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Evan Buckley starts writing to himself before he knows why.
At first, the letters are small. Apologies. Explanations. Rules for how to be good, how to be quiet, how to make things easier for everyone else. As he grows, the letters change — darker, flatter, more tired — following him through years of numb survival, reckless choices, and a life lived on the edge of disappearing.
The timeline stretches from childhood to adulthood, from a house that never quite wanted him to a firehouse that teaches him what staying might mean. And somewhere along the way, Buck has to confront the most frightening possibility of all:
that he was never meant to be easy to lose.
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15 Feb 2026
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Buck and Eddie got together shortly after the ladder truck bombing, Buck moves in with Eddie during his recovery and no one really questions it. The only people they actually tell they are dating are Chris, Carla, abuela and Tía Pepa. That is until Buck and Chris get stuck in the tsunami, anyways. Because whilst on top of the 136's truck, after saving as many as he could, Buck realises a few things about himself.
1 - he is a male carrier.
2 - he is pregnant.
3 - he is having a miscarriage. Whilst on blood thinners.
With no way of getting help to them any time soon, Buck is struggling to come to grips with those realisations, with trying (and probably failing) not to traumatise Chris too much more, and with his feelings regarding everything that was happening on top of the truck, and how he was going to tell Eddie, and, well, everything. Why didn't his parents get him tested? Why didn't he get himself tested when he left them?
How would they get through this?
With the help of their family, and each other, they might be able to. Just so long as he survives long enough to make it off the fire truck and back home.
And don't you worry, they will be happy, and have a baby eventually.Bookmarked by Dems
08 Feb 2026
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Five years is a long time to go clean.
Five years is a long time to not binge, not purge, not participate in the vicious cycle of guilt that links the two together.
Five years, to the day, is how long it's been for Evan Buckley.
Until Eddie gets his diagnosis.Bookmarked by Dems
01 Feb 2026
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Every time he sees them he relapses. It’s like something he just can’t escape. Phillip and Margaret make him feel a way that nobody else makes him feel. It’s not a good thing. Buck hopes that this time will be different, he hasn't seen them in a long time and he’ll be surrounded by family this time. Maybe for once it’ll be different.
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13 Jan 2026
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Desperate to run from his abusive girlfriend, Buck searches for a sign he didn't know he was waiting for—
He finds a payphone. He calls Eddie.
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11 Jan 2026
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To Buck, the most terrifying part about being diagnosed with stage three cancer was the thought of leaving his daughter alone. So, to prepare his family for the worst case scenario, Buck teaches Eddie how to be a father to his little girl.
Turns out, Eddie didn't need to learn how to love Tilly and Buck like his own. He'd already been doing that for a long time.
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30 Dec 2025
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Trying Not To Love You (Only Makes Me Love You More) by unhingedangstaddict
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Feb 2026
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Buck took Tommy’s hands in his own. “Look, Tommy, I- I know we’re going through a- a rough patch right now, but it’s just that, a rough patch. It- things can get better, things will get better, we just have to- to put in the work. We have to fight for it,”
Tommy gave Evan a small, sad smile and squeezed Evan’s hands gently, his own wedding ring pressing against his fingers, his thumb over Evan’s ring. “I just don’t know that there’s anything left worth fighting for. I still love you, Evan, I never stopped, but I think it’s time we let each other go.”
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Buck and Tommy get divorced after a devastating loss, only for Buck to find out afterwards that he's pregnant again with Tommy's baby forcing them to navigate their grief, anxieties, how to co-parent as a divorced couple, and the fact that they're both still very much in love with each other
Written for novempreg 'unplanned pregnancy' though it may be used to check other bingo boxes as well- Language:
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11 Dec 2025
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The 118 kids are tired of the Buddie Nonsense and hatch a plot to launch the ship.
AKA: I attempt to write a sexy hot tub fic and the boys decide to take my short!fic and run off with it into the sunset. Guess I was overdue for a long one anyway. Pay attention to the trigger warnings, this is a bit of a doozy. Also it's a Dead Dove. Don't come for me. This thing isn't for everyone.
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- Part 1 of Seeding the Ground
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- 40/40
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06 Dec 2025
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It started with a headache.
Or a hug, after the gate slammed down on a rented U-Haul, ready to take his Alpha friend 800 miles away from him. His nose buried in Eddie’s neck, chasing his scent straight from the source before it moved out of reach.
Or maybe it started with a lightning strike, a gunshot, a wave, a bomb, a grenade. An unfamiliar Alpha in the locker room, with a killer smile and an 8-pack.
But Buck first became aware of it as a thumping in his skull as he closed the door to
Eddie’shis house.-------
Or, my take on Omega Buck left behind by Alpha Eddie
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- Part 1 of In my Life, I Love You More
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- 10/10
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29 Oct 2025
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“What can I do? Should I tell Bobby I’m leaving? Should I go with you—“
“No!”
“Tell your parents to fuck off?”
“Oh my God, Eddie. It’s not that simple!”
“Really?” He crosses his arms. “I could do it. Simply. Let me do it.” Buck covers his eyes. He hears Eddie’s breath, clearer and clearer, the closer he gets, until he’s putting a hand on Buck’s arm. “Let me do it, sweetheart.”
or: The Buckley parents come to town and learn about Buck’s chronic pain.
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- Part 3 of roseblood
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19 Oct 2025
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Getting So Tired Of Smiling Through The Fire by Tillthewheelsfalloff
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
11 Oct 2025
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Buck is fine. He’s got it under control.
He has his routines. He knows what’s real after his coma dream rocks his world.
But some coping mechanisms are better than others, and he has to know.
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- Part 11 of Tilly's Whumptober 2025
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- English
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- 8,698
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- 1/1
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11 Oct 2025
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“With your recent blood test we've found evidence of you having “ASA”.”
Buck’s nervous smile faded. He sat straighter.
“ASA?”Dr. Rodriguez took a breath. “ASA stands for Antisperm antibodies”
Bucks breath hitched. He had never even heard of ASA before, but the uneasy look on Dr. Rodriguez's face - and the way his own nerves were written all over his expression. Told him this was something serious. He braced himself silently urging the doctor to explain further.
“Antisperm antibodies is when your immune system recognizes your sperm as foreign, causing your body to release antibodies that attach itself to your sperm and making natural conception extremely difficult for you.”
Buck was starting to feel his heart beat faster, his words coming out shaky.
“Wait- my immune system… is attacking my s-perm? What does t-that exactly mean?”Dr. Rodriguez takes a moment to look at Buck and in the calmest way, breaks the news to him.
“Mr. Buckley, I'm sorry to inform you but, you're sterile."+
Or: After the lightning strike, Buck finds out he's sterile.
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16 Sep 2025
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Everyone on the team knew that calls involving children were hard, especially for Buck.
But this was different.for buck it was like he was back there. He felt the endless hunger bubbling in his stomach, the phantom feeling of cracked lips. He felt like he needed a shower, now. He needed to wash off the never-ending dirt from his skin.
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16 Sep 2025
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“It was a date. When you and Marisol ran into me and Tommy, it was a date.”
“Marisol thought she was pregnant and I realized that I do actually want another kid, but not with her.”
The simultaneous, overlapping confessions hang in the air like an executioner's axe as Buck and Eddie stare at each other with wide eyes, both blue screening a little as they process the dual bombs just dropped.
Eddie recovers first, his head shaking slightly. “Wait, you and Tommy? So you’re-?”
Buck makes a pained noise, hands flying through the air once he finally gets his brain working again. “Uh uh, that is not the important thing here; Marisol is pregnant?!”
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Buck's coming out scene looks a little different when Eddie admits that he wants to have a baby.
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- 7/7
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11 Sep 2025
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Post Lawsuit
Buck returns to work
On the outs with the 118
Buck learns he has a teenage daughterSeries
- Part 3 of All Based In The Lawsuit Era
- Language:
- English
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- 21,206
- Chapters:
- 16/16
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09 Sep 2025
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Bobby is dead.
Buck feels alone and can't reach out to any of his people, so he falls back into old habits.
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09 Sep 2025
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got your head above water (but you still can't even breathe) by theotherlucifer
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
03 Oct 2025
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And he’s calling Maddie like he promised he would years ago. And she doesn’t pick up, because she’s gone too. And his breathing is fast and there’s tears running down his cheeks and he speaks into the phone “It’s getting bad again Mads. I said I’d tell you if it did. And I think now, it’s getting bad again.”
But he hears the familiar voice of the answering machine “this mailbox is full and not accepting new messages”, so he wipes his face and puts down the phone.
(Or Buck struggles during season 5 when everyone seems to leave, mind plagued with images of Eddie getting shot, and it all just spirals and spirals and spirals. But at least there are people there to catch him when he falls.)
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02 Sep 2025
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Big and bright and aflame (my body feels numb in the cold light of day) by Frank_alexander1129
Fandoms: 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020)
23 Sep 2025
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The one where TK gets all the author’s mental problems
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- Part 1 of Primary LS verse
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15 Aug 2025
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Evan Buckley sues the city after he is told he's not allowed to return as a firefighter because his captain - who he had viewed as a father - thinks he wasn't capable anymore.
But when he realises that the lawsuit wasn't the way to go, it's too late and he's being ignored by the whole of the 118. So when he goes to the doctors for a routine check in after all that had happened with his leg in less than a couple months and is told that there may be something much worse wrong with him - he has no one to go to. No one to lean on. No one to help.
So when it's confired that Evan 'Buck' Buckley has cancer and that was the real cause behind his pulmonary embolism, he runs.
He tells no one. He quits the 118. Leaves fire fighting behind. And decides that without his family, there's no reason to fight the cancer.
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- Part 1 of Evan Buckley has Cancer
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06 Aug 2025
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Seriously, this isn’t how Buck wants to spend Eddie’s last days in town; he’s really content to swallow it down again, keep the peace. He’s going to tell him he put in the notice on the loft, and they’re going to head to the bar with their family, and they’re both going to smile while Eddie drives away, even if it kills them. That is, until Eddie says it.
“If you're going to make this about me having to choose between you or my son, you’re going to lose. Every time.”
In hindsight, he really wishes he could have taken a deep breath, said no, c’mon, of course—that’s, that’s not even a question. He would prefer to take back the angry laugh, too.
But, it is what it is.
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25 Jul 2025