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    series of fics about ilya & shane discovering & engaging in dom/sub dynamics.
    should be read in chronological order, but can be read as standalones.

    warnings: references to homophobia, physical abuse and suicidal ideation,

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Being a beta has always meant safety for Shane Hollander. No expectations, no instincts, no distractions from hockey.

    Unfortunately, he meets Ilya Rozanov.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    19 Jan 2026

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    He’s already in the room, shutting the door behind himself as quietly as he can before he realises that not only is there someone other than Shane in the room, but there are three someones other than Shane.

    And, as if he hasn’t already fucked up spectacularly, the someones happen to be the Hollanders and Hayden fucking Pike.

     

    // or; Ilya visits Shane in the hospital and meets his parents. He's traumatized and grieving, everything hurts, and Shane takes after his mother.

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    17 Jan 2026

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    He drives to the airport with an unshakeable urge to pull over and turn around. He smokes four cigarettes in a row before he boards the plane, then chews an entire pack of gum on the flight to try and cover the worst of the smell.

    He exits the airport half-hoping that Shane has chickened out of the whole thing. Then he spots him, tapping his fingers against the steering wheel in the most boring suburban dad car Ilya has ever had the misfortune of laying his eyes on, and he’s so happy to see him that his legs feel unsteady beneath his weight.

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    Or, the cottage, Ilya's version: an extended ep 6 featuring my take on what happened in the gaps we didn't see.

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    03 Jan 2026