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    when shane hollander comes out as gay to the montreal voyageurs, he expects pushback before things return to normal. he did not expect to be benched, isolated, and quietly traded to ottawa six weeks later.

    he definitely didn't expect that he would be getting married to the love of his life in a courthouse before either of them is ready to go public.

    OR!! shane comes out to the voyageurs after breaking up with rose and that changes everything.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Ilya has been watching hands his whole life. His father's hands taught him that touch meant pain. His mother's hands were the only gentle ones—until they went cold. Now he has his father's hands, and he's terrified of what they might become.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Heartbreak and hockey don't mix.

    Boston's Ilya Rozanov decides to do what he'd been putting off for years. He calls off his affair with Shane Hollander, Montreal extraordinaire, right before a Montreal vs Boston game. He gets a hockey puck shot right into his hamstring for it. Right in the middle of the game. Honestly, he never guessed Hollander had it in him to be vindictive.

    As for Shane...it works. He didn’t want to see Rozanov anymore. In this game. In this season. And now Ilya’s out. Ball and chained to healing and recovery, pain meds and physical therapy for the next year. Maybe when Rozanov comes back, Shane will be able to stomach breathing the same air as him again.

    And Rozanov will be back. That much is guaranteed. Shane just fails to measure how back Ilya Rozanov will be. If he thought Rozanov was a nightmare on the ice before his injury, he’s got a reckoning coming.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Spoilers for The Long Game. Post-Canon.

    The start of Ottawa's season feels like a promise. Ilya finally has all the people he loves in one place, a team that can keep up with him, the whole world knows he and Shane love each other, and they have the sweetest, most perfect dog. So why is he so nervous about their first game against Montreal?

    AKA Protective Ilya Rozanov momentarily forgets his husband is still the hockey prodigy he fell in love with at first freckle in Saskatchewan.

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    15 Feb 2026