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Snapshots before and after a sabbatical.
(wishful thinking on motorcycles, fist bumps, and rolling with the punches)
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16 Feb 2026
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He takes the sabbatical, after all. Sort of.
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15 Feb 2026
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Here the Frailest Leaves of Me by properpauper (royalmess)
Fandoms: Malevolent (Podcast)
29 Jan 2026
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When Arthur is asleep, John is haunted. Every bit of his surface area is too hot, too cold, too aching, too empty. John is convinced it goes beyond wanting. Every fiber of his limited existence craves touch and simultaneously rages with burning jealousy that it’s not easy to ask for.
or, 5 times John navigates his relationship to touch without a body + 1 time with a body
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10 Feb 2026
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let ruin end here / let this be healing by BonesoftheTrees
Fandoms: Malevolent (Podcast)
06 Feb 2026
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"I want you to be more than a spectator. And selfishly, I think I’d like to… reassure you, or have you do the same for me, even when we can’t speak freely to one another. The easiest way to do that is touch.”
He traced once again over the back of his left hand. John let out a quiet "oh" within Arthur’s mind.
"I don’t know how, though, Arthur. Like I said earlier, your mind needs to be… malleable. Susceptible to suggestion. I can’t do it on my own."
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Arthur struggles with being home. John has lost control of his hand. In the silent solitude of night, perhaps they can help one another.
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10 Feb 2026
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The problem wasn't that Robby touches Whitaker. The problem was that Dennis started touching him back.
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02 Feb 2026
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“Coffee? Really? I’m ready to get home and sleep.”
“Pulling a double. Abbot could use an extra set of hands and well… I’ve got no plans.”
Dennis grew accustomed to losing. Throwing his hand in the betting pool had been an attempt to get people to like him. He doubted anything would actually come from it. After shift talks in the break room had a tendency to change his mind.
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31 Jan 2026
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The night before Robby's last shift is quiet, comfortable.
He and Dennis leave work together and they pretend that nobody bats an eye, even though Robby can feel Dana's gaze drilling a hole in his back on their way out.
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Robby and Dennis talk things out before the sabbatical.
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31 Jan 2026
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“And what about you? Are you in safe hands?”
Robby runs a hand through his beard. He thinks about Whitaker clinging on behind him on the bike. He’d hold on so tight that it was like he was trying to pull Robby into his chest rather than himself into Robby’s back.
“I don’t know about that either.”
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Sick with their own separate miseries, Robby and Whitaker take a trip out to Nebraska together on Robby's motorcycle. They don't expect to find what they need in each other. And yet...
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26 Jan 2026
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“He looked at the careful way Whitaker had made the hospital bed, the folded protein bar wrapper that had fallen to the ground, the bag that probably contained the kid’s entire life, and something in him just… decided.
Maybe it was the exhaustion. Maybe the weight of too many losses in one day. Maybe the memory of Whitaker’s hands steadying him as he got back on his feet in Pedes.
“I have a spare room,” Robby said, before he could start talking himself out of it.”
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In the aftermath of Pittfest, Robby discovers Whitaker living on an abandoned hospital floor and offers him a place to stay.
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21 Jan 2026
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The rooftop is peaceful, Dennis decides.
It's quiet, private, and far removed from the chaos of the ED.
An ideal spot for a post-shift mental breakdown.
He should've known that his attending would have the same idea.
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21 Jan 2026
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“Can’t tie a tie. Just take me out back and shoot me.” Robby’s voice goes at the same time that Whitaker’s fingers brush over his throat, rubbing over the days-old stubble that he should have gone through the effort of cleaning up. Whitaker’s fastening the top-most button on his shirt, isn’t he? He is—and then he pops the collar to rope the tie back around Robby’s neck, pulling a little to get the measurements of each end of the tie against his torso just right, one end against his chest and the other down against his stomach, fixing Robby up in a way that’s really just undoing him.
“I believe in rehabilitation,” Whitaker says.
“Tell that to the rat from last week.”
Dennis sees the cracks in Robby. Convincing him to take a break before he breaks is easier said than done. It's not Dennis' business, either.
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17 Jan 2026
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Two days off, a snow storm, and nowhere to go. Robby and Dennis have been hooking up for a few weeks…they’re only getting more obsessed.
[a postscript to take it on the chin but also a standalone romp]
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- Part 2 of swallow
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08 Jan 2026
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a teenage patient codes on whitaker’s shift, and nothing about it is fair.
or, whitaker confronts the obvious distance between the religion he was raised in and the realities of the trauma ward, with brief intervention from his attending.
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08 Jan 2026
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It's said almost apologetically, but Robby can't look at the latkes, can't focus on the apology, because Dennis is here. He's in Robby's apartment, and he has a key, and he's made dinner for a holiday Robby had almost managed to forget.
He hasn't celebrated since his grandmother died.Dennis helps Robby celebrate Hanukkah again, years after his grandmother’s death.
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01 Jan 2026
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“Please don’t tell me the first person who ever touched your dick was Dr. Robby.”
“Um.” He coughs.
“Oh my god I’m gonna fucking die.”
Santos tries to solve Whitaker’s sexual hangups. Whitaker tries to save Robby’s soul. Neither initiative goes exactly to plan.
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31 Dec 2025
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“You got a verse for that, too?”
Once again, Dennis pauses to think, willing his futile diploma into good use. He tries to stay focused as he meets Robby’s patient gaze, but the sight leaves his heart kicking erratically against his ribs.
“‘Come now, and let us reason together. Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; if they’re red like crimson, they shall become like wool.’”
“Jeez, Whitaker,” Robby huffs, elated. “You got the whole book memorized?”
“Something like that.”
Robby and Whitaker keep running into each other at the hospital's chapel.
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22 Dec 2025
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Robby is starving.
Dennis starts to notice.
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- Part 1 of hickory, just as well
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19 Dec 2025
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Whitaker quits smoking, gets a shiner by the ambulance bay, and falls in love with his attending. Not exactly in that order.
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17 Dec 2025
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After the kidney transplant, Peter Benton resolves not to let it go so long before he sees John Carter again.
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13 Dec 2025
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Carter’s not sure exactly when he first learned about the patented Peter Benton Dating Algorithm, but it must have been early on, because he internalised it like it was any other scrap of information he’d gleaned and hoarded like a crazy person, like his GPA (3.8), his birthday (September 9th) or his blood type (B positive).
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13 Dec 2025