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    I like the idea of these ‘sliding doors’ moments between these two guys. They are totally obsessed with each other and I think if they somehow were able to spend more time together without the expectations of hockey or immediately hooking up then I think their obvious ‘like’ for one another could come out in any number or ways.

    Fancy seeing you here. What if the two hockey boys ran into each other outside of games when they’re in the same city.

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  1. Rec 84

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    The second time Shane Hollander wakes up on November 16th, he has a panic attack.

    The problem is — he tries to explain through gasped breaths after Hayden basically knocks down his door, shouting that they’re going to miss their flight — the thing is, Shane’s already woken up on November 16th. He’s already flown to Boston. He’s already been to practice, and he’s checked into the hotel, and he has lived this day before.

    He doesn’t mention that he’s also already fucked Ilya Rozanov twice and had a fucking tuna melt that Rozanov made and drank the ginger ale that Rozanov bought specifically for him. He doesn’t mention that they’d snuggled on the couch watching TV like some kind of couple, like boyfriends.

    He doesn’t mention that he fell asleep thinking about how Ilya — fuck, no, thinking about how Rozanov had called him sweetheart and Shane, and that, even now, he can’t quite get the cadence of Ilya’s voice out of his head.

    Or: After the tuna melt fiasco, Shane Hollander wakes up in a time loop.

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    18 Feb 2026

  2. Rec 26

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    “You are going to be sore for days and you know it,” Shane says, feeling the strain on Ilya's arms. “Good luck on your game on Tuesday.”

    “Makes two of us,” Ilya says, moving the weight to one arm so that he can slap Shane’s ass lovingly with his other hand, which Shane finds both rude as hell and annoyingly attractive in its depiction of strength. “Maybe I want to find out what it is like?”

    OR: they fuck, they're gentle with each other, Shane gets introspective about how much he loves this & them.

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    17 Feb 2026

  3. Rec *

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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  4. Rec 20

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    someone at a sponsor party touches shane like they have any right to. ilya watches, says nothing, and sends a room number with a time.

    what starts as a kiss turns into something slow, possessive, and impossible to ignore — until shane understands exactly what ilya was feeling.

    or: ilya gets jealous in public and makes it very, very clear in private.

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  5. Rec 78

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    “No, no, wait.” Ilya scrambles out of the bed and begins rummaging through his bag. Bewildered, Shane opens his mouth to speak, but every nerve in his body freezes when he sees what Ilya pulls out.

    A large black and yellow jersey, with the big numbers 81 plastered on the back. Above the digits, almost in a mocking tone, white letters spell Rozanov.

    “You’re kidding,” Shane sputters, reflexes failing him when Ilya chucks his jersey at his gaping face with an absurd amount of precision.

    “Very serious,” Ilya replies cooly, still wearing that stupid fucking grin Shane simultaneously wants to brutally punch and tenderly kiss off his face. “Is my prize.”

    or, shane loses a bet and wears ilya's jersey. they both learn something about themselves that night.

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