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    Here's what we know: Lily Evans, after years of badgering and bad courting attempts, dated and married one James Fleamont Potter.

    Here's what we know: Regulus Black, after years of slow separation from his popular, effervescently Gryffindor brother, died a slow drowning death, alone and friendless and forgotten.

     

    Here's what we know: Severus Snape lost his only friend in a moment of humiliated, misdirected, anger and spent the rest of his life closed-off and spiteful, hating himself- his life - his job - his decisions - but with no choice but to drudge drearily onward, to honor Lily's last sacrifice.

     

    But. What if.

     

    In this universe, an alternate and dazzlingly parallel world, Lily Evans, a girl who has fought and raged and will not fucking lose her best friend to the capricious smiles and dazzling arrogance of the blood-purists looks over, glances, really, at a table hung with green and silver, meeting gray eyes with her own poison-green.

     

    I wonder, Lily thinks, alight with hatred for James Potter and something else; maybe, Lily thinks, and pulls Regulus Black from the depths.

     

    So spirals a bifurcation. So springs our story.

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    "No one understood the perfume
    of the shadow magnolia of your belly.
    No one knew you crushed completely
    a human bird of love between your teeth."


    Gacela of Unforeseen Love, Federico Garcia Lorca

     

    "I give the pain of a fresh lily
    for a heart of chalk.
    All night long, in the orchard
    my eyes, like two dogs.
    All night long, quinces
    of poison, flowing.
    Sometimes the wind
    is a tulip of fear,
    a sick tulip,
    daybreak of winter.
    A wall of difficult dreams
    divides me from the dead.”

     

    Gacela of the Remembrance of Love, Federico Garcia Lorca

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    There had been a tragedy. The Ottawa Centaurs' plane had crashed in northern Georgia, during the course of their flight from Carolina to Tampa. They didn't know much else yet. All NHL activities were suspended for the next seven days.

    Wait, what?

    At seventeen, Shane Hollander met the love of his life. At twenty-nine, gravity took him away.

    Shane wishes he’d died, too.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    "I did. After MLH awards, in June. Oh, I did not tell him about Shane and me. But what he did, it was important. It changed things. For me, at least - maybe for us."

    On the night of the MLH awards, Ilya corners Scott Hunter on a quiet balcony.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    Nobody knows why Shane Hollander dropped out of the 2009 draft at the last second, and a year later it stuns the whole hockey world when he's signed by the Boston Raiders. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston - but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Jacob Black doesn’t tell anyone when Jane Uley starts tutoring him.
    Jane has no one to tell anyway.

    Jane is Sam Uley’s younger half-sister—quiet, disliked, and an easy target in a town that has already decided who she is. Jacob is warm and wanted and still holding onto feelings for Bella Swan. Whatever he and Jane are feels real, but only in private: stolen kisses at the door, hours alone together, a relationship that exists as long as no one sees it.

    When Jacob phases and imprints on Jane, everything changes—but not in the way she hopes. Loving Jacob means being hidden, chosen only when it’s convenient. And as Jane is forced to confront what she’s willing to accept, she begins to realize that choosing Jacob may mean losing herself.

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    08 Feb 2026