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    Welcome to the Ultimate Game.

    If you’re looking for a chronicle of redemption or, worse yet, a fairy tale ending with a kiss under the snow, you’ve walked into the wrong locker room. This is the story of a sabotage.

    For ten years, the hockey world has feasted on the rivalry between two captains with the same hunger one brings to a public execution. And us? We served them the blood on a silver platter, while in the shadows of hotel rooms in Montreal or Boston, we exchanged fluids and secrets with the precision of two spies in enemy territory.

    They believe the ice is a sanctuary of heterosexual secrets. They don’t realize that while they were betting on our next elbow to the face, they were witnessing a long, violent decade of foreplay.

    Now, it’s time for El Plan.

    Shane is the butterfly flapping its wings on an underwear billboard. I am the tornado about to level the entire NHL.

    Grab your popcorn. It’s going to be a beautiful massacre.

    My name is Ilya Rozanov, and you can thank me later.

    Or: how Shane and Ilya gaslit the entire world by officially "starting to date" in 2020.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Before he could say anything, there was a loud smacking and shout that drew their attention back to the middle of the rink. In the midst of players stretching and warming up, Ilya sneakily smack the flat end of his stick against Bood’s rear, almost toppling the man down. He skated away immediately while cackling in the face of Bood’s and Dykstra’s (as the possible previous victim) indistinct hollers, accompanied by laughter from other players. Laughter that soon turns to howling when Ilya tripped in his hurry to avoid their wrath, falling on his ass.
     

    Shane stared back at the camera, giving it the flattest look possible, “Like Miss Carpenter, everyday, I too had to beg my man to ‘please don’t embarrass me, motherfucker’,”

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    Or, the 5 times Shane 'ASMR-Is-Music-Right?' Hollander was soft (and freaky) about his husband over the soundtrack of pop music.

    And the 1 time Ilya ‘Romance-Are-Not-For-Russians’ Rozanov was.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    Tyler is the perfect employee at the Jericho Marine Institute and Aquarium. He's professional, polite and the only person capable of handling the Kraken in Tank 13. Tyler thinks everyone makes his job harder than it needs to be. Lucas thinks Tyler is a godsend. Wednesday thinks it's almost dinnertime.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    26 Jan 2026