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    Ilya felt one of those phantom pains, this one his hip, from himself at fifteen years old. He hadn’t been scared to fight back at that age. He even relished in it when Alexei or his father had been especially cruel. His older brother had accidentally shoved him into a wall during one of their games, his hip knocking into the hard edge of the doorframe. In return, Ilya threw Alexei into the couch so hard it broke. He’d gotten the belt for it while Alexei walked free.

    Or, a post-win celebration has Shane and Ilya in the locker room with their team, play-fighting, and Ilya accidentally bruises Shane's ribs. He hadn't even realized it, but he'd become exactly like his brother.

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    24 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 27

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    Retired and married, Ilya and Shane look to start building their family.

    The adoption doesn't go as planned.

    Ilya takes it hard.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    “You don’t look at me like I am crazy.” Ilya says, voice barely above a breath.

    Shane’s brow furrows. “Because you’re not.”

    “I feel like I am.”

    Shane’s hand comes up to cradle his jaw. Warm palm with gentle pressure on his skin. “You look like someone doing something hard.” Something in Ilya’s chest cracks open again, but softer this time.

    (ie. ilya has a very rough day at therapy and comes home to shane to process it all and feel comfort)

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    21 Feb 2026

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    “Am I too boring for you?”

    He doesn’t mean to ask. Doesn’t mean for those words to come out. They fall from his lips before he has a chance to stop them, and the second they’re out there he wants to take them back. He wants to swallow them down so they can’t hurt anyone but himself.

    Because Ilya…Ilya flinches.

    “What.”

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    19 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 75

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    Ilya wanted to get better. He had tried everything… except antidepressants. But starting antidepressants wasn’t something that was easy - not for him, at least.

    Luckily, he had Shane to help him through it.

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    19 Feb 2026