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    “Just got the word from the officials, Metros are shutting Miitka down for the night," LeClaire says almost dispassionately. “Third period we’re up against,” LeClaire consults his clipboard, “Shane Hollander. Drafted 2009, current starter for the Laval Maples, posts a .905 save percentage.”

    Ilya stays where he is, rolling the name around in his head once, without much interest.

    Hollander.

    Doesn’t ring a bell.


    Inspired by that one twitter post, what if Shane was a goalie?

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    28 Feb 2026

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    “Hello?” comes the smallest voice Ilya’s ever heard.
    “Alina?”
    “Uncle Ilya.” She sniffles over the line.
    “Alya, what’s going on?” He is trying desperately to keep his tone steady.
    “Dad, he um…he found out.” Fuck.
    “Found what out?” He asks, even though he already knows the answer.
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    Ilya's niece comes to visit.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Ilya told Shane's family that he talked to Scott Hunter. He didn't tell them when.

    Scott and Ilya and the times they met up on rooftops over the years.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is drived, guarded and carrying more than one person should
    Scot Hunter is effortlessly reliable, the kind of person who notices what no one else does.

    One the night of the 2011 MLH awards, an unlikely mutual trust forms, teaching both of them that brotherly bonds aren't only made of blood

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Hey. Can we talk?

    Scott’s text message came in the middle of the night. Kip discovered it in the morning, when he was still blinking sleep out of his eyes, feeling instantly awake as he stared at the words.

    Hey. Of course. Where and when? He typed frantically.

    Scott didn’t read the message. He wasn’t online for quite a while.

    And then Kip got the call.

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    Scott hits his head. Kip was waiting for a text message. They're not okay.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Ilya googles Scott Hunter in his hotel room at night. He reads some interviews too.

    Scott Hunter is an orphan. He lost his parents when he was twelve. A drunk driver killed them both.

    Twelve.

    Ilya’s stomach tightens into a knot. He can’t keep the memories away. They’re rising from the grave he tried to bury them in so many times. Mama.

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    Ilya, Scott, and the transformation of their relationship(s).

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    27 Feb 2026

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    With sudden, obvious clarity, Hayden realized that maybe it wasn’t that Shane wasn’t comfortable with intimacy, but rather that the world—especially the world of the NHL—wasn’t comfortable with the type of intimacy Shane wanted.

    Or Hayden Pike POV as Shane comes to terms with being gay.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Maybe together they could figure out a way to make sure Ilya was never afraid of David again. He really didn’t want to be afraid of David.

    “Is… silly.” Ilya said. “Maybe not silly, but now that we are here and not there, I see it was silly. I broke the wine, and I thought - maybe everyone will be angry. And…” Clearing his throat, Ilya pushed past his discomfort to spit out the next part. “Well, angry back in Russia is not the same as angry here, I think.”

    “What was angry like back in Russia?”

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    Ilya drops a bottle of wine, and it's fine. Really, it's fine. If only someone could tell Ilya's brain that.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Because, sometimes, it takes almost losing everything to realize just how much you have to lose.

    Set post The Long Game (book 6).
    TW for suicide, descriptions of suicidal thoughts, depression.

    Fic 1: Two years after getting diagnosed with depression, Ilya becomes suicidal. (published)
    Fic 2: After Ilya's suicide attempt, him and Shane have to learn that getting help is even harder than it looks. (work in progress)

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    26 Feb 2026

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    If he were sober, he might have recognized how catastrophically bad this idea was. That the roulette ball was not a sign, that they’d been playing for over an hour and it was bound to land on twenty-four eventually. But there was a buzzing warmth flooding his veins and a very loose grip on his rationality, so he headed away from the bar, through the lobby, and out onto the balmy Vegas strip. He leaned against a shadowed wall and scrolled to a contact he’d hovered over a thousand times before.

    This time, he called.

    Or: Five years after Rose helped Shane come to terms with his sexuality, he’s done everything else on his own. Coming out, surviving the backlash, being traded to Ottawa. When the dust finally settles, Shane meets a nice guy from Montreal and tells himself he’s ready to move on. He’s definitely not thinking about Ilya. Or Ilya’s gorgeous Russian wife. Not at all.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    “Olesya.”
    “Oh-lee-syah,” Shane repeated slowly, making sure he pronounced it right. “What… what are you going to do?”
    “I don’t know,” Ilya said, resting his head in his hand. “I don’t fucking know.”
    Shane’s voice was steady. “What can I do?”
    How long had it been since someone offered to help Ilya? He took care of his family, carried his brother’s financial burdens, tended his own injuries, paid his way through life without aid. The question, softly spoken and rich with genuine intent, was enough to bring tears to his eyes. Could he really trust it? Could he ask someone for help?
    For once, he wanted to try.

    OR: Ilya is left with sudden custody of Alexei's daughter and calls Shane to help.

    (Set just before the cottage.)

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Svetlana is always being called upon to fix everyone's fucking problems. She'd rather be in on it for the fun parts too.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    26 Feb 2026

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    “Oh, so you have problem with LGBTQs?” Rozanov leans back against the counter, chest puffed out, nipples tight. Shane has the distinct feeling Rozanov is toying with him, like a cat with a cornered mouse. But Rozanov’s smile is so soft, and for some reason, that makes Shane even more nervous.

    “Fuck! No, I don’t—”

    “If you have boner when I am fucking men—”

    “What the fuck, Rozanov?” Shane can feel his pulse in his head, like someone is beating two ball peen hammers right against his temples. He blinks hard. Fuck, he can barely see straight.

    “—you might be LGBTQs. So I think you should not have problem, yes?"


    Or: Ilya and Shane navigate sharing a house.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    @HarveySmth76: 
    So, Dallas Kent's teammate just tweeted this: 

    Rozanov isn’t any better, though. Like we all know it. Dude's banged like a thousand women. Bet if even just a few of them talked, you'd all be shutting up about Kent pretty quick. 

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    Dallas Kent’s teammate makes a bigoted assumption. A very loud, very incorrect assumption. Twitter eats him alive.

    Because, yes, Rozanov has slept with a lot of women and they have a lot to say. About consent and check-ins and that accent.

    #OkIWillTalk is trending, as is #SexGodOfTwitter. Toronto Survivor's Legal Fund is finally gaining some traction. And Ilya is definitely going to punch Kent. Again.

    Told through twitter snapshots and extracts from the Ottawa Centaurs Group Chat. 

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    26 Feb 2026

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Shane’s hearing is muffled, sound bubbling in and out like he’s swimming through the lake, dipping under the surface and back into the air. He can make out a word here and there, enough to know that Rozanov is trying to get him to breathe with him. He can feel the expansion of Rozanov’s lungs against his hands as he takes deep breaths in and lets them out. Shane tries to copy him, he does, but every inhale carries the scent of him, his cologne, his skin, his hair products. The scents are so familiar to him, and he wants more than anything for them to calm him, make him feel safe, but they are doing the opposite. Why are they still so familiar to him after not being anywhere near Rozanov for half a year? Why does he still want to shove his face against Rozanov’s throat and suck in every last last hint he can get?

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    Ilya takes longer to arrive in the bathroom after they present the award together, leaving Shane time to sink into a full-blown panic attack. This leads to a very different night in Vegas and an earlier beginning to Shane and Ilya’s relationship.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Did you figure anything out? Shane writes, and flips the page around for Ilya to read it.

    Wont like the answer, Ilya’s written, in his quick hand.

    So he doesn’t have to take the pen back, Shane just shrugs. What?

    Ilya sits down at the desk for a steady surface to explain.

    3 things
    1 its curse. if true we can break it
    2 its spell. if true we can break it
    3 we are soulmates. if true we are fucked

    “No,” Shane mutters, before he can stop himself. Immediately, he slams a hand over his mouth.

    or: Ilya and Shane are soulmates, and their bond prevents them from both talking and being apart. Unfortunately, the only thing that’ll make the pain stop is confessing the one thing they can say: that they’re in love.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Ilya hasn’t planned on meeting Shane’s parents after only three days at the cottage. He sure as hell hasn’t planned on dying that very same day, only to wake up in his childhood home in Moscow.

    The year is 2004, he’s twelve again, and his mother is still alive.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    After an unsettling interaction at Sunday service, Jud gives Blanc a call.

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    22 Feb 2026

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