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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Hayden cuts himself off at the sound of something he hears so rarely, he’s almost sure he’s imagining it. He scans the room, looking for the source, and sure enough, his eyes land on his target. 

    There, nestled in between two of his teammates on the couch, is Shane Hollander. 

    Laughing. Out loud. Audibly. 

    Like, he’s actually fucking laughing, not the fake laughs he forces out to make other people more comfortable. In fact, he’s laughing so hard, he looks like he might cry, and Hayden would be delighted by the sight of it if he weren’t so fucking concerned. Shane Hollander doesn’t laugh at parties. Shane Hollander barely laughs when he’s actually happy, and he’s never happy at parties. So what gives? 

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    Shane Hollander accidentally gets very high. That's it, that's the fic.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    24 Jan 2026

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    Shane secretly learns Russian to understand Ilya better, and accidentally unlocks a whole new level of intimacy.

    Ilya notices the suspiciously perfect timing.

    Love, languages, and a husband who absolutely starts abusing bilingual privileges.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    This is, by far, the weirdest concussion-fever-dream Shane has ever had. Especially considering the fact that he doesn’t have a concussion – he hasn’t taken a hit, or collapsed, or done anything that would result in head trauma in the last few months, as far as he knows. But clearly, he has to be misremembering, because there is no way this can be real.

    In which Shane Hollander gets turned every which way by four versions of Ilya Rozanov at once.

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    12 Feb 2026