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    The media fallout from Ilya signing in Ottawa (and everything after), as seen through the eyes of a hockey journalist who might just have more in common with him than either of them realizes.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    If you’d already decided love was more than enough, that being together was bigger than fear; if you’d already picked each other over everything else, already picked a season to make it known; if you’d exchanged rings and vows and you knew this was forever and—most significantly—no one’s idiot best friend accidentally outed you early with his stupid side-hustle video scheme: would you stick to the plan?

    Or, would you play a slightly longer game to make your point; would you wait a couple extra months if it meant seizing the opportunity to go big, go bold, shove loving this much in the faces of the naysayers and the assholes and the bigots on an oh-so-convenient, quadrennially-available global stage?

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    Or: No FanMail. No outing. No forced free agency. Just their terms. Just their choice. Just their love.

    So hell yes: Shane and Ilya use the 2022 Winter Olympics as their hard launch. How’s that even a question?

    Scott Hunter’s gonna be so pissed at being upstaged that bad.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    I (26M) want to invite man I sleep with (26M) to my house to spend the weekend. Help me not ruin it.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov goes to the internet for dating advice

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    23 Feb 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane picks up on the third ring.

    “What?”

    Ilya closes his eyes, humiliation twisting his gut. Still, though, it’s nice to hear his voice. His shoulders sag a little. “Hollander?”

    “I don’t–” Shane sighs, long and heavy. “Why are you calling?”

    Why is he calling? Ilya couldn’t answer. Not in any way that makes sense, anyway.

    Voice wobbling, Ilya says, “I am sorry.” He inhales, breath hitching horribly. “Was mistake.”

    On the other line, Shane goes quiet. Then, shuffling around, he says, “What’s going on, Rozanov?”

    Or: Ilya calls Shane in the middle of the night, and against his better judgment, Shane comes to find him.

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    22 Feb 2026