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    It made Shane's head spin sometimes, thinking about an alternate version of life where he wasn’t in the room with them. That somewhere in the wrinkle of time, it was just Ilya and Svetlana. The way it was meant to be. They might have even gotten married, like Ilya once suggested. He couldn’t help but feel like it was a fluke of the universe, an impossible streak of luck, that made Ilya his.

    As they continued to talk, Shane couldn’t help but wonder if Svetlana ever felt the same.

    Or, Ilya books a birthday cottage trip for Shane with Rose, Hayden, and Jackie. Shane can’t shake the feeling that someone important is missing. Over the course of an eight hour road trip to the cottage, Shane and Svetlana come to understand each other.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane’s relationship first—and decide that instead of letting their captain move to fucking Ottawa, they’ll just kidnap a his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Hayden wasn't sure what he'd done to deserve this. His ribs still hurt pretty fucking bad, and his entire side was a mixture of ugly bruise colors. And now he had to go to the mall with Rozanov?

    “I don't understand. Why can't Shane come with me instead?” Hayden asked, looking at his wife.

    Jackie sighed. “I already told you. He said he has a meeting for a partnership with that gross sports drink.”

    “Body Armor?” Hayden shook his head, stopping himself before he got distracted. “Okay, so Shane's busy. Why can't I take the girls by myself then?”

    “Because, Hayden.” Jackie sounded exasperated, which wasn't any fun at all. “It's a big place. I'd rather have two adults keeping track than just one. And Ilya's good at paying attention, he knows what people are going to do before they do.”
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    hayden pike and ilya rozanov are NOT friends. even though they have dinner together every week, protect each other on the ice, and...go dress shopping together? (plus a bonus hollanov scene)

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    16 Feb 2026

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    When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Ilya tries to soft-launch the idea of retirement to Shane.

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    “Don’t have panic attack,” he starts with a squeeze of his fingers around his, which is probably a bad place to do that, the starting. He makes an effort to speak faster, “After we win Cup, I quit.”

    There.

    “Quit what?” Shane searches his eyes, bouncing between left and right and back.

    Ilya can’t help but laugh at his husband, as if the concept of ‘quitting’ and ‘hockey’ in the same sentence has never occurred to him before. It probably hasn’t. While he takes a deep inhale, Ilya adjusts his hold on the bag of ice on his angry, swollen knee that is in the middle of a suicide mission in protest of Ilya playing a professional sport in his late thirties. “Hockey.”

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