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    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

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    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Being famous means that a lot of people develop certain perceptions of you.

    Ilya Rozanov generally doesn't mind this. He has, after all, spent years curating that very perception.

    He minds it a lot more when people have certain misunderstandings about his husband, and sets out to rectify them in his signature chaotic way.

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    Or; 4 times Ilya taught the world about his husband, and one time Shane did.

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    24 Feb 2026

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    Shane's biggest nightmare came true in a way that he could never predict. After losing his phone, his messages with Ilya became public. Everyone would find out he is gay, that he's dating his enemy. But it wasn't his messages with Ilya that became public, it was with Lily. And no one was talking about Shane being gay. They're talking about how misogynistic he is.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Warm hands suddenly encased his, pulling them away from his shirt collar and back down onto the table. Shane risked a glance at Ilya and saw only concern and confusion on his face, but he couldn’t keep looking at him directly, couldn’t look him in the eye.

    Couldn’t let Ilya see him lose it like this, in public, all because the shirt felt wrong. Because it felt too much like being five and ripping hand-knitted jumpers from his body because they hurt. Like needing seams in his socks to sit a certain way. Like a childhood spent tearfully pulling clothes off his body until his parents figured out what fabrics he could tolerate. It felt like being seven and unable to explain to teachers why the other children didn’t like him, why he hid under the tables when the classroom was too noisy.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    “Are you breaking into Shane’s apartment?”

    “Is to… mess with Hollander’s head,” Rozanov says. “Yes. I break into his house and leave Bears clothes in his wardrobe. Take his boring fucking hockey books. Makes him go crazy.” He sort of waves the hoodie that he’s holding around, showing the Boston logo on it.

    “Man, that is low.” J. J. sounds somewhat impressed.

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    When Hayden and J. J. unexpectedly run into Ilya Rozanov at Shane's apartment, they draw the only logical conclusion.

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    15 Feb 2026