ItsJesMe
Fandoms
- No Fandom (2)
- Brand New (Band) (2)
- Heartstopper (Webcomic) (2)
- Heartstopper (TV) (2)
Recent works
-
A-Wakening by HeartJesStops (ItsJesMe)
Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic)
07 Jun 2023
Tags
Summary
Another failed date, with another perfectly lovely person. Coming -- well, certainly not "hot off the heels" -- lukewarm from the trailing footsteps of another failed relationship and a few other dates, that he swore and swears he put all of himself into. And once again hearing "Something's just missing," "It's like your not as into it," "Do you even want me?
...
He's always "doing all the things;" but when being perfectly and completely honest with himself, on this dark meandering path home, he does find that "the dating game" always felt empty -- performative -- and in pursuing the "intimacy" that's been modeled for him over all these years, the partners all seem worlds more capable of living it. "I guess I'm just not capable of giving it," he posits, wondering if he's a lost cause, "Maybe they all can see it because they know that their cups aren't being filled." But then it occurs him: "What if I can't see what they want in their cups because I'm actually pretty fine with what I already have in my own..."-----
Isaac, in his early adulthood, looks back and tries to reevaluate what love and sexuality "should" and do look like in his life. -
I'm Better Than You (And You Should Know That By Now) by HeartJesStops (ItsJesMe)
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
03 Jun 2023
Tags
Summary
"I think that you're special," Charlie had once made the mistake of softly saying to Ben, on what he thought he'd read as a "sweet" day.
"Maybe you're just selfish."
For some reason, Ben thought this was foreplay. Charlie could tell from the smirk across his, otherwise, icy cold stare.
So, adjusting to this different mood, Charlie kissed him hard, in the dark of the party's cloak closet.
Apparently, that wasn't the right move. Ben didn't want Charlie to be "selfish;" and Ben then, felt the need to put Charlie "in his place," by slamming him against the opposite wall, before tugging at his collar to bite his shoulder just a little too hard. Charlie knew that his back and wrists would be sore the next day, from the impact, not to mention the bites. But maybe this is just what passion was supposed to feel like.
-----
Or Charlie goes on a journey away from Ben and toward better things for himself...
(Or, loosely working canon around a song: "Letter to an Old Poet" by boygenius.)
-----
TW: emotional abuse, physically abusive behavior, mentions of past bullying, mentions of sexual assault -
Tags
Summary
The story of the firey beginnings of something new.
(Based on "Tautou" by Brand New)
-
Tags
Summary
The story of a night that went wrong and the ensuing spiral.
(Based on "Play Crack the Sky" by Brand New)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 566
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Kudos:
- 2
- Hits:
- 19