the Other Way Around by Breemoore
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga
02 Aug 2024
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The 5+1 fic that no one asked for but that I wrote on my 12h plane ride.
Edward Elric is thirteen and has been through way too much. After a special unit of the police, lead by Roy Mustang, found the horrible scene that the Elric house displayed two years ago, and the state the Oldest boy was in— Roy dedicated his life to keep Edward safe. That does however entail becoming a foster parent, and having him have a protective detail stuck on Ed. Of course that means that Jean Havoc is stuck doing that… a lot.Or: the big brother Havoc fic that my heart desperately wanted after being obsessed with FMAB for all of five minutes.
Bookmarked by FirstLoveYourself
10 Feb 2026
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After years in an abusive home, eleven-year-old Regulus Black is finally safe.
Sirius and Remus never went to war, never went to Azkaban, they’ve built a quiet life together, and now they’re determined to give Sirius’s little brother the same thing. Safety. Softness. A home that doesn’t hurt.But healing isn’t a single moment. It’s nights spent whispering “I’m here,” mornings of small laughter, and the slow unlearning of fear.
"The House We Built from Quiet" universe follows the Black brothers, the man who loves them both, and their friends through the long, gentle work of turning survival into living.
🌙 Themes: found family, recovery, trauma, tenderness, and the love that teaches you you’re safe.
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Now, Steve is glad he’s not dead, don’t get him wrong.
But holy shit, does it feel like he should be.
It sounds like he should be, listening to the doctor rattle off his list of injuries and the care necessary to prevent complications. Cracked orbital bone, broken nose, concussion, broken rib – it really sells the story that he’d been hit with falling rubble during the fire, because how else would someone accumulate that many injuries? Interrogation and torture?
Don’t be silly.
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Eddie and Wayne are there to help pick up the pieces after Steve escapes the "fire" at Starcourt Mall.But Eddie has questions.
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- Part 9 of For What it's Worth
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08 Dec 2025
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catch me if you can (spare me if you do) by ericaco
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man - All Media Types
22 Apr 2025
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For the past several months, it seems that the entirety of New York City hates Spider-man. The mayor wants him arrested, the police seem to want him dead, and worst of all, the Avengers are chasing him for his identity.
Peter's just about at his limit, exhausted physically and mentally, when a little help from an unexpected source flips his world upside-down.