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  1. Rec 64

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    His arms ache from the CPR before the ambulance arrived, and his temples are throbbing. The cross around his neck feels heavy, like it’s pulling him through the floor. Someone must have opened a window, he thinks, his shoulders shaking in the December air. A different paramedic tells him the police will be there any minute, that he needs to sit down and take some deep breaths. He’s pulled onto a chair and someone fits an oxygen mask over his face. His skin feels wrong and he tears the mask off, fumbling with the slick plastic.

    “Tell them no sirens,” Ilya gasps weakly. “Our daughter is asleep. She’s twelve years old.”

    A series of vignettes about fatherhood, adoption, and the grief of an otherwise-normal Tuesday night in December. Shane and Ilya don't know if they're ready for parenthood, and ten years later, Ilya knows he's not ready to be a single dad. Set post-canon, across eighteen years of their daughter's life.

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    15 Feb 2026

  2. Rec 86

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    Shane will be the one to get dementia, in the end, once the disease progresses. He’ll be the one who forgets, in the final stages. It’s unfair, so fucking unfair, but Ilya can’t cry about it in front of their daughters or in front of Shane’s parents. So he gets up from the table and slams the patio door, pats himself down for a cigarette he knows won’t be there until his fingers find his mother’s cross laying heavy against his collarbone.

    Or, Ilya and Shane, and Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE). A series of vignettes.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    "Maybe he should ask Ilya for Shane Hollander’s number. Shane was a fucking babe.

    The thought made Troy smile, and that was at least something.”

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    What if in Role Model, Troy actually asked Ilya for Shane's number?

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    03 Feb 2026

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    It's the first game between Ottawa and Montreal since Shane transferred. Montreal's new center is out for blood, and when he manages to get under Shane's skin, Hollander surprises them all.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky.

    Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.

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    31 Jan 2026