1 - 20 of 546 Bookmarks by kikkia

Navigation

List of Bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    When Shane was displeased with Ilya, there was a certain intensity in his speech that called to Ilya like a siren song, dragging him to an early grave with its vehemence. His voice would pitch higher, bossy and prissy and so stridently righteous it should be intolerable.

    But Ilya was, for all intents and purposes, a whore. And nothing made him harder than his husband putting him in his place.

    ---

    or, 5 times ilya ragebaits shane because being yelled at by his husband turns him on, +1 time shane realizes he’s doing it on purpose.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    14,880
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    263
    Kudos:
    9,658
    Bookmarks:
    2,826
    Hits:
    116,964

    23 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ilya annoying his hot wife Shane, tender and emotional at the end, truly so beautiful and lovely (and vvv hot and sexy)

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    What should a wife be to a husband? What should a wife be that Shane isn’t?
    Maybe Ilya wants someone who will let him take charge. Shane isn’t that kind of person; he desperately clings to control with everything he has. He folds his clothes before sex and cleans his windows after Ilya fucks him against them. He controls his food portions, nutrition, his training schedule, image, and public appearances. He’s competitive. He would never roll over and take anything he didn’t want to.
    The thought makes his stomach clench. The one place he doesn’t cling desperately to control is in the bedroom. He lets himself be molded, shaped, and coaxed into anything Ilya wants when they fuck. Giving up that control, is that all that Ilya likes about him?

    Or: Shane starts making a different kind of plan after the conversation where Ilya says he could marry Svetlana.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    6,272
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    121
    Kudos:
    2,754
    Bookmarks:
    480
    Hits:
    26,097

    23 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Shane's thought process is heart breaking. This was sweet, tender, sad and beautiful.

    "He can’t, he doesn’t want to give up more of himself. He doesn’t want to lock anything else up inside of him and put it in a box where it won’t see the light of day just to make someone else happy. But he loves Ilya. He’s taken this long to figure out that he wants him, and he’ll do whatever it takes to keep him."

  3. Public Bookmark 13

    Words:
    7,636
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    13

    23 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    first story: Shane assuming that he's not a real long-term option for Ilya or that Ilya will eventually want to have a female partner. Great character study and a painful insight to Shane's way of thinking: enjoy Ilya while he's yours to enjoy, as it won't last forever.

    "Compared to Svetlana, Ilya's relationship with Shane is unnecessary. It hurts to admit, but deep down, Shane has thought this for a long time—for longer than there has been a relationship at all. If there even is one now. Ilya had called him his boyfriend only a couple days ago, but it must’ve been to shock Shane into calming down, or a joke of some sort, or both. Because he couldn’t have meant it. Ilya’s father and brother had driven him out of Russia, but sooner or later he would become homesick. And with his father dead and his brother cut off, he would have no reason not to return."

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    69,476
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    496

    21 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Canon divergence, the boys are emotionally vulnerable, communicate, and get together way sooner :))

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “H’rder,” Shane whines into his mouth, not even trying to interrupt the kiss but speaking pathetically muffled and slurred around Ilya’s tongue.

    Ilya knocks their foreheads together, smiles.

    Nooooo Ilya, not before the game, Ilya,” he whines, a sweetly mocking imitation of Shane, “and now look at you, mhm? Why should I ever listen to your complaining, baby, when you’re gonna be such an easy, perfect slut for it anyways?”

    Or: Shane plays four-dimensional chess to get Ilya to fuck him even when he tells him no, for Shane-typical control freak reasons, in Shane-typical convoluted ways, with Shane-typical unawareness of this being a sex freak thing. Ilya provides, of course.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    7,423
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    159
    Kudos:
    2,207
    Bookmarks:
    579
    Hits:
    16,574

    21 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ilya being so devoted to Shane he’ll do anything for his man, and Shane inadvertently and unknowingly playing sexual/romantical mind games with his husband

    Character study that understands how the two of them really tick and work in their relationship

  6. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    11,629
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    318

    20 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  7. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane Hollander has everything he’s ever wanted.
    Drafted by the Montreal Metros and about to start his rookie season. What he doesn’t know is that home is quietly collapsing beneath him.

    His parents, drowning in bad investments and worse judgment, turned to the one man you never owe money to, Ilya Rozanov, a rising figure in the criminal underworld. Ilya built his empire by understanding people’s wants…and turning them into leverage.

    When the final payment date arrives, the Hollander house is silent. No money. No options.

    So Ilya makes his own.

    With ice-cold logic and an obsession already brewing under the surface, he claims Shane—not his family—as collateral.
    Shane walks into his living room expecting dinner, and walks out bound by a contract he never signed.

    He keeps his career—for now. Ilya knows Shane’s talent is an investment, a resource too valuable to waste.
    Shane still travels with his team, skates under bright arena lights, and racks up points…but the freedom ends there.

    And Ilya is never far away.

    Publicly, he is Shane’s mysterious “benefactor.”
    Privately, he is his owner, his captor, and—slowly—his obsession.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    22,950
    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    197
    Kudos:
    993
    Bookmarks:
    366
    Hits:
    22,656

    19 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  8. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Joohyuk is in the wrong universe, the wrong year, and the wrong love story.

    He decides to fix Shane and Ilya’s relationship anyway.

    (Un)fortunately for them, Joohyuk needs open communication like he needs oxygen – and he’s about to make it everyone’s problem.

    Or: Joohyuk tries to speedrun Shane and Ilya’s happy ending (Any% (No Suffering%)). He does not notice them falling for him along the way.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    77,835
    Chapters:
    12/?
    Comments:
    780
    Kudos:
    516
    Bookmarks:
    161
    Hits:
    8,073

    17 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  9. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    There was nothing standard about Shane and Ilya's relationship, so it really shouldn't have been so surprising that they had their first date over a decade after meeting each other.

    It also shouldn't be surprising that it took roughly five minutes before it turned into a competition.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    15,122
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    307
    Kudos:
    1,846
    Bookmarks:
    618
    Hits:
    16,425

    16 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Going on a first date with your husband and partner of 10+ years…delightful :))

  10. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    To be clear, Ilya is grateful the rookies aren’t growing up the way he did in the NHL. Ilya took the hazing to the chin – humiliation rituals, beat downs, grueling practices to prove he could “hang” with the big guns on the team.

    That being said, there’s still some part of Ilya that balks at the request by the gaggle of rookies to watch The Iron Giant, a veritable children’s movie at the team’s latest movie night.

    OR: Five times Shane and Ilya were the support system for the Centaur rookies they dreamed of having when they were younger.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    11,028
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    820
    Kudos:
    18,718
    Bookmarks:
    4,870
    Hits:
    136,961

    14 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  11. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “I don’t remember his name. Blond. Russian. Kind of intense.” Shane tries to keep his brain from lingering on memories of Ilya’s hands in his hair.

    Rose has her mouth open when he looks over at her. “You literally talked to the team captain and you didn’t even know? Shane, that was Ilya Rozanov.”

    Shane feels like he can’t breathe for a second at the sound of his name.

    “That sounds right. Yeah.”

    After a few seconds, Rose holds out her phone. It’s a picture of Ilya she has pulled up from Google. He’s in a hockey uniform but his helmet is off, curly hair glistening with sweat. “This is who you talked to, right?”

    Shane nods. He hopes that it isn't obvious on his face that he did much more than talking with the man. 

    AU Where Shane Hollander is a rising actor and meets hockey star Ilya Rozanov at a club while celebrating an award show win. Between filming a movie where Shane is playing a gay man and having a casual relationship with Ilya, Shane deals with defining his sexuality and trying not to ruin their casual relationship with his feelings for Ilya.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    11,485
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    54
    Kudos:
    1,173
    Bookmarks:
    189
    Hits:
    11,107

    13 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Complicated but different; Shane is okay with being a secret, and Ilya is calmer yet loverboypilled

  12. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane agrees to participate in a reel (thanks Harris!), so naturally, Ilya’s right there with him. The internet has a lot to say about this viral interview.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,124
    Chapters:
    1/2
    Comments:
    28
    Kudos:
    1,299
    Bookmarks:
    175
    Hits:
    11,707

    12 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  13. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    9,016
    Works:
    4
    Bookmarks:
    117

    11 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  14. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    7,477
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    283

    10 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  15. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    This thing that they have—whatever the hell it is—it’s good. It’s easy. It feels like the only thing keeping Ilya afloat sometimes.

    He can’t let it get to a place where it’s more than just a good, convenient fuck and some fun teasing in between. Even if sometimes, in brief moments of tenderness, it already feels like it’s more than that. Or at least like it’s something that can be, if they just let it.

    But they don’t. They can’t.

    Although sometimes, Ilya does find himself giving in to the urge to look at Shane just a little bit longer, to let his touch be just a little bit gentler, more reverent, than what it would be for something as casual as they claim this to be—albeit sparingly.

    Sometimes, just for a moment, he lets himself indulge. He lets some of that affection bleed out of him because he feels like he’ll implode if he doesn’t.

    But he always catches himself before it can linger.

    ***

    or

    where six months of ghosting is shane’s final straw and he cuts contact with ilya after vegas, tired of the wall that just keeps getting higher each time he tries to chip away at it

    so ilya is forced to reckon with his feelings much sooner

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    23,166
    Chapters:
    5/6
    Comments:
    149
    Kudos:
    800
    Bookmarks:
    381
    Hits:
    20,037

    09 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  16. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “Did I do something wrong?”

    “No. No, Hollander,” Ilya coughed, eyes flitting around the room. “Is just– Is too much.”

    “This is… too much?” Shane repeated slowly, incredulously. “We see each other maybe once a month. Less, even.”

    “No. Is not that– You are just,” Ilya swore under his breath in Russian. His accent was getting thicker, the words clunkier, in the way it always got stronger when he was frustrated or tired. Shane hated himself for recognizing it. “...too much.”

    OR

    In the Heated Rivalry book, Ilya intends to break things off with Shane the night of the All-Star Game, but then Shane gets hurt. What if Shane never gets injured by Marlow, and Ilya really does break things off?

    (Basically, a shit ton of angst and Shane Hollander learning to love himself. There will be a happy ending!)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    22,380
    Chapters:
    7/?
    Comments:
    327
    Kudos:
    2,254
    Bookmarks:
    784
    Hits:
    37,311

    09 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  17. Public Bookmark 42

    Summary

    my fics of various types and various lengths exploring a darker hollanov dynamic

    Words:
    60,122
    Works:
    4
    Bookmarks:
    42

    08 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  18. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane Hollander arrives at Boston University believing he is closer to the dream he has always pursued: becoming a professional hockey player. Talented and disciplined, he soon realizes that things will not be easy.

    Ilya Rozanov dominates the rink with the same ease with which he instills fear. What begins as violence disguised as play soon turns into something deeper and more dangerous.

    Caught between his dream and the obsession of the man he cannot leave, Shane learns that some traps simply have no way out.

    Or:
    Ilya Rozanov is obsessed with Shane Hollander, and his way of showing it is through acts of violence.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    21,348
    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    318
    Kudos:
    819
    Bookmarks:
    236
    Hits:
    21,319

    07 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  19. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    It had been a very weird day, but Shane wasn’t going to jerk off about it a second time.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    12,056
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    348
    Kudos:
    1,994
    Bookmarks:
    362
    Hits:
    14,210

    07 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  20. Public Bookmark *

    Words:
    61,104
    Works:
    4
    Bookmarks:
    2,432

    05 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
    Bookmarker's Notes

    Literally so funny

Filters

Filter results:
Submit

Include

?
Include Ratings
Include Warnings
Include Categories
Include Fandoms
Include Characters
Include Relationships
Include Additional Tags
Include Bookmarker's Tags

Exclude

?
Exclude Ratings
Exclude Warnings
Exclude Categories
Exclude Fandoms
Exclude Characters
Exclude Relationships
Exclude Additional Tags
Exclude Bookmarker's Tags

More Options

Word count
Bookmark types
Submit

Clear Filters

Navigation