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  1. Rec 49

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    Dazai has a PTSD flashback while trying to be intimate with Chuuya who isn't aware of his trauma and it leads to frustration, silence, and hard to have conversations.

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    22 Feb 2026

  2. Rec 4

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    “If you’d wanted to leave, like Okgyeong, fair enough. But you didn’t want to leave, did you? You did everything you could to hang on, dug your fingernails in until you drew blood from all of us – and then at the end, when it mattered, you just let go. For the number of times you said you were the greatest there ever was,” says Doaeng, a little scorn showing through, “I really did think you’d try a little harder.”

    With Okgyeong gone and nothing left to fight for, Seo Hyerang finally makes an attempt to use her assets (manipulation! lesbian dysfunction! Big House!) for .... good?

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    10 Feb 2026

  3. Rec *

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    “Cool water boils the fastest, Lan Zhan,” his brother adds, cryptic and abstruse, because he has always had a penchant for speaking in a way that is utterly confusing to Lan Zhan. He says it like a reminder, like Lan Zhan should already know that.

    “I am not cool water, Lan Xichen.”

    “No, you are not. You have been boiling for quite a while now,” his brother says, and what is Lan Zhan supposed to say to that? He has never been very skilled at following along his brother’s convoluted words and connotational analogies that never make any sense. Except when Wei Ying returns with some sweet dough on a stick, holding it to his mouth and grinning at him brightly, easily, unworriedly, he does feel like he’s boiling. From the inside, right beneath his sternum, like a wildfire pressing against his ribcage.

    or: Lan Zhan does not have much of an opinion of Wei Wuxian when he is informed of the betrothal proposal. That changes rapidly. It goes a little like this:

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    10 Jan 2026

  4. Rec *

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    “About that,” Vi says. “How’d you end up here? What did a girl like you do to get tossed into this two-star shithole?”

    “Really? That’s how you ask? No subtlety in it?”

    “Uh, yeah? I saved you from getting shanked in the shower, so fair’s fair. What’s your deal, topside?”

    “Caitlyn,” she says. That isn’t right. That wasn’t the answer Vi was after. Names are easily given away but so seldomly remembered in Stillwater, but it echoes in Vi’s head. She almost doesn’t hear the actual answer. “And though I have no doubt a thousand people have given this answer before, I did nothing. I was doing my job, and then I was here. No trial. No sentencing. No crime to speak of.”

     

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    Half a decade into Vi's stay in Stillwater, a topsider turns up, raving about being a Councillor's daughter.

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    28 Dec 2025

  5. Rec 8

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    “A man is following me,” she whispered, “please can you act like you know me?”
    Dazai nodded slightly and grinned.
    “There you are! We were wondering where you’ve been.”

    Helping a woman running from her attacker leads to an important conversation for Dazai and Atsushi.

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    15 Dec 2025