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  1. Rec *

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    Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"

    Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.

    Not hurt. Alive.

    “Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”

    --

    or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.

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    18 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Hayden has no clue but his honest self is pretty good

  2. Public Bookmark 60

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    “It’s not a list.“ Shane shakes his head in protest. “I don’t have a whole list.”

    “But you have several more ideas? Things you want?” Ilya raises an eyebrow.

    “I mean, yeah?” Shane shrugs. “But—“

    “So you have a fucking list then,” Ilya says. “That is a list.”

    (Or: Novelty, first times, cock warming, and so, so many feelings.)

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Five Conversations Yuna has with Ilya, and one conversation she has with Shane. Ch. 6: Back at the cottage.

    Yuna had made checklists and organized budgets and shook coaches’ hands and learned how to negotiate and delegate and advocate, all in service of protecting and preserving Shane and this precious, enormous gift. There were a million ways for his journey to go wrong, and only one way for it to go right. She was competent, she was capable, she’d done everything right, everything by the book — and twenty years later, she feels like she didn’t rise to the moments that truly mattered. She mentored the career, at times, she did not mother the boy. 

    And yet Shane, a marvelous miracle all his own, had figured out those lessons anyways. 

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    23 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Does not try to make Yuna perfect, just doing the best she can, very relatable.

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    Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow. For no particular reason. Certainly not because he’s fallen in love with Ilya Rozanov.

    In Montreal with lingering concussion symptoms, Ilya is advised not to fly home for a few days, and the hospital won’t release him without assurances that he has someone to stay with him until his symptoms improve. Luckily, Shane conveniently has a condo in Montreal no one knows about and a few days before he has to travel again.

    But Ilya’s symptoms don’t resolve after a few days. Which is okay; Shane can handle it. He can take care of Ilya, study Russian, lead his team into the playoffs, and keep Ilya’s continued presence in Montreal a secret. He can do everything, no problem. He is Shane Hollander after all.

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    A whump fanfiction that is secretly a fix-it.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    18 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    So much pining in the present, so much tenderness in the past.