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    Shane watches helplessly as Ilya is sent headfirst into the boards, spine twisting, skates lifting off the ice as his body folds under the force. The sound of impact is thunderous and wrong - echoing - louder than the crowd, louder than the goal horn, louder than the pounding of his heart against his chest, as Ilya’s body finally crumples into the ice.

    Ilya had no time to brace, Shane knows he had no time to brace because Shane had no time to brace.

    And he’s not moving.

    “Ilya!”

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    Or what it means to break, and come together again.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    “Why are you here?” Ilya asked, very quietly.
    It still felt like a slap.
    Shane must have let out a sound of some sort, because Ilya turned to look at him, finally.
    “Did not mean it like that,” Ilya said. “Just… surprised.”
    Shane shifted awkwardly from one foot to the next, as if he was suddenly coming to the realization that he had no right to be here at all. “I got a call from the hospital,” he explained. “They told me I’m your emergency contact.”
    “Sorry,” Ilya said, in such a quiet voice it was almost impossible to hear him. “I forgot to change it.”
    Shane could only frown. That did not make him any less confused. “I guess I just… I don’t understand why you put me down as your emergency contact in the first place. It’s not like we…”
    Ilya took a couple of deep breaths. It looked like they were painful. His eyes slid away from Shane, like he couldn’t bear to look at him. “Did not have anyone else,” he admitted, and now his voice was the smallest Shane had ever heard it, like Ilya was trying to disappear as the words left him. “I’m sorry.”

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    Or: Ilya has a car accident. Shane is his emergency contact... even though they're no longer seeing each other.

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    15 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 16

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    Four years after walking away, Ilya Rozanov is still in love with Shane Hollander and it’s killing him.

     

    A wedding, a letter, a hospital room, and bloodied flower petals, force the truth into the open and both of them have to face what they lost.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    10 Feb 2026

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    It's January 2017 and Shane is still dating Rose Landry. After a solid week of feeling off and under the weather, Rose convinces Shane to see a doctor before he takes the ice in the Montreal vs. Boston game that night. Finding out he's pregnant definitely wasn't on his bingo card. He vows to tell Ilya that night, despite the fact the Russian has been ignoring his attempts at reaching out. But then, Ilya goes down on the ice after a hit from Comeau and doesn’t wake up.

    It is in that moment that Shane realizes two things: he’s in love with Ilya and Ilya is also in love with him. Why else would he have Shane on his list of people to contact in an emergency. Getting that call from Cliff Marleau was not how Shane anticipated his life going, but here he is and he has some big decisions to make, with or without Ilya.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.

    Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.

    But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.

    Complete!

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    09 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rosanov thought he understood depression, and how to handle it. He was supposed to be happy, living his life with Shane peacefully, exactly where he always wanted to be.

    But he’s haunted by his family curse, ruining everything he touches.

    And somehow, ending up like his mama doesn’t seem so scary anymore.

    It might be his only way out.

    TLDR: Ilyas mental health spirals fast, but he doesn’t dare let anyone know.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    “You never forget?”

    “No,” Shane breathes out. “No, I never forget.”

    Except Ilya does.

    He forgets his wedding ring.

    And Shane notices.

    Or: Shane gets stuck inside his own head when Ilya forgets his wedding ring.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    08 Feb 2026

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    When Shane Hollander is publicly outed during a routine press conference, the truth is ripped from him before he’s ready. The fallout is immediate, brutal, and impossible to ignore. As the world watches, judges, and demands answers, Shane and his teammate (and partner) Ilya Rosanov are forced to navigate violence, visibility, and a sport that doesn’t always know how to protect its own.

    Through targeted hits, swallowed whistles, media pressure, and one very public fight, Shane learns the difference between what the world takes and what he can claim back; on the ice, in the locker room, and in the quiet moments where love becomes a shield instead of a weakness.

    A story about survival, solidarity, and choosing when to answer.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    “Come on, baby, once in a while does not hurt. Rookies say that drunk cigarettes don’t count, have you ever heard that? I think is funny,” Ilya tries, his kisses softer now, trying to work Shane into the soft, pliant mess he loves.

    It doesn’t work. In fact – “What’s that, Ilya?”

    Ilya is biting anywhere he can find, “I don’t have gun license, so I must be happy to see you.”

    But that doesn’t work either. Shane finally moves – only to grab at Ilya’s collar, pulling it so that it digs into the back of his neck, which has Ilya pausing as Shane inspects. “That, Ilya. What’s that.”

    or, Shane finds some (perfectly explainable) lipstick on Ilya's collar, and they both go through emotional saw traps

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    08 Feb 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 89

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    Ilya has spent most of his life believing that love is something you need earn.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    08 Feb 2026

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Luca: if we are holding our horses that means we want to go outside?

    Luca: take a break and go see animals?

    Ilya: yes

    Ilya: exactly

    In which Ilya Rozanov self-appoints himself the official unofficial English tutor to one very confused Luca Haas

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    08 Feb 2026

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    05 Feb 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 67

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    “I will never fucking forgive you if you get lung cancer and die. Ilya watched another cloud of smoke disappear into the night sky. I know, sweetheart, he replied silently. I know. He imagined Shane would be similarly unforgiving if Ilya took his own life. Not that Ilya ever would. Unless he couldn’t help it.” - The Long Game, Ch 18.

    Or, this quote haunted me for days and I ended up writing a fic where Ilya couldn't help it.

     

    Title comes from Bad Bunny's song "Turista". If you haven't heard it yet, go give it a listen, it's the perfect Hollanov song. Also in character since Ilya's a canon Bad Bunny fan.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Hayden could not imagine someone losing that and their mother in the same day. It would age you. It would change you. Perhaps by the time Ilya had been thirteen, and fourteen, perhaps he had already been grown.

    Hayden Pike grit his teeth because he knew he had been wrong. Ilya Rozanov had never just been an obnoxious hockey player with a colossal ego and nice smile - nice enough to entrap Shane Hollander, anyway - and now his hatred was mostly unfounded. He hated it when people were more complex than they seemed. It meant he had to change his mind.

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    Five times people see the impact of Ilya growing up too fast, and one time a tiger becomes a boy again.

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    02 Feb 2026

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