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    “If it ever gets bad,” he’d said quietly, eyes serious in a way that made Ilya’s chest ache, “you call me. Or you call my parents. You don’t get to drown by yourself anymore. They love you. I love you and that’s not conditional.”

    Ilya had brushed it off at first. He always did. “I am not drowning.”

    Shane had just tilted his head. “Promise me anyway.”

    And because it was Shane, because the word promise meant something sacred to him, Ilya had nodded.

    “I promise.”

    (ie. ilya gets sent a photo of irina while shane is in montreal and does the right thing and reaches out for help)

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    23 Feb 2026

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    “Seriously though, are you—are you almost done?” A delicious note of need threads its way into Shane’s tone, and a thrill spirals through Ilya’s core right along with it.

    His attention snags on the way Shane’s broad thighs pull together like magnets in an attempt to stave off the growing urge, the way his fingers dig against the muscle of his forearms as he curls slightly forward. A prickle dances between Ilya’s own legs as his cock hardens further with interest and he inhales quickly through his nose.

    Fuck.

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    22 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 77

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    “I made you tea,” Ilya says softly. “And I brought ice for your head and crackers for when your stomach is better.”
     
    “Thank you,” Shane mumbles.
     
    “And I texted your parents.”
     
    “What?!”

    A fic in which Shane gets a concussion related headache and Ilya is there to help.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    “It is never hard to love you, Shane Hollander,” he murmurs by Shane’s ear, breathing his scent in. “But I wish you did not feel embarrassed about this. You are sensitive, da,” Ilya punctuates this with a kiss behind his ear. “But you are so strong too, and brave. I am proud to be your husband, yes?”

    He wraps both arms around Shane when he rolls over to tuck his face into Ilya’s neck, “I don’t have the words in English.”

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    17 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 16

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    "You look like a king," Ilya says, breathy. "After you win. King Hollander."
    "Fuck, Ilya. And you're what, my loyal subject?"
    "Feels good," he says, and then, because he's an asshole, "let me suck your cock." Let me, like Shane could tell him no. He nods, and while Ilya is dragging his hands up his legs and to the fly of his pants, because he can also be an asshole, he says:
    "You played well tonight."

    Or: Shane wins a game and Ilya makes him ask for what he wants. It goes... as well as you'd expect. An exploration on Shane's insecurities, and Ilya's pre-therapy inability to lose control.

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    17 Feb 2026