19 Works by TheProjector
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Grant Me Peace by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: Narziß und Goldmund | Narcissus and Goldmund - Hermann Hesse
16 Jan 2026
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The monastery walls are closing in, and on the eve of his escape, Goldmund makes one last, desperate pilgrimage to the one man he cannot leave behind. The air between them crackles, charged with the years set ablaze in the wake of his departure—a history of unspoken words and desires buried beneath layers of stoic discipline. Goldmund shatters the fragile silence, laying his soul bare in a raw plea for Narcissus to finally abandon the cage of his own making and surrender to the one truth he has never dared to fully speak aloud.
What begins as a desperate confession ignites into a forbidden awakening, a moment so raw and consuming it forces the unbreakable monk to face the truth his heart has always known. But in the ashes of their surrender, there is little peace, rather, a devastating new torment where bliss and shame become one for Narcissus. In a final, heartbreaking pact that will bind them forever in blood, Goldmund offers to become the instrument of Narcissus’s penance, a last attempt to grant him absolution from a love that has always been, for him, both his salvation and his damnation.
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Who am I, if not “the boy” who saved the world? by TheProjector
Fandoms: The Umbrella Academy (TV)
11 Jan 2026
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Five never was able to really relax into his life, “just being,” never had those blanketed, long stretches of complex wondering a normal preteen and teen go through to find themselves. Maybe that was more or less the reasoning behind his snarky nature to, well, everyone. He was jealous of the lives they all got to lead. He envied being able to find himself and actually be whoever that was.
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You Kissed Me Just to Kiss Me by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
09 Jan 2026
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During a brief moment of safety at Surfer Boy Pizza, Will slips away from his friends, overwhelmed by a growing sense of suffocation and the need to confess his love for Mike before they all very possibly could die. What he doesn’t expect is for the silence to answer back. In the lonely space behind the laughter and warmth, something cruelly his own is waiting—wearing the face of the boy he loves, turning years of loving devotion into a weapon. As fear blurs the boundaries of his mind, logic, and hope, Will is forced to confront the truth he’s buried for years: love can save him, or it can be the very thing that breaks him.
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My White Sheet and Porcelain Clawfoot Tub, Baptized in the Blood of the Innocent. by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: The Secret History - Donna Tartt
30 Oct 2025
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I've always seen too much, since childhood—plagued by visions, dreams drenched in beautiful decay that refuse not to haunt me well into the light of day, staining everything with their strange insistence. For what? I do not know. But they ask for meaning, which, try my utmost, I cannot seem to give. In their incessant asking, they have come to strip what color any of the rest of life held for me. I tried to quiet them, built my life from order—books and ritual. I thought if I could master discipline of the mind, the world would follow. But every act of control has only sharpened the dissonance. So, I am taking a page from Kafka: I will solve this problem by letting it devour me. The thing living beneath the surface of me—ancient and restless, hungry to dissolve the boundaries—waits for exactly this, for the seams to split. Only, unlike him, I do not fear it; rather, I welcome it. He endured the absurd. I dance with it. And if it succeeds in devouring me—better to be consumed by the teeth of truth than to spend a lifetime running. I want it to smile at me, to know it sees me smiling back. Whether they be revelation or ruin, I do not know—much less care. What I do know is that they lead me somewhere... I cannot refuse to go.
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Strange Sanctuary by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: Like Minds | Murderous Intent (2006)
27 Aug 2025
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While trapped in a cycle of abuse, Nigel finds solace and self-expression through crossdressing, a secret he shares with his supportive yet troubled mother. Set in the dim lights of the basement they’re often locked in, which becomes their safe haven, the story unfolds as Nigel, unable to articulate his feelings, turns to an old ritual of comfort with her time and time again, until he’s gotten older and older and finds something has changed.
So, as Nigel asks to wear his mother's old wedding dress, a symbol of a happier time now, for her as much as him, the scene delves into the transformative power of a safe space, for self-expression, and for the importance of support in healing. The scene is a raw and honest portrayal of a mother's love and a child's struggle to find their place in a world that often seeks to silence them. The dress, once a source of joy, escape, and hope has evolved into a silent language between them, a way for Nigel to express himself when words fail. His mother, though burdened by her own past and the present abuse, tries to provide a safe space for Nigel, encouraging him to embrace his true self and foster a sense of whimsy that sees him through many terribly scary events. -
Oneshots that may go in the crossover (so, possible spoilers) by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: Like Minds | Murderous Intent (2006), The Secret History - Donna Tartt
11 Aug 2025
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These are bits I've written or re-worked from roleplays in the context of the crossover, which... You don't have all the details to but I'm hoping you can wrap your heads around what I'm puttin down easily enough to enjoy them as is given each fandom. I'll try to keep it so the Like Minds one shots are first, since those could still go canonically with just that fandom, and put the ones that involved all of them from both The Secret History and LM after, so it's easier. The first oneshot has no sex at all, just sensual stabbing. I wanted to offer the option of oneshots for each fandom due to some people possibly not being interested in the plot entirely for that story but wanting some content still.
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I love you, though you hurt me so. by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: The Secret History - Donna Tartt
03 Sep 2024
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I didn’t fall in love. I was taken—pulled under.
Henry Winter wasn’t a man so much as a gravity—the kind that unravels you quietly, until you begin calling it—and all things—by new names. He came like a truth I’d been running from, wrapped in a radiant calm that made me want to tear my stillness apart.
He taught me that wisdom is rarely found in the light of day, but instead, in the most peculiar of places — most often in those long stretches of dark nights that make you wonder if you’ll ever see, again, the light of day; that to Become, first, you must endure the burning stench of decay.
There were moments when I saw him, and he saw me—moments full of such raw honesty, the likes of which life had yet to, and has yet since, offered me. In that way, darkness was not punishment but an invitation to integration—one I cannot help but be eternally grateful for.
I suppose it is as Rilke said: “Beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror, which we are barely able to endure, and it amazes us so because it serenely disdains to destroy us. Every Angel is terror.” I, stupidly, did not think of how much such a truth—for the most beautiful of them all—would weigh.
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The Secret History of the Black Hole Stars Elusivity by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: The Secret History - Donna Tartt, Like Minds | Murderous Intent (2006)
28 Jul 2023
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"What'd you take?" by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: The Secret History - Donna Tartt
07 Jul 2023
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Henry couldn’t sleep so he took something he had idly grabbed from the “mellow” section of the natural tinctures while at that hippie shop in town, figuring it couldn’t do anything worse than what he’d already tried. He was perhaps a bit naïve for this misstep. Though, maybe that was on him for exceeding the recommended dose, thinking he had a good tolerance to handle such things.
Richard is freaking out and calls him amidst the high...
What could go wrong?
(So much I made a really dark version of my original concept for this fic because I needed to and then a whole bunch of chapters just formed in a coupled days after the initial drop. Something more focused on their manipulative and imbalanced dynamic being more overt and pushed into romantic territory. I swear there’s some deep stuff for them after but it’s just wild over there, like Hannigram but like way worse lol. So… go peep that if you’re a freak. DO READ THE TAGS CAREFULLY OF THAT ONE THO PLS, it’s my first really dark fic, don’t wanna trigger anyone. It’s called “I love you, though you hurt me so”.)
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The Secrets of the Sojourn Sands by Dionysus2xBorn, TheProjector
Fandoms: The Goldfinch (2019), The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt
14 Feb 2023
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“To find true love
find yourself and learn to love who you find,
the rest will come in due time.” -
The Projector_____________________________
(Gen. Series Summary: Basically, me having too much angst of my fav trope; dumb boys in love growing into dumb men in love. Not much else to say! Since I’m sort of filling in some gaps, we're given in the book that my mind latched onto, there's gonna be some intense angst at parts ngl BUT, so much dope (lol that's also a joke you'll get later) deep stuff and then happiness, I swear!
Lol, just hang in there, buddy.)
_____________________________Chapter 1 "I Can’t Remember-
But I Killed For Love." Summary:
For some reason, as it dawns on him what day it is, Theo finds himself falling into despair. With his Valentine’s Day blues leading him into thoughts of Boris, (how peculiar… hmm.. wonder why that is. Ohhh, cause I'm in love with him?.. that puts things into perspective lol) he spirals. But some steps forward you can’t undo and once you’ve stepped into uncertainties such as these, there's only one way to the other side of them and that’s through.ch1: POV Theo
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“Forget about Kotku” by TheProjector
Fandoms: The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch (2019)
21 Sep 2022
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(AU where Theo wasn’t so damn repressed and actually eventually confessed his feelings to Boris when the Kotku era made him realize it)
They had been just hanging out at Theos’ after school when it happened. They don’t mean to have what happens, happen.. but, they can’t lie that they didn’t see it coming for a long time now.
Or, when Theo was left alone with too much time on his hands to process his feelings for Boris while he was busy with Kotku and finally made a move(based on true feelings while sober *gasp*… we love that trope here what can I say).
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Idea for energy of the plot, inspired by these two songs by Wallows.
at the end of the day:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0BbvSCBpxz2yjPXINwFWOw?si=JAtAwe96RFSqe7iPU0xLuA
i don’t wanna talk:
https://open.spotify.com/track/1w8yCB2WBn8ho281eTKEsF?si=e-sJmhyzTiGxaB9AuOBACg
Sexual bits inspired by, Are you in the mood by Bay Faction:
https://open.spotify.com/track/42XktxKkoDrsyO3gZizdtt?si=PncoazEAR82yDXQLqxgB9w
(Started building a playlist for it: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0XUz77GS9aSw0q7BcfScrG?si=z2HZLQw4T8iug6sJuxkqcg ) -
I Almost Lost You. by TheProjector
Fandoms: The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch (2019)
30 Aug 2022
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A (*different) AU of Boris admitting his feelings for Theo once and for all. After saving Theo's life, in which, they spend a few days relaxing and getting Theo fully back to himself. And they both find themselves… in the other, at some point. 👀😅🤣not like that-oh wait..
oh, boy this really got away from me.. and I’m not mad at all!
(1st bit I left vague because I just wanted them to do fluffy corny stuff but didn’t wanna write it. So just imagine them like tracing each other all slow getting giggly from it and kissing each other everywhere till they fall asleep in each others arms. Slow n tender)
Playlist:
https://potter-pavlikovsky-popchyk.tumblr.com/post/693488221491019776/i-almost-lost-you-made-a-playlist-for-all-the
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random writing bits that came to me for tgf cause I'm obsessed by TheProjector
Fandoms: The Goldfinch (2019), The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt
11 Aug 2022
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You see da title.. idk this random ass (slight deviations from plot) vibe pieces.
The first came to me for Theo when I had this empathetic wondering of how it must feel to sleep the first night with out your mother after she dies(i think about death and the people I care for too much).
I just keep rereading it thinking how lovely it is (and tweaking it) but I needed to share it.
I feel proud and wanted to share as is. (That’s been my goal this year. To just post/share my works even if they’re not in the perfect place.) Writing this here to remind myself that I plan to do a lil tie together thing from Boris' POV the same way as the second chapter bit that Theo says after I finish my reread through and really get a vibe of how he would narrate his own story/side of things! Before and after life wise, like pre-Theo and post-Theo. -
Sick Over You by TheProjector
Fandoms: The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch (2019)
14 Jul 2022
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(I had already finished this up when I remembered Theo actually got sick in the book at one point, soooo I could have made this go off that, alas I didn’t! Lol, all well, it is already done.)
Summary: Boris gets sick and is out of school for like 3 days in a row and hasn’t even let Theo know what happened. Naturally, Theo, being the worrier he is, wonders the worst, sneaks out of his place on the 3rd night to make sure he’s okay. Also.. helps out as friends do.. (in his own nerdy way..)
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Billy comes to Steves work to bully him into reacting cause he's bored or horny.. who knows.. maybe both. Both is good. Steve has had enough though.
Just some old smut idea that came to me n sort of happened. (I noticed much later this reflects a scene from Like Minds, if anyone’s curious. Great movie which I write for as well.)
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING:⚠️SLURS!!!!! Queer used in period style, dirty talk uses the F-word.. a decent amount.
Inspiration from when I kept these two songs on repeat for personal reasons i was projecting onto Harringrove feels/turmoil. Thus this was born&many more!https://open.spotify.com/track/7KJXiuMXQu723ODChoxENp?si=xyNgPWOHRbKU_u6vrTjKRA&context=spotify%3Asearch
https://open.spotify.com/track/54GASuUdLbhhdyECNUp3Pb?si=0lQaG6CdQ0mZWrCwFw3SwQ
Of course, as always for this ship, these songs:
https://open.spotify.com/track/3hNfsR5FLiX6NzyqZVncQi?si=WVhHMkJtRWyixEsSxPrhzAhttps://open.spotify.com/track/7AlOcjBtvNentBOYXaI4FY?si=yyhKMChAQ8iqnfXE9kcZUQ
Tumblr: https://the-closested-bisexual-himbo.tumblr.com/
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Will and Mike have to time travel to the “crazy together'' moment. They talk with their past selves asking them what it must be that went wrong that night that they need to make right in order to change this night to bring them to the correct timeline.
(I started this before S4 was released so I had to finish it. I guess it’s totally still plausible for part 2, doubtful but who knows since how Vecna works n all the stuff with Will/Mike goin on.)
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It is not that great but hey.. I finished it. So still yay! It was one of my shortest ones I had to finish and figured I should just try n get it out.(Tried to keep “Future and Past” capitalized to help some but gosh, this time jumping scripting is complicated.)
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my fix it one shot fics for canon bits <3 (diff chapter = diff one shot) by TheProjector
Fandoms: The Goldfinch (2019), The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt
30 Mar 2022
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Here’s my main Boreo tumblr:https://potter-pavlikovsky-popchyk.tumblr.com/
Been obsessed with making some parts hurt a little less by giving alternatives to things aka make it better for our lovely lads. This will be a series not in order of scenes but just as they come to me. Im about to reread and rewatch and write down the scenes I’d like to redo in a more Boreo ways. For easy reference I will add to the titles to understand what scenes refs (b) for book and (m) for movie if there are any specific to one. For example like the one involving Theo hating on Kotku! Which I intend to do! Hope this helps our angsty ass fandom hurt a little less. Lol I genuinely started this because the book has caused me to be in this dark place for personal reasons toooo so this is helping me heal with that.. and share in the better energy with my fandom buds. Feel free to comment any ideas. Will be posting old tumblr ones here soon after rereading through. Also more work in gen.Oh, line Theo says right b4 kiss is from this bop:> https://open.spotify.com/track/4A4EI3YNaHhDiAgpQlCZkk?si=sPA_gfybQdWunpQ8oUwdCA
My Boreo playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/59Cozs88elMGMBhiArhqCN?si=bpz8-eqfS9CITZydf22_7g
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Something about the way you look tonight. by TheProjector
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
04 Mar 2022
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(Inspired by my mom showing me this song and making me think of exactly this happening.)
https://open.spotify.com/track/5LjSxAIKwyZvQqJ04ZQ0Da?si=w8lh6Qw7RU61wC1cgPZYSg
An alternative version of the snow ball dance I may come back to and add/edit but don’t have the time or energy for atm. I didn’t even put a name for the girl. Oop I couldn’t find her name soooo 👀😬
⚠️Trigger warning for internalized homophobia/self hate speaking of Will⚠️In a hurt comfort sort of way. Requited! Byler!
I didn’t include it but El doesn’t really care cause she was bout to dump him ass anyways because she had been feeling weird too but wasn’t sure why, or how to bring it up. So she’s relieved and happy for them also her and Max have a blast w/out his ass. lol I just ain’t writing that all out so, just trust me!
Another song that goes:
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Tumblr random concepts(I may build a fic or one shot out of)/oneshots by TheProjector
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
29 Jan 2022
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This is where I’ll put the little collection of things I wrote on Tumblr. Even if these are revisited and added on I will make separate fanfics to keep them intact as you interacted with them on my Tumblr. I will link to the fanfic in their summaries here if I do create any going more in-depth.
https://the-closested-bisexual-himbo.tumblr.com/post/673604850453561344/okay-concept-that-before-they-moved-to-hawkins