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    Shane Hollander knows he’s not a small guy. Years of hockey and workouts have built up his muscles, and lucky genetics from his father’s side places him just shy of six feet. He’s checked hockey players half a foot and several pounds more than him, knocked Scott Hunter into the ice in the one fight he’s ever actually thrown hands in. But as much as Shane loves the game, the fast movements, passes, and team camaraderie, there were times where he could only feel regret at following the path of athletic fame. He puts on the media smile he practices in the mirror as he brushes his hair each day, uses the bright lights of press conferences to erase his view of the audience, and keeps his answers simple and focused on hockey.

    The number of people outside the arena still makes him feel crushed in on all sides, small. Eyes trained on his face, cameras flashing, pens and cell phones being passed into his hands. The itch of it all settles under his skin.

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    @OttawaPoliceDispatch: Police have been dispatched to a house alarm in Galetta, On. Possible break in, destruction of property.

    @OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:25 pm in Galetta, On

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Maybe he was naive, but Ilya always thought he had time. Time with Shane. Time to tell him what he truly meant to him.

    That, somehow, one way or another, Shane would always be there.

    But a text message late one night threatens to destroy the future that Ilya has spent the time carefully constructing in his mind.

    Maybe Shane wasn't always going to be there. That Shane would be cruelly snatched away from him before he had a chance to be honest.

    That he would be left behind. Alone.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is struggling to make ends meet. After his best friend Hayden sets up a dating profile for him on a sugar baby website, he learns that there are some men who will pay for anything - even companionship.

    ** EPILOGUE ADDED 02/20/26 **

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Ilya had known a public relationship with Shane meant no more trips back to Russia. And that by becoming a Canadian citizen, he had effectively severed his last official tether to the land where he had been born. To the frozen ponds where he had learned to skate. To the home of the language that shaped his thoughts. 

    To the place where his mother had been buried.

    Or: Ilya learns that change doesn't always have to mean leaving the past behind.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    “Shane,” Rose says gently. “I don’t think Eva is good for you.”

    Shane sighs into his water glass. This again. You get one shoe thrown at you during an argument, and suddenly everyone thinks you’re being abused.

    Or: Shane ends up dating Rose’s co-star rather than her, and soon finds himself in an abusive relationship. Ilya and Shane's friends need to put aside their differences in order to keep him safe.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander was one of the best, if not the best, hockey players in the world. So when he collapsed on the ice during a game and was threatened with losing the rest of his season, he knew what he had to do.

    Ilya Rozanov only realized that Shane Hollander was something he had to lose after he almost lost him. He won't make that mistake again.

    AKA: Shane gets diagnosed with cancer. He is still determined to win the Stanley Cup. Ilya Rozanov is down so bad for Shane Hollander. He doesn't know Shane has Cancer. No one does.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    “He’ll never forget anything about their first night. Or any night he shared with Ilya. Every detail has been etched into him. Without them, he wouldn’t recognize himself. Without them he was blank.

    Stop thinking about Rozanov. Fuck.

    He seeks new memories. New… etches.

    So when future archeologists dig up his bones they won’t read them like a love letter to Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane knows it’s risky.

    But he doesn’t know that tonight he won’t be etched, he’ll be broken.”

    When Shane hooks up with a stranger after a game, he thinks the worst that could happen is getting outed. He is wrong. What was meant to be a night to forget all about Ilya Rozanov, becomes a night when he needs him most.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Jackie and Hayden really want to meet the infamous Lily and manage to procure "her" phone number.
    This takes place a few months after the boyfriends-conversation, but before Ilya moves to Ottawa.

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    29 Jan 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 51

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    “You are in funny mood tonight, Hollander,” says Ilya.

    “Sorry,” says Hollander immediately, which is kind of funny, just because it’s so predictable.

    “Is no problem,” says Ilya. Hollander doesn’t say anything else. Maybe Ilya should just shut up, but when they’re cuddling like this, he kind of wants them both to be enjoying it. So he pushes a little more. “Things are good for you, yeah? You won game. You will go to playoffs. Is good.”

    Hollander kind of freezes for a minute, and then he jerks away roughly. When he does, Ilya’s head smacks back against the headboard, and the pain distracts him. What the fuck? Why is Hollander mad at him? He turns back to Hollander, ready for a fight, but Hollander isn’t saying anything. He’s hiding his face like a little kid, crying, and then he’s resting his head on his bare knees. Ilya can tell his breathing is fast and panicked.
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    Or, Ilya's pov of the events of "Just to see if you'd mourn me"

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive—NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at a Manhattan 7-Eleven. He's too tired to notice that his new regular customer is clearly Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee.

    When Ilya gives him a $10k scarf and gloves, Shane sells them for rent money. Any normal person would be terrified. Ilya is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing.)

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Ilya sat straight up after falling, and he looked to his immediate left, seeing the motionless body sprawled out on the ice. It didn’t register to him right away, though it should have. Then, he noticed the blood, a small pool starting to form under Shane’s head. No. no no no nonononono. He glanced down at his skates, noticing a small trace of blood on the tip of his right blade. He felt like he was going to puke.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    05 Jan 2026

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    The internet has decided that Ilya Rozanov is absolutely, definitely, 100% banging a Hollander.

    They’ve got photo evidence. Multiple sightings. Instagram stories from the same café. The man stayed OVERNIGHT at the Hollander residence.

    It’s the most legendary power move in NHL history: seduce your rival’s hot mom to assert dominance. There’s just one tiny problem with this theory. Ilya’s fucking a Hollander, all right. Just … not that one.

    Or in which Ilya’s boyfriend's mother keeps adopting him, the internet keeps assuming the worst, and Shane Hollander is having the worst month of his entire life. At least until he does something that breaks hockey forever.

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    29 Dec 2025

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    S1EP5 The iconic hospital scene, but Yuna is also in the room when Ilya comes to visit.

    Featuring one cutie pie Shane Hollander, blissfully drugged up and endearingly filter-less.

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    28 Dec 2025

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    After a charity hockey game, Ilya and Shane encounter a fan who feels entitled to Shane's time.

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    21 Dec 2025

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    “No, Ilya, stay.” The last word came out as a whine.

    “Why is he calling you Ilya?” Pike asked.

    "Why is he asking you to stay?” Hollander’s mom followed.

    Ilya shrugged. “How would I know?”

    Hollander lifted his arm out, as if reaching for Ilya. “Because I want him to stay.” It was said in a tone that seemed to say, 'obviously'.

    “Shane,” Hollander’s dad started. “Um- what’s going on? I thought we hated Rozanov.” He seemed to realise what he’d said and glanced at Ilya. “Sorry.”

    “Is fine.”

    "No, I don't hate him. I love him."

    Cliff's jaw was firmly hanging open, and he didn't think it was going to move anytime today. He felt as if he'd been punched in the stomach, all the air ripped away from his lungs.

    "Am I dreaming?" Cliff muttered to himself.

    Pike let out a strained laugh. "I think someone spiked my coffee this morning."

    (cliff, ilya, hayden & shane's parents visit shane in hospital after the incident. a very drugged up shane cannot hide his feelings for ilya)

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    19 Dec 2025

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    shane gets sick before a game against boston... looks like he wont be seeing ilya later (unless???) ft. ilya bringing shane russian food

     

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    He hadn’t told Rozanov, why would he? They’d exchanged their usual quips in the days leading up to the game, riffing about who would win, how many goals they’d score. But underlying it all was the knowledge that they’d end the night in each other’s arms. Shane refused to admit it, but that might have been part of the reason he was so determined not to get sick. If it was any other game, any other team… It had been four months since he’d seen Rozanov. Four months of convincing himself he would finally end it, while simultaneously counting down the days until they would see each other again-- until this game. A game Shane would not be attending.

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    13 Dec 2025

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    Something Ilya did not study in English were the forbidden words. Slurs, in English. Why would he? He knew the big ones that he should ‘be careful to not even rhyme with when there’s a camera on him,’ said the Bears’ PR manager, so he didn’t, and that was that.

    Except, now they were saying something about Hollander in the locker room.

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    13 Dec 2025

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    Ilya watches Shane drop the gloves on live television and thinks he looks like an angry kitten. It’s a terrible idea to tell him that.

    He does it anyway … along with presenting evidence.

    Shane’s going to kill him. Or maybe he won’t. Maybe he’ll put on the stupid cat ears, just this once, just for tonight, and let Ilya see him the way nobody else gets to: unguarded, trusting, and finally willing to stop fighting for a few stolen hours.

    (They can’t keep doing this. They will anyway.)

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    11 Dec 2025

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    Instead of texting Ilya at the Sochi Olympics, Alexei finds his brother at the short-form figure skating...with Shane Hollander. A fight breaks out, leaving Shane injured and Ilya mortified and unsure what to do in a country where he can't do anything to help Shane.

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    11 Dec 2025

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