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It suddenly feels like nicotine all over again: get touched one too many times and he starts searching for it, starts craving it when it isn’t there. Starts noticing it in the place of its absence when he hadn’t before, always looking forward to the next fix.
Except it doesn’t come, because there’s no reason for it to, and Carmy falls asleep every night with a hand clenched at the front of his chest and the words I’m here, you’re good on repeat in his mind.
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10 Feb 2026
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Reluctant traiteur Eugene Roe, assigned as a medic to Easy Company, captures the attention of Lieutenant Speirs. He's not sure why or how or when, but, as the war goes on, Eugene finds that he doesn't mind it. He doesn't mind it at all.
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03 Feb 2026
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Things Are Different Since You’ve Been Here Last by tenderhooked
Fandoms: The Bear (TV 2022)
09 Jun 2024
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After the walk-in debacle on Friends and Family night, Carmy is trying to make up for his mistakes by pushing himself to be better. But between the voice in his head telling him he’s worthless, his own wholehearted belief in everything that voice is saying, and his desperation to not let anyone see that there’s something severely wrong with him, things are going to shit fast — so when the hospital calls to inform him that his mother’s been in an accident and is going to need a caretaker for a while, Carmy takes the chance to do something right for once. It’ll be fine. He can handle it, and it’ll be fine.
He cannot handle it, and it isn’t fine. One night at Donna’s, everything goes catastrophically to shit and Carmy’s left with an open, bleeding wound in his hand and the suffocating realization that nobody’s coming to save him. But the people who love him are nothing if not determined to prove him wrong. They’re going to get him out of that house. They’re going to be there as his hand heals. They’re going to hug him, and cook for him, and remind him how it feels to laugh. And whenever he begins to believe that he doesn’t deserve any of it, they’ll be there to prove just how much he matters to them.
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22 Jan 2026
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Carmen leaves The Bear to give Sydney, Richie, and Natalie peace. If he doesn't contact them, they'll thrive. If he removes himself from anything toxic, they said…
or, Carmen's adapted to live with the kitchen as the barrier between him and his mental health.
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18 Jan 2026
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For a moment, for a fleeting, selfish moment, Carmy wishes it were him lying six feet under and not his brother.
“Maybe then I could finally get some rest.” Bitterly, he thought to himself.
A voice deep in the depths of his mind, that sounded a little too familiar to an ex-employer for Carmy’s comfort, echoed out its agreement. “It still can be. You can’t take his place, but you could join him. It would be better if you were gone, anyway. I mean, would anybody actually care enough to notice?”
A new montage flashes through his mind, providing him option after option of how he could follow in his big brother’s footsteps once more.“Carmy?” A voice cut through his dark thoughts like a knife. “What the fuck are you doing here? It’s four in the morning!”
Carmy startles, jerking his head towards the direction of the front door where his sister stood, haloed by the porch light.
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in which i finished the Bear s3 & was left reeling in despair because nothing changed for the better. let my boy carmy apologize for his actions, heal from his trauma, & be happy 2k25!!! pls chris storer, im begging of you 🙏
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06 Jan 2026
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"New York was not a good time," Carmy says. "I had this boss who was- was always criticising, always telling you that you’re not good enough, and everyone in that kitchen was so fucking scared of him.”
“Were you?” Richie asks slowly. His tongue feels too heavy for his mouth all of a sudden. “Scared of him?”
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Or: A month after the opening, Carmy's old boss in New York gives an interview about him. Carmy is not coping well.
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04 Jan 2026
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(7:57 P.M.) Sugar: Where are you?
(8:01 P.M.) Missed Call from Sugar
(8:03 P.M.) Sugar: If you're mad at me, that's fine, but please text Richie. He's kind of freaking out.
(8:04 P.M.) Sugar: So am I.
(8:10 P.M.) Missed Call from SugarPart 8 of an ongoing series. Carmy has a bad night.
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- Part 8 of all lights turned off (can be turned on)
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31 Dec 2025
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He could pretend everything was alright, that Mikey wasn’t becoming paranoid and unpredictable, that Ma wasn’t drinking herself to an early grave, that Sugar wasn’t stretching herself so thin between the two that she was starting to fray. That Carmy hadn’t run away and everything was fine.
Then of course Ma had to call and break the flimsy illusion he had created from himself just to beg him to come back for the holidays. It’s a time for family Carmen. she had said. He’d bitten his tongue to stop himself answering back what family?
Set the next Christmas after 2x6 'Fishes'
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30 Dec 2025
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"I love your Ma," Richie said, pressing gauze onto the cut and holding it, "but she's hard to live with. She's hard for you to live with."
Or: Carmy tries to make himself scarce when his mom drinks, but he doesn't always get out of the house in time to avoid her explosive temper.
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30 Dec 2025
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Your Teeth Turn Grey and Stain Your Tongue by Bespokegarbage
Fandoms: The Bear (TV 2022)
12 May 2023
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Carmen Berzatto is a world-famous chef. One of the best chefs of his fucking generation.
And yet, he stands in The Bear’s kitchen hours after he should’ve gone home, freaking the fuck out about a sandwich.
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30 Dec 2025
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Post Season 2. Carmen got stuck in a giant refrigerator, this is what happened after.
Basically Carmy's sick and sad so Richie takes care of him.
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30 Dec 2025
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Post Season 2, in which some of The Beef's original clientele are not thrilled with the restaurant's update and decide to take out their frustrations on the new owner.
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29 Dec 2025
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He knows he can't keep up this charade for much longer because it's started impacting his work; that, as a whole, is more important than some bullshit like his general health.
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Carmy already has bad eating habits in the show, for lack of a better word. I decided to... expand on that a bit, and by expand i mean make it worse.
(Please read the tags, stay safe, much love ♡)
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28 Dec 2025
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Does Your Mama Have Brown Eyes? Do You Have Trauma In Your Blood? by Carp3_di3m
Fandoms: The Bear (TV 2022)
13 Oct 2023
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"I am grateful that I have found a family who cares about me enough to make me want to be better…to want to be alive. I am grateful to be alive."
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aka: Five times someone forced Carmy to take care of himself + One time he asked for help(warnings in tags)
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28 Dec 2025
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After their wedding, Louis came off the birth control. But will anything ever be easy for him?
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- Part 5 of Big White Lie
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08 Nov 2025
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A look into what happened between Louis and Liam that first time.
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- Part 2 of Big White Lie
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08 Nov 2025
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You’re not running on three hours of sleep.
You don’t have a headache.
You’re not an omega.
You’re Louis Tomlinson: Beta.
Louis has been pretending to be something he's not for as long as he can remember. Will the pack find out before it's too late to fix him?
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- Part 1 of Big White Lie
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14 Oct 2025
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to be fated (to telling only lies) by lokean
Fandoms: Thor (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel
11 Oct 2025
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Loki can speak.
His voice echoes clear as day over the intercoms. Short quips, commands and battle updates and Tony swears there is a tone even in the shortest of Loki’s statements.
„To your left, Stark, do use your eyes.“
But then they come home and he just… goes silent.
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12 Oct 2025
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Clenching and unclenching his hands into fists in his pockets, he tried not to think about how he could feel Hoobler’s blood underneath his fingernails. He’d done his best to clean his hands of every little bit of Hoobler from the crevices in his hands. But he never could seem to get it all off. Felt like the aftermath clung to his skin like leeches on a summer day. Always felt like their blood was permanently staining his hands. Senseless violence and gore that would embed itself into his palms. Hoobler’s death in particular seemed so senseless. So avoidable. The weight of being utterly useless in stopping the bleeding sat its heavy burden on his shoulders. Adding itself to the weight of everyone he couldn’t manage to save.
OR: When Eugene fails to take care of himself, he falls badly ill. Babe is left to pick up the pieces
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- Part 2 of Of Wanting to be Yours
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21 Sep 2025
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WARNING: THIS STORY INCLUDES NON-CON, RAPE AND DOMESTIC VIOLENCE/ABUSE. If the previous acts trigger you, or you do not want to touch these topics, please do not read the story.
"Well I can't do that."
"Do what? Invite her over?"
"Tell her no."
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Sandy is abusive. Soda suffers.
I'll add tags as the story progresses.
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06 Aug 2025