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6:00am, day after christmas by rararaspoutine
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Feb 2026
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“It’s yours,” Shane says quickly, as if he can hear the change in Ilya’s breathing, as if they even know each other that well. “It has to be.”
“Oh.” For a single, shameful moment, satisfaction thrums through Ilya’s body. Mine, he thinks, briefly, before bile rises in his throat. This is bad. This is so bad.
_It's 2016, and Ilya Rozanov's lonely Christmas is interrupted by the worst possible news: Shane Hollander is pregnant.
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LOCAL SPORTS STAR MISSING: HOMICIDE SUSPECTED by rararaspoutine
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
06 Dec 2025
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The pointlessness of it all weighs on him as the speedometer ticks into the triple digits. His imagination spirals into his future. Tending his frequent injuries alone in a dark apartment. Sleek sedans with tinted windows trailing him down the street, the expensive suit and neatly trimmed beard of Ichirou watching him. Threats, demands, taking and taking from Neil until there is nothing left to survive on. Oh, he’ll be fine without Andrew. Fine in perpetuity, unchanged, desperate as a running rabbit. The tightening of the leash until one day either the leather snaps or he chokes himself on the chain.
Or, perhaps, he can do something else.
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Andrew breaks up with Neil. Neil enacts his longest con: faking his own death.
And then, he runs.
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In the training room, Damen does not step away when the knife drops.
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good things come by Ccainao3
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Feb 2026
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I want you to jerk off in the mornings, Ilya had said, the first time. He’d been trying to sound casual. Get right up close. And don’t come.
Shane had still been on top of him, a heavy weight impeding his breath, Ilya kept warm in the snug grip of his hole. At the words his ass had clenched softly, a little fluttering hug.
Every day? Shane had asked. There had been something close to wonder in his tone.
Every day, Ilya had said.
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Unravel me and you by rubygoby
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Feb 2026
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The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.
So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?
Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.
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Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.
And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.
Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.
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- Part 1 of Woe like velvet, tears like jewels
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22 Feb 2026
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the belly of the whale by Michelle_Wheeler
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jan 2026
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He’s sleepy, and he knows in later hours that’s what he’ll chalk it up to, as he does everything else, just with varied, stupid excuses. He’s tired now, he’s exhausted, he’s just woke up, and he’s kissing him—peppering his cheeks and lips and neck with light pecks—he takes a backseat in the world around him, watches his own actions like a motion picture: he’s kissing him, he’s loving him, he doesn’t care if he’s not supposed to love him because right now he does and it doesn’t matter, he doesn’t care if this isn’t who he’s supposed to be.
He is distantly aware, as he finishes lavishing Rozanov’s face with kisses, that his eyes are wet and hurting, and he’s choking on a sniffle. He doesn’t cry often, but he cries easily, and it feels bad while tears slip down his cheeks and onto Ilya’s skin, and he hates himself for it, hates himself for being this weak, this pathetic, this completely unable to keep his shit together.
Please. Just a little longer.
Or: Shane has spent his whole life running forward, and Ilya Rozanov is the first time he's ever wanted to stay still.
or or: A study on Shane Hollander and his fear of loving himself.Bookmarked by rararaspoutine
18 Feb 2026
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“I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”
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or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.
Ilya has open hands.
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08 Feb 2026
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Shane wakes up on Tuesday at 5:26 AM on game day in Boston, four minutes before his alarm goes off. Shane wants it to be Wednesday. But no matter what, Shane wakes up on Tuesday at 5:26 AM on game day in Boston, four minutes before his alarm goes off.
”Fuck,” he croaks. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”
Chapter 1: Shane wakes up on the same Tuesday over and over again after leaving Rozanov in a rush. Tuesday is his second least favourite day of the week, so he's not really happy about it.
Chapter 2: Ilya notices Shane acts strangely. He just never remembers.
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02 Feb 2026