Ruby_Sweetums



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    His legs had buckled, and his knees hit the solid ground beneath them with a force so strong that Shane had prayed that it would fracture him. Ilya, his husband, who Shane had so much love that it rivaled the magnitude of the cosmos, was lifeless in front of him.

    Ilya—his Ilya—was gone.

    or: shane grieves the loss of the love of his life.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Shortly after being outed, Ilya Rozanov is stabbed to death in an alleyway.
    Shane got left behind, and he could only linger for so long.
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    Or: the literary-typical queer tragedy that no one asked for.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander had an eating disorder. He's fine now. He knows better now. And that's the problem.

    One little setback almost ruins everything.

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    musings on Shane's non-specified eating disorder because it didn't get enough attention imo

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane has always lived inside himself.

    Inside his head. Inside his routines. Inside the version of him everyone trusts to hold it all together. He has learned through the years how to be disciplined, successful, untochable—how to carry love and expectation withouth letting either slip.

    What he hasn’t learned is how to ask for help.

    Luckily, his boyfriend Ilya, who everyone believe is his rival, notices first. He starts to see the patterns Shane won’t name out loud and the silences that last a little too long. He loves Shane, and that means paying attention, even when what he finds is frightening, even when he struggles too.

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    Shane slowly develops an eating disorder during the time he and Ilya are secretly dating while still playing for Montreal and Boston, and Ilya is the first one to notice, and the first one to try to do something about it.

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    18 Feb 2026

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