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    They had so many years of love and joy, so many tender, vulnerable moments that they were never allowed to capture - never allowed to keep.

    “We don’t have any pictures together, Ilya,” Shane repeats, his voice frantic and desperate and almost pleading. “We’ve loved each other for a decade and all we have to show for it is-“

    “-us, Shane. We have us to show for it. Our life, our love, our home that we have built together.”

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    21 Feb 2026

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    21 Feb 2026

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    It kind of looks like junk, at first. Just a random collection of items, like the lost property box at the arena for things the cleaners find after games. But Shane quickly realises that the collection isn’t random at all.

    No, this is a box of memories.

    Ilya’s memories of Shane.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    “If you ever talk about my fiancé like that again, then I will end your career.”

    The words are pure vitriol, dripping from Shane’s mouth like venom from the fangs of a snake. He doesn’t raise his voice, he doesn’t even sound angry, he just sounds lethal. Like a man you don’t want to cross. Like a man who fully intends to honour his promise…or threat.

    He’s met with stunned silence.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    three times ilya and shane were still dramatically down bad for each other even though they've been married for years.

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    20 Feb 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 75

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    “Do it again.”

    “Ilya, come on.”

    “Again. Now. Please, I want to see my boyfriend wear glasses.” he even bats his eyelashes this time, looking up at him all pretty like the devil trying to distract Shane from scheduling. He looks up at him from where he now laid between his legs with bright, wide, hungry eyes.

    Shane just sighs and presses them back on his face. Adjusting them and looking back at Ilya, he shakes his head. “Okay?”

    (ie. what happens in the cottage after they leave yuna and david's house - as boyfriends)

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Arlo watches Rozanov catch the small gesture their boss gives him and grab the black coat off his shoulders, draping it over one arm with his black leather gloved hands. It freaks Arlo out a little, the wordless communication that Boss has with his bodyguard. The way they move like a single being, with Hollander always a step ahead but never more than that step far. Rozanov walks if Boss walks, like there’s an invisible leash latched to some collar that only Hollander can tug at.

    It must be so humiliating, he thinks just as Boss climbs the long flare of stairs that lead to the main entrance and Rozanov follows behind him like an obedient dog. He wonders if he burns with the shame of subduing himself like that. Of reducing his entire existence to a single man out of obligation.

    Or, italian mafia boss shane hollander and his guard dog through the eyes of an employee. and then through shane's own eyes.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “I want to eat you,” Ilya tells him.

    Shane laughs, loud and bright and carefree, and Ilya feels it blooming inside of his chest like a sunflower. It only makes the desire to consume him grow even stronger. Not in a crazy way (probably), but because he feels like he can never get enough of this man. His Shane. His husband. No amount of time, no amount of closeness, ever feels like it could be enough.

    He wants them both to be eternal, wants to live with their ribcages locked together and their hearts thumping against each other.

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    17 Feb 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 8

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    a series of one shots that are slices of life for shane and ilya as well as shared memories. just a lot of love. some hurt but mostly comfort.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording. 

    “Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.” 

    Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating. 

    His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next. 

    I have to see him. 

    Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now. 

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    OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...

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    15 Feb 2026

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    14 Feb 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 10

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    Hudson toyed with the lock of the cage. “Do you want this off?” he asked, and Connor immediately shook his head.

    “It reminds me that I’m yours. That I belong to you,” Connor explained.

    Hudson smiled and pressed his forehead against Connor’s. “You’re mine. All mine.” He would never get sick of saying that.

    OR

    Hudson celebrates his birthday in New York. Featuring hotel windows and a bag of sex toys.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    “You don’t have to.” Ilya whispers.

    “What?”

    “Love me. You don’t have to. To say it, you can move on, you can find someone better, you don’t have to.” he says. “I am. . . not good.” he settles on after trying to find the right words in his mind.

    *Alternate ending to episode 4*

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    13 Feb 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 81

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    “I feel stupid,” Ilya admits, the words slipping out thin and brittle. “I should be able to do this.”

    Shane pauses for a fraction of a second, then resumes, gentler still. “I know you think that,” he says. “But right now, your job is to be here and let me help. That’s it. You’re doing great.”

    *ilya is stuck in a depressive episode and shane helps him through it*

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    13 Feb 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 44

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    “You know what would really make me sure that you are not dead.” he asks as they pull away and Shane lets out a surprised huffed laugh. His eyes crinkle when he smiles and Ilya has to lean in and bite his neck just give him something to do to get the sudden wave of emotion out of his body at how fucking adorable his husband is.

    “What’s that?”

    “If you let me suck your dick?”

    OR shane has an injury on the ice and ilya needs something to remind him that he's still there

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    13 Feb 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 44

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    They’re seventeen and they’re forty-five and they’re every age in between, and Ilya isn’t sure if he believes in fate – not quite – but there isn’t a single moment from the past three decades that hasn’t felt like it’s been ushering him quietly towards some form of destiny.

    There are other ways to die, beyond the physical; slowly and agonizingly, locking the truth away until it’s indistinguishable from the lies. And there are other ways to live; slowly and carefully and secretly, and then out loud, all at once.

    Or: love between the lines, glimpses of the moments spent in secret before the arrival of the abstract ‘some day’. Five times Shane and Ilya hid themselves from the world, and one time they didn’t have to.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    He wasn’t ready for this.

    Maybe he never would have been, not in two, or five, or ten years. Maybe he would have spent the rest of his life holding this secret inside, not telling a single soul about the way his heart beats for his biggest rival. Or maybe, in a year or ten or once he’s retired, he might have come out publicly. Might have shared his truth with the world.

    But that was supposed to be his choice. To tell or not to tell, to hide in the shade or step out into the sunshine. It was supposed to be his decision, and now it’s been taken from him.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    “I do not want to make you uncomfortable. With how I talk about us. To others. Like . . . reporters. Or how I treat you in front of others, like the guys on the team.”

    Something like understanding settled on Shane’s face now, and it immediately made Ilya’s heart stop racing. “You think I don’t like PDA.”

    “First time I held your hand in public I thought you were going to have a panic attack,” Ilya admitted.

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    Or: Shane's first season on the Ottawa Centaurs, as told through five times Ilya initiated PDA (and one time Shane did).

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    09 Feb 2026

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    09 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is too much of a nosy bitch to go years with a Russian situationship and not learn a little Russian. And I think the post-tuna melt conversation would have gone quite differently if he had.

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    09 Feb 2026

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