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ivan's guide to falling out of love with your best friend by clovercoast
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
28 Nov 2025
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Ivan's Guide to Falling Out of Love With Your Best Friend
- Stop calling him your husband
- Try new hobbies
- Stop daydreaming about him
- Try dating again
- Acknowledge his faults
- Distance yourself
(I want to laugh with him until we're both breathless and my face is red. I want to go skating with him and hold hands on the ice. I want to spend my 23rd birthday with him. And then the rest of my life too. My everything. My angel.)
Or: Ivan's attempt to break out of his lifelong yearning arc. Keyword, "attempt"
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14 Feb 2026
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Ivan's Guide to Falling Out of Love With Your Best Friend
Stop calling him your husband
Try new hobbies
Stop daydreaming about him
Try dating again
Acknowledge his faults
Distance yourself(I want to laugh with him until we're both breathless and my face is red. I want to go skating with him and hold hands on the ice. I want to spend my 23rd birthday with him. And then the rest of my life too. My everything. My angel.)
Or: Ivan's attempt to break out of his lifelong yearning arc. Keyword, "attempt"
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Seeing Ivan fall apart, and Till being the cause for that distress, scares him.
Sadness is not a pretty face on Ivan. And Till would do anything if it means he never gets to see Ivan with that face ever again.
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A harmless dare gone wrong causes a lifelong friendship to crumble and fall apart. Till is left to pick up the pieces, in hopes of winning back the trust of his best friend, Ivan. And maybe along the way, he'll learn to love Ivan as much as Ivan loves him. (That is, if Ivan still does)
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Bookmarked by swarmingabout
12 Feb 2026
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Seeing Ivan fall apart, and Till being the cause for that distress, scares him.
Sadness is not a pretty face on Ivan. And Till would do anything if it means he never gets to see Ivan with that face ever again.
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Ivan’s in his final year of college—broke, horny, and hopelessly in love with his best friend Till, who’s too busy pining after a lesbian to notice. So when Ivan stumbles on a camboy site while looking for ways to earn quick cash for Till’s birthday gift, he figures: why not?
Enter Navi—masked, shy, and quietly alluring.
To his surprise, people love him. Especially one anonymous viewer: L, one who tips big, praises generously, and always seems to know exactly what Ivan needs to hear.
Under L’s gaze, Ivan discovers that he likes being watched and being... wanted.
He likes being told that he’s pretty and good and that he deserves to be spoiled.
What starts as a one-time experiment becomes addictive and Ivan slowly learns what it means to be desired, to feel powerful, to want.
And when L turns out to be Luka—his dangerously charming, recently graduated senior—Ivan realizes some temptations are better explored offline.
He just didn’t expect Luka to look at him like that.
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Bookmarked by swarmingabout
12 Feb 2026
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Ivan’s in his final year of college—broke, horny, and hopelessly in love with his best friend Till, who’s too busy pining after a lesbian to notice. So when Ivan stumbles on a camboy site while looking for ways to earn quick cash for Till’s birthday gift, he figures: why not?
Enter Navi—masked, shy, and quietly alluring.
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But I Want to Live and Not Just Survive by Bunneries for gay_gay
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
10 Feb 2026
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After the U-20 match, Rin makes a mistake.
A careless mistake. One he’s left to fix alone, certain no one would care either way.
But silence carries weight heavier than he ever imagined.
And PXG has been listening all along.Or where Rin finds friends in his teammates. A Rin making friends fic! (mainly PXG focused ft Itoshi Brothers angst)
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10 Feb 2026
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After the U-20 match, Rin makes a mistake.
A careless mistake. One he’s left to fix alone, certain no one would care either way.
But silence carries weight heavier than he ever imagined.
And PXG has been listening all along.Or where Rin finds friends in his teammates. A Rin making friends fic! (mainly PXG focused ft Itoshi Brothers angst)
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Heat in the kitchen, pot on the stove by Togethermeg
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Feb 2026
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Zane thinks he might be experiencing some kind of fever dream? Maybe a mental breakdown? Fuck, does he need an ambulance?
Ding, ding, ding, FUCK, SHUT UP! Buzz, buzz, buzz.
He dares to look at his phone again, the latest text is from Evan Dykstra. A screenshot of an ESPN tweet and approximately twenty five question marks.
Or: Ottawa Centaurs alternate captain, Zane Boodram is the main character.
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10 Feb 2026
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Zane thinks he might be experiencing some kind of fever dream? Maybe a mental breakdown? Fuck, does he need an ambulance?
Ding, ding, ding, FUCK, SHUT UP! Buzz, buzz, buzz.
He dares to look at his phone again, the latest text is from Evan Dykstra. A screenshot of an ESPN tweet and approximately twenty five question marks.
Or: Ottawa Centaurs alternate captain, Zane Boodram is the main character.