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There were rules.
Carefully crafted, regimented to every action and thought he had made since he turned seventeen. Their words a mantra in his head that made him scrape by just enough, made him perform just right, so no one would be able to tell that deep down some part of him was rotting.
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Ilya Rozanov gets a phone call out of the blue from his sister-in-law informing him that his brother has died. Out of tradition he grabs the bottle of sealed vodka from the kitchen to give his brother a final toast goodbye but finds himself faced with breaking the rules around alcohol he put in place when he was seventeen but it's fine, right? He doesn't have a problem, does he?
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The fall of the great Grigori Rozanov began long before anyone could spot the crumbling foundations. A series of silent strokes, the doctors had told him. Undetectable, seemingly insignificant infarctions with no outward symptoms to show for until the first name failed to find purchase in his lips, lost in a sea of memories and confusion.
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A small piece detailing the thoughts of Ilya as he is on the plane to Russian after finding out about the death of his father.
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There Must Be Balance by usssamwell
Fandoms: Critical Role: Aramán (Web Series), Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series)
18 Oct 2025
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"His sleeping conditions are less than desired, honestly a hotel or even a middle rate inn would have been nicer, but despite the shiver running down his spine and the mud seeping into his clothes none of it matters because he’s glowing; his tattoos are glowing."
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Post 4x03 Spoilers - The Soldiers make camp one night on their way to Timmony, Wicander cannot sleep and reflects on the events that happened in the Villa Aurora, the Filament tattooed on his face, and what it means for him.
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Obi-Wan stared blankly at the flask as the old man gestured to the wreck around them. He remembered the children in the Young, how they reminded him of his creche mates, the girl in his arms; they weren't nearly old enough for everything going on. But they were old enough to die, a voice cried out inside his head. Obi-Wan took the flask and held it to his lips, the liquid burning his throat as it went down. He'd never felt so cold.
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From the perspective of Obi-Wan Kenobi, from padawan up to 9BBY, this is a take on his life as if he suffered from alcohol misuse and how it impacted his life.
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Back then he had been so sure of everything, of his faith, of his purpose in life, but that faith had died the first time Yusuf’s blade pierced his skin.
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A little prose on Nicky's inner conflict around religion and what worship truly means.
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an art to life’s distractions by noedovenest
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Feb 2026
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Were they actually fighting about Ted fucking Lasso? Shane buried his face in his hands and let out a long groan. Maybe he should’ve picked something else to watch, but it was right there, and it said continue watching, and it was so easy that how could he not? Plus, he’d been dying to know who was going to win the final match, because it turned out soccer was way more fun to watch when it was fictional.
OR: Ilya and Shane discover that marriage comes with its fair share of arguments and most of them are silly. One of them isn't. (5+1 fic)Bookmarked by usssamwell
22 Feb 2026
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“Lily,” Hayden says automatically. “You know about Lily?”
Something flickers across Rozanov’s face. His jaw twitches. “Yes, I know about Lily.” He raises his eyebrows.
Hayden feels like a complete asshole, all of a sudden. There’s just been too much going on to even think about Shane’s mystery girlfriend. “Shit, I should probably, like, call her, or something? I don’t know this girl at all, but Shane’s been obsessed with her for years. If she was watching the game, she would have seen him get hurt.”
“You don’t need to call her,” Rozanov says, and when Hayden glances at him, he still looks fucking miserable but now he’s rolling his eyes, a much more familiar expression of disdain on his face. “She’s sitting right here.”
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Hayden Pike and Ilya Rozanov are waiting for Shane to wake up after he took a bad hit on the ice. They get to talking.Chapter 2: Ilya and Shane talk about what it means, now that someone knows their secret.
Chapter 3: Shane and Hayden hash out the big reveal.
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22 Feb 2026
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It happens against Montreal, because of course it does.
Shane Hollander has accumulated hundreds of penalty minutes across his career, same as every other hockey player, but none have ever been from fighting.
That is until a bad hit by his former teammates leaves his husband laid out on the ice and a comment that crosses the line has Shane dropping his gloves for the first (and hopefully last) time.
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to have & to holler by badmetaphors
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
21 Feb 2026
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Two years of playing together, and it still hit him every time. The casualness of it. My husband. Said out loud, in public. After years of hiding—stolen moments in hotel rooms, careful distance in public, the constant exhausting performance of just teammates, just rivals, nothing to see here—now Ilya could say it like it was nothing. Like it was easy, like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Because it was. Finally.
In which Ilya Hollander-Rozanov cannot shut up about his husband. (Subtitled: No one asked, Ilya. Ilya. No one asked.)
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22 Feb 2026
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Crashing 'Verse by WhimsicalSesquipedalian
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10 Feb 2026
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