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Don’t Go Wa(i)sting Your Devotion by fflyhigher for pinecow, nemoys
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
24 Jan 2026
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‘Tiiiiiiiill,’ Ivan sends, and Till already knows he’s fucked. ‘I get a free day next week!! Let’s meet up!’ he says, then forwards a pathetic gif of a puppy with the wettest eyes ever looking up at Till’s perplexed stare.
This is a trick. Till should say no. Till should acknowledge that he’s been acting really weird about his best friend lately and that he has to get normal before they see each other again. Till should tell Ivan to spend his once-in-a-blue-moon free day relaxing at a spa—a spa? Till frowns. People would get so fucking weird about that. He should go somewhere else where clothes are involved. Skiing sounds better—and not slouching at Till’s ass dorm. Till should get a grip.
‘Please? :((’
Goddammit.
Five times Till loses his mind over Ivan's waist, and one time he does something about it.
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Till takes in a shaky breath, and the physical absence of a familiar weight on his shoulders throbs like an open wound in the hollow space between his lungs.
It’s always been Ivan’s role, to chase after Till until he got too tired to run away, constantly orbiting around him, unbearably close. Till’s fingers feel numb all of a sudden, the screen of his phone darkens under his turbulent gaze—his legs tremble, just slightly. But he’s getting quite tired of running in circles.
Before the fear can get the better of him, Till taps on the keyboard and hits send.
‘hey, r u coming back home for the break?’
Every chase must eventually reach its end. The question is: what do you want its ending to be?
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Till’s eyes are thin slits; his mouth opens just enough to show the corner of his canine: proof that he can bite. Ivan hopes he will.
“You’ll just slobber over whatever bone is thrown your way, won’t you?” Till spits out, giving Ivan’s hair another tug. “Wagging your tail for the best bidder.”
Ivan has a new favorite game. Till is an unwilling participant.
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Babysitting, Which Is to Say, Sitting as Far Away as Possible From This Baby by fflyhigher, pinecow
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
24 Sep 2025
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“Do you think Till baby likes the food?” Ivan asks.
Till wears a look of abject horror. “Please don’t call it that.”
“I should kill myself if he doesn’t.”
“This can’t be real,” Till whispers, face in his hands.
Something is happening here. It cannot be acknowledged out loud lest it play a role equivalent to a flammable gas leak.
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Till's guide to thawing his popsicle boyfriend by fflyhigher
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
13 Sep 2025
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“You did good today,” Till tells him, voice soft and honest, and something warm starts spreading from his chest to his entire body. Ivan hadn’t even realized how cold he was until Till touched him.
Ivan is life's biggest winner, and it's not because of the competition.
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Ivan breathes a humorless laugh. "I don't know what it is you want from me."
Till furiously snaps back, "I want you to—" before cutting himself off. He takes a deep breath and relaxes his scrunched-up facial features before continuing, quieter. "I'm your best friend. I find you half passed out in some—fucked up garden that you've been coughing up for a year, and I'm freaking out because I don't know what's going on or—or if you'll be okay, and now that I know you're okay, the doctors are saying they can't let you go because you're too damn sick to be left alone!"
His lower lip quivers ever so slightly. Ivan, for his own sake, unfocuses his eyes until Till is only a shapeless blur of colors in the middle of a sea of hospital white.
"I'm your best friend," the blur repeats, breathlessly. "I want you to fucking say something to me."
Hanahaki disease is, quite famously, a condition born from love. Ivan is convinced that his case is the exception to this rule. And when each of his friends inevitably starts catching on to his quickly deteriorating health, everything goes spinning out of control.
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Bookmarked by fflyhigher
19 Feb 2026
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""I don't care how you feel about me," Till says at last, breathless and unsteady and fierce. He presses his thumbs deep into Ivan's skin, right below his ears. "I don't care if it's wrong, or—or fucked up." A pause, before his voice drops all the way down to a shaky whisper: "I don't want it to ever stop.""
The best hanahaki fic i've ever read, and also one of my favorites in general. Insanely good plot, top tier characterization and writing. Will break your heart and mend it right back so tenderly. Absolutely obsessed with this kind of ivantill. Wow. I'll never recover.
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“Your freak,” Luka begins, as Till’s face reddens at the realisation of his slip-up, “Is right there, in the sink you keep glaring daggers into,”
“Hah,” Till deadpans, “That’s funny. So funny. Wow, Ivan, you got me. You’re so funny. Quit modelling, pursue a stand-up career,” He fake laughs extra hard for emphasis.
The room stays silent. The child sneezes. It’s fucking adorable.
Ivan inexplicably turns into a five-year-old. Till deals with this better than he deals with his feelings for the child's fully grown counterpart.
Bookmarked by fflyhigher
14 Feb 2026
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Simply wonderful. Simply delicious. It has got insane cuteness aggression and fluffy and heartbreak and Happy Ever Afters. Heh
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While most students come home during the summer break, Ivan spends it training for the next season.
Refusing to leave Ivan on his own because he apparently doesn’t understand the concept of rest, Till invites him to his hometown for a change.
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Selfishly, he imagines Till’s voice, gentle as it whispers into his ear.
‘I love you, Ivan.’
He cannot bear the sound, and tears pour unfalteringly from his eyes like shooting stars. Ivan wishes he were normal. Human. Loveable. Capable of love.
OR Ivan's Ivanism and Till's feelings
Bookmarked by fflyhigher
09 Feb 2026
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Yes. Ivan's thoughts and dehumanization....just yes
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Fantasy AU, where Till is a poor merchant and Ivan is a hero who won't stop visiting his shop.
He says he visits because Till has "optimal supply."
That isn't the only reason.