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    “Y-you want me to be a girl?”

    Ilya rubbed the base of one of his thumbs with the other. Seeing Ilya’s shyness so plainly made Shane’s nose twitch.

    “No, not all the time,” Ilya said after a moment. “And not if you don’t want to. Never if you don’t want to. I just . . . I think about it, sometimes.”

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    Ilya loves his life and his husband. But lately, he's found himself missing girls. Luckily, Shane is happy to indulge this fantasy.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “Enough!” Shane snarled, his voice hoarse but fierce. He glared down at his alpha, whose lips were glistening with saliva and traces of colostrum. “You behave right now or so help me god, I will find that cock cage and that practice muzzle and you will spend the rest of this pregnancy locked and muzzled in the corner like the feral dog you are.”

    The threat sent a jolt of pure electric lust straight to Ilya’s knot.

    (or, what started as a cute Shane mpreg fic now has angry omega, tit fucking and muzzled alpha)

    Tag to be covered: Shane Hollander Walks Ilya Rozanov Like A Dog

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    16 Feb 2026

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    The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.

    So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?

    Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.

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    Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.

    And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.

    Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    “You know you chew on your pen a lot?” She asked, jaw slipping against her palm as she tried to keep herself awake. Again. Fair. “Like, a lot.”

    (Shane has an oral fixation and it’s ruining his life.)

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Ilya smells like chamomile with something spicy underlying it, sweet and earthy and a little like some kind of home. Not overpowering and unbearable, like a lot of other Alphas. He hasn't heard anyone online talking about this, which makes something irrationally possessive inside him feel very sated. Mine.

    There’s a hand grabbing at his collar and pulling him back. “Who fucking taught you how to do that?”

    “Googled it,” Shane hears himself say smugly.

    Or: In fear of his Beta status being a source of dissatisfaction in their not-quite-relationship, Shane consults the internet on how to best keep an Alpha entertained.

    Ilya is beyond confused.

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    09 Feb 2026