idonotknowusrry
Fandoms
Recent works
-
Tags
Summary
Ryounosuke Akutagawa never felt remorse for killing.
He had learned to yield a weapon before he knew how to write, before knowing he himself was a weapon. In the slums there was no room for morals, it was a matter of chosing whether or not you were willing to pay the price for survival.
When Ryounosuke made the desition, he had still not learned what regret is.
He breathes in deep through his nose and out through his mouth, earning him a handfull of dry coughs. Another gift from his past, yet he still relishes on the posibility to breathe air and not have his nostrils burning.
He won't feel sorry for choosing this.
Recent bookmarks
-
Close Your Eyes and Shut Your Mouth by ecaitlin
Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater
14 Mar 2015
Tags
Summary
Five times Ronan slept at Adam's, and the one time Adam asked him to.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,803
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Comments:
- 172
- Kudos:
- 10,599
- Bookmarks:
- 1,618
- Hits:
- 84,841
Bookmarked by idonotknowusrry
11 Dec 2025
-
Tags
Summary
To think that there’s a gifted in this world who can transport others to a ‘Hell.’ Not even a particularly hellish hell. For all Akutagawa had experienced in his life, this is obnoxiously tame.
Pleasant, even, if he was to ignore the centaurs hunting him for sport and the fact that he’s kneeling in an open grave.
Still - if Akutagawa was given such an ability, he’d have no shortage of significantly more creative punishments for creatures as loathsome as himself.
Akutagawa goes to Hell. Atsushi follows. Neither return the same.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 126,944
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Comments:
- 513
- Kudos:
- 826
- Bookmarks:
- 207
- Hits:
- 17,236
Bookmarked by idonotknowusrry
01 Sep 2025
-
Tags
Summary
After a chance encounter with a mysterious ability user, Atsushi Nakajima finds himself crawling to Ryuunosuke Akutagawa for help. He's burning up with a sickness that can only be satisfied by the broody bastard himself. When neither can hold back, an illicit arrangement forms. Can they keep their feelings out of the fun? Or is something greater at play, ensuring they fall harder?
Their pursuit of happiness will put them through the wringer, push their moral limits, and make them dig deeper for whatever it takes to keep what they have.
One man reaches for the light for a chance at love, and the other dips into the dark to protect it.
.
Weak Inhibitions started off as a short smut fic but has developed into a behemoth of a fic about young love, found families, and accepting peace after trauma. It is a character-driven story that covers dark moments in their lives that influence their decisions and the way they interact with each other. It is also sexually explicit and violent. So, please read the tags.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 455,295
- Chapters:
- 68/68
- Comments:
- 3,208
- Kudos:
- 3,975
- Bookmarks:
- 510
- Hits:
- 155,730
Bookmarked by idonotknowusrry
01 Sep 2025
-
Tags
Summary
Atsushi is convinced that his soulmate hates him.
While Kyouka hears her match gushing about wanting to meet her someday and Lucy gets compliments that put poets to shame, he is subjected to constant threats on his life. Of course, the universe had to pair him with somebody who has a one-sided grudge against him. He doesn’t even know who they are!
(In which you can hear your soulmate’s thoughts about you, and Atsushi tries to figure out just what the hell his other half’s problem is.)
Bookmarked by idonotknowusrry
01 Sep 2025
-
not right with me too by carnation
Fandoms: 地縛少年花子くん | Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun | Toilet-bound Hanako-kun (Manga)
13 May 2024
Tags
Summary
Kou seizes him by the elbow and draws him aside. “We gotta get out of the city,” he says in a rapid undertone. “Teru-nii’s out on patrol tonight, and this whole city is Minamoto territory. He’s gonna hear about it if supernatural stuff starts happening. And we can’t risk running into him. We can’t. So I’ll drag you onto the train myself if I have to, and that’s the end of it.”
A familiar hostile spark flickers to life in Mitsuba’s expression. “I am not taking a train,” he says witheringly. “Minamoto-kun, I’m not doing it. Are you insane? I mean, for real? Are you actually literally out of your extremely small mind? What if something happens?”
“To you?” says Kou. “Or because of you?”
Bookmarked by idonotknowusrry
19 Aug 2025