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    When Shane Hollander suffers a career-threatening injury, the game that has defined him and given him language to understand himself is taken away. Ilya becomes his anchor, witnessing the slow, fragile unraveling of identity and the painstaking, reversible work of rebuilding.

    Who is Shane Hollander without hockey?

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    29 Jan 2026

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    chai 4

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    18 Feb 2026

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    i saw this series on tiktok i’m reading it now (thse texting fics are growing on me)

    okay im in on part 5 i live this smm

    OKAY I FINALLY FINISHED and this was so fun! i love getting to learn more about each character and getting some backstories, i laughed a lot during this one😛

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    "My point is that Rozanov, like, talks Shane down before he even realizes he’s panicking. He makes him snacks with fucking buckwheat in them and he even gets Shane to take a day off once in a blue moon. He’s an asshole,” Hayden says. “He’s obnoxious and rude and frankly, unpleasant. I’m not saying he’s a good guy. But he is a good husband.”

    Or: 5 times Hayden defends Ilya behind his back, +1 time he defends Ilya in front of him

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    18 Feb 2026

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    i love hayden fics😛

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    Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.

    Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.

    But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.

    Complete!

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    26 Jan 2026

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    on chapter 34, MY HEARTTT BRO

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    Shane doesn't fall apart loudly. He spirals, shuts down, missteps. Ilya pays attention. He stays. He helps Shane learn what it feels like to be noticed without being corrected.

    or, 5 times Shane needs help regulating his autism, and Ilya is there for him + 1 time Shane is there for Ilya.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    i love my supportive gays bro like this is what i want in a relationship>>