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    Shane is convinced that Ilya Rozanov—captain of the Boston Bears and Shane’s newest student—hates him.

    Ilya joined Shane's yoga class specifically to get closer to the hot instructor, but every attempt at flirting only seems to make things worse.

    Neither of them has any idea the other is completely in love with them.

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    "You want me to hook up with some random guy on one of the rare nights we get to spend together after we flew all the way here on purpose just so I can try to have a different experience?"

    Or: After the cottage, after the confessions, before the trade to Ottawa, Shane and Ilya are adapting to a new version of their relationship, where needs and wants still have to be discussed. They're not great at the whole 'communicating' thing yet, and it all comes to a head when Ilya pushes Shane in the arms of someone else, for what he thinks is the good of everyone involved.

    Based on the conversation mentioned in TLG where Ilya and Shane talked about seeing other people

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    It's Shane's first season as a Centaur and he can’t help but feel like it’s still Ilya’s team, not his. When he gets sick midway through the season and is instructed to quarantine away from his husband to avoid both of the team's star players being out of commission, he wonders if the Centaurs—and Ilya—would be better off without him.

    Or, a sick and miserable Shane who misses Ilya but doesn’t want to burden his husband or his team

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    4,313
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    2/?
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    16
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    313
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    91
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    3,488
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    In which Ilya works in an adult toy store, and Shane is peer pressured.

    OR

    How Shane finds himself being fucked by the hot employee who was selling him sex toys.

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    English
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    27,058
    Chapters:
    5/?
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    34
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    371
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    112
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    10,572
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    Ilya had other lovers; he knew that. It was part of their—not relationship, that wasn’t what they had—it was part of their agreement. Shane wasn’t special to Ilya. Wasn’t anything more than a warm body he took what he needed from. But seeing the reminder emblazoned on the cover of Hello! Canada still hit him like a sucker punch.

    ---

    Or; five times Shane had to see Ilya's exploits reported in the tabloids, and the one time Ilya had to see Shane's.

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    English
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    1/6
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    8
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    53
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    25
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    498
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    Part of Shane’s brain knew this slight fear in his mind wasn’t grounded in reality. He was one of, if not the best player in the league right now. It was hardly even a controversial opinion. But he knew he could do better. He wasn’t pushing himself enough. Hell, he was more drained after a summer with Ilya than he was when he left the rink.

    That wasn’t good enough. His efforts weren’t good enough. He wasn’t good enough.

     

    Or: Shane's control issues reach a breaking point as he develops an eating disorder disguised as a performance diet. Ilya tries his best.

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    Chapters:
    6/6
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    409
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    30,711
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    Shane Hollander is tired of wanting someone he cannot have, and he’s dying as he waits for someone who will not stay. Someone who doesn’t want to stay, not when there are so many others waiting for him. Fun of another variety, Shane left a treat amongst many.

    It’s humiliating. It’s distracting. And it feels like shit.

    He wishes he could erase his feelings, move on as easily. In an effort to gain back control over the ‘situation’ that has become his romantic attraction to a notorious player, Shane attempts at imitating Ilya Rozanov’s methods until he perfects them and becomes as good as keeping it light and casual as his rival.

     

    Or Shane tries to Hoe Phase himself into a self discovery journey to choke and kill his feelings for Ilya Rozanov. Ilya is not the only who suffers from it, but he sure feels like he’s being choked and killed.

    ___
    Story ends after chapter 6 but I keep writing bonus because the hyper fixation doesn’t end.

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    Chapters:
    13/13
    Comments:
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    6,930
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    Shane stands in the elevator, pulse beating in his ears that are stained red from embarrassment. He stares down at the text, a million thoughts racing through his head.

    We didn’t even kiss.

    He wants to hit send, but he knows better. He knows that telling Rozanov this will not get him anywhere. He won’t get what he wants. He isn’t even really sure what he wants right now.
    Six months of silence. Six months of absolutely nothing. He should have never walked into that bathroom at the award ceremony. He should have sat down in his seat in the audience and just let it be.
    Why can he never let things be?
    Shane hits send without thinking.

    ______________________

     

    After the Major League Hockey Award show in Vegas, Shane hits send on the 'we didn't even kiss' texts rather than deleting it. It turns out better than he could have hoped for, and he gets the aftercare he deserves.

    Episode 2 Las Vegas fix-it fic.

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    Shane has a full blown panic attack meltdown after Vegas. He thinks he's ruined everything.

    Ilya's in the same boat. He's known deep down that he was falling for Shane, tried to stop it. He failed and he thinks he's failed Shane now too.

    (Incase you missed the tag - hurt NO comfort.)

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    1/1
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    10
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    1,183
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    Ilya can't explain why he's so addicted to meeting Shane Hollander in hotel rooms. And tonight, Shane wants to know if Ilya's even enjoying himself.

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    1/1
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    285
    Bookmarks:
    25
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    2,479
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    Hayden has been having some *unusual* dreams about Shane...but it doesn't mean anything right?

    Or: Hayden has a crush on Shane and Ilya is less than pleased about that.

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    For some people, experimenting with their wardrobe might entail adding new accessories or crazy shoes to their closet. Maybe it involves finding new statement pieces you would never wear, except when going out to a fancy party.

    For Shane Hollander, experimenting with his wardrobe simply includes the color yellow.

    OR

    Ilya Rozanov is extremely chill about Shane’s new article of clothing.

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    Shane:
    youre all i theink about
    i need you
    just you
    only youu

    Ilya:
    Shane
    baby
    how much did you drink?

    OR

    Drunk Shane Hollander finally confesses his insecurities.

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    1/1
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    “Hollander?!” Rozanov exclaims, carefully dropping him back down.

    Shane doubles over, gasping and wheezing, hands clutching his ribs for dear life.

    “You’re fucking hurt,” Rozanov realizes, wide-eyed.

     

    (or, shane hides an injury in an attempt not to ruin his hookup with ilya)

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    “Don’t you ever want more with… your soulmate?” With me. Don’t you ever want more with me?

    Shane waited patiently for Rozanov’s answer, his heart pounding away in his chest as he stared at the other man.

    “No,” Rozanov said decisively. Shane felt his heart shatter as the other man flicked his cigarette dismissively. “I do not have a soulmate.”

    Oh. Shane sat in stunned silence for a few moments, his glass of vodka frozen in midair, halfway to his lips.

    *

    Ilya has lived his life knowing he would never find a soulmate, and Shane has lived his life waiting for his soulmate to acknowledge him.

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    5 times Shane was jealous of Svetlana and the one time Ilya showed him he didn’t have to be

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    English
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    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    8
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    96
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    28
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    2,061
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    Shane Hollander has sworn off all things hockey in college, after a bad experience in high school left him emotionally scarred and anxious. Coming into his senior year, he is prepared for everything, or so it seems, because nothing could prepare him for Ilya Rozanov, who is desperate to break down Shane’s walls and worm his way into his heart.

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    4/?
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    136
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    46
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    “I think I filled up your belly,” Ilya said. “How far are you?”
    “How far… in what?”
    Groaning, Ilya pressed his face into Shane’s hair. “I do not know tricky English phrase. How far since we make baby?”
    Shane’s laugh was a breathless sound of half-confusion, half-amusement. “Are you trying to say I have a food baby?”
    “No, I am saying you have my baby.”
    The words sparked a sudden, tight clench of muscles deep in Shane’s belly; the kind of tightness that made him want to rock his hips back into Ilya’s groin.
    “You’re so good, taking my baby inside you,” Ilya continued, like any of this made sense, like any of it was even possible, as he rucked up Shane’s shirt to cup and grope and rub the full expanse of Shane’s stomach.

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    1/1
    Comments:
    23
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    658
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    97
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    6,535
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    Mesmo que esteja lentamente entrando no Subespaço, ele percebe, pelas piscadas rápidas e intensas, que Rozanov está tendo dificuldades para se adaptar confortavelmente ao Domespaço. 

    Shane engole em seco. Ele é um Submisso. Talvez um inexperiente, mas Rozanov vinha lhe dizendo para confiar em seus instintos. E diziam a ele que seu Dom precisava de mais do que apenas o cumprimento de Comandos naquela noite.

    Shane beija mais uma vez o canto da boca de Rozanov, só para adiar o nervosismo, antes de descer até se ajoelhar no chão. Ele cruza os pulsos atrás das costas e baixa a cabeça.

    Ouve-se uma forte inspiração acima dele, e então uma mão trêmula percorre seus cabelos e a nuca. 

    E; os garotos estão vulneráveis, os amigos estão preocupados e o anseio é doloroso.

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    Language:
    Português brasileiro
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    12,850
    Chapters:
    1/1
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    10
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    515
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    Logically, Shane Hollander knows Ilya would never cheat on him.

    But, something about this guy is setting off Shane's insecurities like the Eiffel Tower on New Years' Day.

    Ilya makes up for it, of course, in the best way he knows how.

    Still, don't fucking do it again.

    Multi-POV story.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,536
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    10
    Kudos:
    699
    Bookmarks:
    94
    Hits:
    7,605

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