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Ivan breathes a humorless laugh. "I don't know what it is you want from me."
Till furiously snaps back, "I want you to—" before cutting himself off. He takes a deep breath and relaxes his scrunched-up facial features before continuing, quieter. "I'm your best friend. I find you half passed out in some—fucked up garden that you've been coughing up for a year, and I'm freaking out because I don't know what's going on or—or if you'll be okay, and now that I know you're okay, the doctors are saying they can't let you go because you're too damn sick to be left alone!"
His lower lip quivers ever so slightly. Ivan, for his own sake, unfocuses his eyes until Till is only a shapeless blur of colors in the middle of a sea of hospital white.
"I'm your best friend," the blur repeats, breathlessly. "I want you to fucking say something to me."
Hanahaki disease is, quite famously, a condition born from love. Ivan is convinced that his case is the exception to this rule. And when each of his friends inevitably starts catching on to his quickly deteriorating health, everything goes spinning out of control.
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Bookmarked by fflyhigher
19 Feb 2026
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""I don't care how you feel about me," Till says at last, breathless and unsteady and fierce. He presses his thumbs deep into Ivan's skin, right below his ears. "I don't care if it's wrong, or—or fucked up." A pause, before his voice drops all the way down to a shaky whisper: "I don't want it to ever stop.""
The best hanahaki fic i've ever read, and also one of my favorites in general. Insanely good plot, top tier characterization and writing. Will break your heart and mend it right back so tenderly. Absolutely obsessed with this kind of ivantill. Wow. I'll never recover.
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“Your freak,” Luka begins, as Till’s face reddens at the realisation of his slip-up, “Is right there, in the sink you keep glaring daggers into,”
“Hah,” Till deadpans, “That’s funny. So funny. Wow, Ivan, you got me. You’re so funny. Quit modelling, pursue a stand-up career,” He fake laughs extra hard for emphasis.
The room stays silent. The child sneezes. It’s fucking adorable.
Ivan inexplicably turns into a five-year-old. Till deals with this better than he deals with his feelings for the child's fully grown counterpart.
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14 Feb 2026
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Simply wonderful. Simply delicious. It has got insane cuteness aggression and fluffy and heartbreak and Happy Ever Afters. Heh
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While most students come home during the summer break, Ivan spends it training for the next season.
Refusing to leave Ivan on his own because he apparently doesn’t understand the concept of rest, Till invites him to his hometown for a change.
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Selfishly, he imagines Till’s voice, gentle as it whispers into his ear.
‘I love you, Ivan.’
He cannot bear the sound, and tears pour unfalteringly from his eyes like shooting stars. Ivan wishes he were normal. Human. Loveable. Capable of love.
OR Ivan's Ivanism and Till's feelings
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09 Feb 2026
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Yes. Ivan's thoughts and dehumanization....just yes
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Fantasy AU, where Till is a poor merchant and Ivan is a hero who won't stop visiting his shop.
He says he visits because Till has "optimal supply."
That isn't the only reason.
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Even with the blur in his vision, there’s a strange squiggle of black that he can’t quite make out. Till squints. Hair?
With a start, he realizes the heaviness on his chest is physical. Till breaks his own rule. He looks down, and immediately curses out loud. “Are you sleeping on me?!”
“Mhm,” Ivan says, head on Till’s chest like it’s normal, and starts making snoring noises.
(Till has a rule. After his "sessions" with Urak, he doesn't look down.)
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31 Jan 2026
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Crying and throwing up. Kids ivti....head in hands. Such a good characterization.....so many details that will break your heart
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Till is weaker to Ivan's unusual requests than he'd like to admit.
Ivan had mumbled something inaudible with his cheek pressed against his shoulder. After a minute of Till trying to make sense of it, Ivan repeated, “Sit on me.” Then added a polite, “Please.”
“Uh,” Till said smartly. “Um.”
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Bookmarked by fflyhigher
28 Jan 2026
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SCREAMS. IT'S BETA X OMEGA!! IT'S OTR!!! IT'S FILLED WITH UNSPEAKABLE YEARNING!!!! IT'S EVERYTHING!!!!!!!
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the five-second rule of proximity by anumone_7 for fflyhigher
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
19 Jan 2026
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The five-second rule is handy for the clumsy, butter-fingered ones, who often find the things they hold dear slipping out of their grasp. The five-second rule makes for a lapse in the passage of time, allowing those perpetually slow-hearted to catch up for once.
Prone to his mishaps, Till cherishes such second chances, including those borne from children’s games. As long as he has five seconds, he can make up for his shortcomings. For five seconds, the melted candy bar that has fallen underneath the seat of the school bus remains edible. For five seconds, the popcorn kernels that have snuck their way inside red jacket pockets can be picked and chewed on. For five seconds, the leftover flavors can be split between two. Before it all gets spoiled. Before it all goes bad.
Mostly, he likes that the rule applies to Ivan himself, too.
(Or: Every day, there are five seconds where Ivan feels most like the Ivan Till knows).
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Bookmarked by fflyhigher
28 Jan 2026
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Simply wonderful. I don't even know how to talk about this fic, just. Wow. Please read.
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"So," Hyuna starts, mighty and loud as Ivan rearranges the plate of chicken on the table to make room. Just as he settles down the plate with six fried eggs on it, Hyuna proposes the question, "What do you think came first; the chicken or the egg?"
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If anyone were to ask Ivan, this was all Marty's fault. He accepted this job to be a secretary, why in God's green earth is he being appointed the Very Unfortunate Witness to Marty's torrid love affair with the coconut head-looking CEO?
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Two little hands holding on to one another while the sky crashes and burns.
At one point, Till had let go. Now, he tightens his grip.
“Let’s get married.”
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or, Till gets a panic attack, his dick ridden, and Ivan's hand in marriage. In that order.Series
- Part 2 of Ivan lives AU
Bookmarked by fflyhigher
13 Jan 2026
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"Divinity’s home is not a fake meadow with plastic trees, it is made of flesh and blood and has for a cage only the ridges of twelve ribs on each side."
Wonderful and so sweet. TILL IS SOOO WHIPPED MAN -
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“Have you ever realised how many there are of them? Stars, I mean. What if they're not just some distant lights, shining lonely for themselves millions of kilometres apart, but like a life we haven't lived yet? Like a... like a parallel universe. Perhaps the night sky is nothing more than an unfinished map of all the selves we have yet to become.”
Ivan has a thing for stars. Till thinks the night sky is full of them. They live a strangely normal, human life.
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CAPTCHA: Completely Automated Public Turing test to tell Computers and Humans Apart by anumone_7
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
03 Jan 2026
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CAPTCHA: Completely Automated Public Turing test to tell Computers and Humans Apart
From the images below, select all those in which fire appears.
Question: Did it ever get warm enough? At least in the end?
(Or: An Ivan character study, told entirely in CAPTCHA tests)
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- Part 5 of etymology
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Was he really ok with this? Ivan was a catch. Disciplined, smart, charming, and so annoyingly attractive. Fake dating for an undetermined period of time seemed…
“Are you sure about this?" Till asks, his eyebrow twitching, “This just doesn’t— I dunno, feel like you,”
“And what would you know about me?” Ivan counters, crimson pupils appearing to glow under the sun’s splintered rays.
Till impulsively claims to be dating his roommate. Ivan is okay with this, for whatever reason.
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Bookmarked by fflyhigher
02 Jan 2026
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LOVED THIS SO MUCH. ridiculous but also so soft and full of yearning, such a wonderful read
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rabbits: pros & cons of having one as a pet by anumone_7 for nemoys
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
02 Jan 2026
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Rabbits:
Pros& Cons of Having One as a PetIt can prove quite tempting to acquire a rabbit as a pet. However, not many are ready for the actual challenge this may present. It is important not to rush into such an ordeal purely on the basis of the creature’s perceived lovability. In today’s world, many a creature has learned to disguise its devilish ways under a soft exterior. Beware, civilians with fragile hearts.
Note to self: Use occasional rabbit-related infographics to lift your audience's spirits and make the content of the slides more accessible to them.
(Ivan's 17-slide presentation on the dangers of having rabbits as pets, especially if one has an acquaintance they are rather fond of.)
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the prince & the pay4gay (working title) by fakyudie for nemoys
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
29 Dec 2025
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dirty martini @martywants2party:
yo twitter do your thing and get my sexy homeboy to star in a netflix showreplying to @martywants2party
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edelweiss; in reference to a flower that symbolizes purity, innocence, courage, love, and devotion.
Ivan looks away. He can’t stand the way Till says me, like he’s choosing himself in the same breath. “You wouldn’t look at me like this otherwise,” he murmurs. The words scrape on the way out. “You wouldn’t stay.”
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- Part 1 of when flowers bruise
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BOTTOMLESS PIT
Pantone 19-4204 TCXThis color is closely associated with having a black eye and atoning.
It is most suited for shading in the walls, the floor, the ceiling, and even your hands. When you’re inside this room, this is the color of everything. Even your heart, behind that horribly tender part of your body, strapped to the pillar, would look pitch black.
Memories of this color include waiting, always waiting, for the door to open, even just an inch. No different than the thing in the cave. Without his footsteps, both of you would have forgotten the light.
RELATED COLOURS: PANTONE 19-4001 TCX: DEEP CAVERNS, PANTONE 20-0194 TPM: BLACKENED BLUE, PANTONE 20-0199 TPM: DARKEST HOUR.
(Or: A Till character study, told entirely in colours).
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- Part 4 of etymology
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"It's not that the whale didn't want to sing in the same key as the other whales. It could only sing in that key that no other whale could hear."
"Then the other whales," the word was still foreign on Till's tongue, the pronunciation rolling out all awkward. "should've just tried listening to it harder! I listen to you closely even if you sing off-key! It's not that hard!"
Ivan looks at him like he was stupid. "You really are a blockhead," he repeats, dodging the smack Till had been aiming at his face with practiced ease.
There was a scared dog. There was a lonely whale. There was an Ivan, who was Till's.
Bookmarked by fflyhigher
24 Dec 2025
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Really loved the characterization, the storytelling, the desperation and love that filters through every single one of Till's thoughts
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It has been three weeks and two nights since they first spoke, if one could call whatever that was a conversation. Two weeks and six days since they first exchanged punches.
About twelve minutes and fifty-seven seconds since they undressed down to nothing and surrendered to the lukewarm water.
There is only one pair of eyes boring holes into him now.id est - musings on inhibition, rumination; melancholy and loathing and other things that love company.
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19 Dec 2025