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    Stuck in an alt-world where he and Shane never hooked up as teenagers, Ilya is determined to get Shane back. To do that, Ilya has to figure out a way to get Shane to see him as anyone other than the Russian asshole who has spent a decade pissing him off. It can't be that hard to make your husband fall in love with you... right?

    Basically: Shane Hollander makes a wish with good intentions. Ilya Rozanov wakes up confused, single, closeted, and miserable in Boston.

    +Bonus Chapter where AltWorld!Ilya wakes up confused, married, out, and carefree in Ottawa

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Holy shit holy shit holy shit. This is everything I could ever want in a fic. The pining on every end was perfect. I love Ilya being THE yearner of all time. Also, I’ve been looking for a fic that tackled the whole “thinking you’re in a dream and trying to take advantage of it bc you don’t think you’ll ever get to be with this person irl” trope with Hollanov and this was just perfect. Def top 3 hollanov fics for me at least, and maybe top 10 ever???

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Ughhhh the yearning. This series is so fucking enjoyable omg.

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    “He’ll never forget anything about their first night. Or any night he shared with Ilya. Every detail has been etched into him. Without them, he wouldn’t recognize himself. Without them he was blank.

    Stop thinking about Rozanov. Fuck.

    He seeks new memories. New… etches.

    So when future archeologists dig up his bones they won’t read them like a love letter to Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane knows it’s risky.

    But he doesn’t know that tonight he won’t be etched, he’ll be broken.”

    When Shane hooks up with a stranger after a game, he thinks the worst that could happen is getting outed. He is wrong. What was meant to be a night to forget all about Ilya Rozanov, becomes a night when he needs him most.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    This was so beautiful. The pining in the first chapter was visceral and so good. Everything that followed was genuinely a work of art. Hayden being the fantastic friend he is, Ilya being just so, so good, and Shane. Just Shane. I love him so much and this was such a crazy well written characterization and depiction. I really enjoyed reading the therapy sessions as well. (This is just straight up my comment but this is my personal reminder to reread when I can.)

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    “You broke up with her,” Ilya says, arms loosening against his chest.

    “No, she, uh—” Shane ducks his head, avoiding Ilya’s eyes. “We slept together. And she kind of … she didn’t confront me, I guess. But she talked to me. Kind of hinted that she thought I might not be…”

    “Into girls?” Ilya finishes for him.

    “Something like that.”

    “You denied it?” 

    “No, I— I told her. About me. About—us,” Shane’s head snaps up, a hand lifted in Ilya’s direction. “Not about us, us. That I’d been sleeping with someone. Another player. I didn’t tell her about you.”

    OR: Shane comes out to Rose and runs toward the safest pair of arms he knows: Ilya’s. 

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky.

    Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Ilya’s yearning here made me cry actual heavy tears this was so good.