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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “They want the Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs to be in the penalty box. They want Ilya Rozanov to lose his composure, so it throws him off his game. They want you to lose, us to lose.”

    “But we didn’t.”

    “You’re not listening to me, Ilya! They're using me to get at you; they’re hurting me to hurt you. Don’t you get that?”

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    Five times Ilya fights someone for Shane on and off the ice, and one time Shane fought for Ilya.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    they say, "you'll get used to it,"

    but it never goes away

    if I get through this,

    I'll never be the same.

    or, pieces of shane have been scattered to the wind but at least he had ilya.

    at least he had ilya.

    at least.

    he had ilya.

    ilya.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    "It just works better like that. Taking his mind off of the logistics and the meaning of it all and the implications lets him put that focus to better work on the actual thing he cares about: hockey. It really isn’t that different from outsourcing his branding to Mom, or any less embarrassing than his dietician meal prepping for him or his trainer mapping out his workout plan. They’re experts in their field, nutrition and marketing and fucking. Shane is an expert in his: taking all that into his body and using it to be fucking awesome at hockey. It’s win, win, win.

    Meals get delivered at his door. Room numbers and plans get texted to him. And appointments with photographers get emailed with subject lines reminding him to remember to use the good shampoo in his hair before them.

    He’s still in control in the sense he’s letting it all happen for him, except that sometimes, especially at these stupid fucking photoshoots, it feels a little bit like it’s happening to him, instead."

    Shane gets into a bad situation with a photographer who has pictures Shane would rather not get out. Ilya and Rose find out about it, eventually.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    “Shane,” Rose says gently. “I don’t think Eva is good for you.”

    Shane sighs into his water glass. This again. You get one shoe thrown at you during an argument, and suddenly everyone thinks you’re being abused.

    Or: Shane ends up dating Rose’s co-star rather than her, and soon finds himself in an abusive relationship. Ilya and Shane's friends need to put aside their differences in order to keep him safe.

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    14 Jan 2026