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  1. Public Bookmark 47

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    Shane Hollander had an eating disorder. He's fine now. He knows better now. And that's the problem.

    One little setback almost ruins everything.

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    musings on Shane's non-specified eating disorder because it didn't get enough attention imo

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    22 Feb 2026

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    “I know Ilya, I’m trying.” Shane tries to hide his exhaustion from his tone.

    “Could try harder, no?” Ilya raises an eyebrow.  

    “I get it, okay?” Shane pushes back, letting his enervation show this time. “I’m trying, but it’s hard. I guess I just need something that sticks. Something to hold me accountable. Consequences.”

    “I can help, with consequences.” Ilya shrugs easily, his voice free from any inclination of teasing. 

    “What, you wanna punish me?” Shane smiles, raising his eyebrows and pulls Ilya’s hand from his thigh up to his mouth to kiss it. “Spank me every time I people please?” 

    Shane can’t help but to chuckle at himself.
     
    “Would that help you?” Ilya’s voice is flat and serious. 
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    Or Shane jokes about needing consequences to motivate him to stop people pleasing. Ilya takes him seriously and offers to help.

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    25 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 62

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    But now that moment and its whole atmosphere of intimacy and trust or whatever was gone. Two days after that conversation (Neil saying yes, Andrew, and looking up with his sharp clear eyes), a day after their weekly grocery trip (Neil throwing grapes at Andrew and somehow always managing to hit him, even when he was throwing from multiple aisles away), a handful of hours after a whiskey neat and a soda, respectively, at their local bar (his hand on Neil’s thigh, Neil writing out an exy play on a napkin, Andrew doodling in a medium-sized dragon breathing flame and burning all their racquets to ash just to be prepared for every scenario)—

    Neil had woken up gasping.

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    26 Jul 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 28

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    Castiel makes a friend.

    It's the size of a premature infant, weighs approximately 12 ounces, and both button eyes are missing.

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    17 Jun 2025

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    Predictably, Neil’s automated voicemail message answers for him. The number you’re trying to reach is unavailable at this time. The message runs through its spiel, informing Andrew that he can leave a message after the beep.

    Goodbye hovers on his tongue. It’s the least that Neil deserves from him. There are so many more things to be said.

    Andrew shuts his phone without leaving a voicemail. He drops his phone onto the counter and slips a knife out of its sheath.

    Right before spring break during his fourth year at Palmetto, Andrew Minyard attempts suicide. Now everyone has to figure out how to move forward from here.

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    14 May 2025