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    “I’m falling in love with… someone.”

    “Do you like it?”

    “I kinda hate it. But it’s nice. When it’s nice, it’s… nice.”

    or; Shane comes out to someone. He’s high on painkillers, but he doesn’t name names (not that he has to) and Dr Frances Yu takes HIPAA seriously.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    14 Feb 2026

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    12 Feb 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Set after season 1.
    Shane and Ilya try this dating thing for real.
    Slice-of-life explorations on sex, rivalry, and looove.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    Shane does not pull away, does not speak, does not kiss him again, just holds him like it is easier than letting him go, rocking them slowly back and forth on the edge of the mattress. There is a damp patch on his very nice new shirt where Ilya has failed to swallow back his tears, but he is cradling Ilya to him, anyway, like it doesn’t matter. Like it costs him nothing to do it.
    Nobody has touched Ilya this way in a very, very long time. He had forgotten that it was possible to be handled with care—to be treated like a breakable object, instead of a broken one.

    OR: What happened in the hotel room after the Tampa Bay All-Stars Game.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    The moment Ilya slips the wedding band onto Shane’s finger, it feels like the world goes quiet for the first time in his life.

    Peaceful in a way Shane has never known.

    They’re married. Husbands.

    And Shane is excited for all of the firsts that lie ahead of them as a married couple.
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    OR: A Bunch of "Firsts" from the First Year of Shane and Ilya's Marriage

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    28 Jan 2026

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    26 Jan 2026

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    Ilya loves when Shane gets like this. Needy, unabashed, all for Ilya’s taking. 

    Shane, so fucking pretty like this with his glossed-over eyes and slick lips and flushed cheeks, begging for anything Ilya is willing to give.

    And, oh, is Ilya willing to give.

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    Shane loves belonging to Ilya, and Ilya loves taking care of Shane

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    25 Jan 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    23 Jan 2026

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    Ilya has been watching hands his whole life. His father's hands taught him that touch meant pain. His mother's hands were the only gentle ones—until they went cold. Now he has his father's hands, and he's terrified of what they might become.

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    22 Jan 2026

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    part 1: five times they're forced to be Hollander and Rozanov -- and one time they get to be Shane and Ilya.
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    it took thirteen years to get to this table. to earn the right to be Shane and Ilya. it was worth every damned second.

    part 2: five times they choose to be Hollander and Rozanov -- and one time they choose to be Shane and Ilya.
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    after years of hiding, it's a joy to wake up with a choice.

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    20 Jan 2026

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    Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording. 

    “Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.” 

    Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating. 

    His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next. 

    I have to see him. 

    Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now. 

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    OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.

    If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.

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    14 Jan 2026

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov's move to Ottawa makes no sense. Rose Landry is as confused as anyone else, and Shane claims he's just as in the dark. But a chance meeting with Svetlana Vetrova might give her the answer - and so much more.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    A series of social media/epistolary fic exploring the world Shane and Ilya live in post The Long Game. Written before Unrivaled!

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    09 Jan 2026

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