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    Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth.

    Shane wishes he had gotten one.

    After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.

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    24 Jan 2026

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    “No, my parents–” Shane cuts himself off, darting his eyes away from the road to meet Ilya’s. “They know about you.”

    “Yes,” says Ilya, dragging the single syllable and nodding just as slowly. Though Shane’s returned his attention to the highway, he can feel Ilya’s confused stare. “I was in Hollander house, drinking David’s nice vodka and eating Yuna’s good pasta. She is much better cook than you, surely you know this. But yes, I was there, they know I am your boyfriend.”

    “Ilya, no, well, I mean yes, but–”

    “I am supposed to be one bad with English,” mutters Ilya.

    “Are my parents the first people to know you aren’t straight?”

    Or, on the car ride home, Shane realizes he isn't the only one who got caught today.

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    01 Jan 2026

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    He only realizes he’s doing it when it’s too late to stop.

    He’s standing in the drink aisle of the grocery store, checking the expiration dates on the cans of Coke, mentally cross-checking them with Boston’s away game schedule, and the reality hits him like someone shook one of those cans and popped it open. A snap. A fizz. A mess.

    Shane is making space for Ilya.

     

    (or, lessons in budget-friendly shopping, home decor, and resisting the urge to neatly combine all your situationship’s shit into a drawer in your bedroom because you might be falling in love with him: a seven-ish step guide by shane hollander, who is so, so fucked)

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    16 Dec 2025

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    Five more minutes, Ilya told himself, fighting the slow, sleepy blinks and the dangerous urge that wanted nothing more than to pull the duvet over the two of them. Five more minutes and then I will go. Hollander is asleep, he can’t bitch about any risks.

    Ilya woke up fifteen minutes later, warm and content. He ignored the feeling as he slid out the bed, his chest tightening at the way Shane grabbed the pillow he was sleeping on and tugged it closer. He quickly got dressed, letting his eyes linger on Shane for a few more seconds before quickly slipping out the room.

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    Or, in which it takes a therapy session for Ilya to realise that Shane Hollander is his favourite weighted blanket.

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    06 Dec 2025

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    “Everything about being with Eddie feels right, and good, so so good, Maddie. It’s not timing or logistics, or even—I know he’d say yes if I did ask to move in.”

    “But you feel like you can’t?”

    Buck shakes his head.

    “Because I’m cursed.”

     

    (or, buck needs a loophole. eddie needs to know buck needs a loophole.)

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    30 Mar 2025