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In this version of the story, this version where I rip out the bad pages, the pages I don't like, the pages that you shouldn't read just yet, I have a body, and you are pinning my body into the bed.
"Why?"
Because I love you, and you love me, and when we touch, we are living in that world where no one dies.
"It's not that simple."
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- Part 1 of hymns
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Sometimes, when you dream, you dream of second chances - okay, so this time you are not
in love with a liar. Okay, so this time you are not worshiping, this time you do not know how to worship and you never learn and okay, so this time there are no nightmares, andeveryone is waiting for something interesting to happen, counting down on their fingers until the day comes, and he says that he can
help you, he says that he can save you, but this time you are not feeding yourself to the nightmare, and saying: I have never loved anyone more than I love you.
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- Part 2 of hymns
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You don't know what you expected when you said the incantation. You were desperate, starving. You needed help. For the very very very first time, you needed help. You meet Bill Cipher in a dream, and he calls you genius and smart guy and praise and praise and praise and praise and praise and somehow, his words aren't like other ghosts of approval. His words mean something. His words ignite the desperation and hunger once more, but this time it is different. This time: you are suffocating.
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- Part 3 of hymns
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A smile creeps across Stanford's face, but it fades as quickly as it comes. "Dipper did it?" It all falls together in Stanford's mind, like a building being demolished and rebuilt. Dipper sent Bill away. Back, back, back to where he came from. But. Oh. If Stanford is with Bill, then he is stuck. Trapped, again. Stanford only knows trapped.
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- Part 4 of hymns
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Of course Bill is a demon, because in the storybooks that is how it goes. All the better to
E A Tyou with, my dear.
The girl and the big, bad wolf.
The scientist who loved and loved and loved and loved and worked and devoted and devoted and devoted, and the big, bad wolf-demon who looked him in the eye and said: DO YOU REALLY THINK SOMEONE COULD EVER LOVE YOU?
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- Part 5 of hymns
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"He hurt me a lot, Dipper. Sometimes I remember all of that really vividly. It's not a big deal, it's just something that happens."
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- Part 6 of hymns
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He is holding you and your mind is telling you the world could end and I'd still love him, I'd still love him, I'd still love him.
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- Part 7 of hymns
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"Oh, don't look so sour, Fordsy! It's not too late to join me."
Stanford has heard this before somewhere. In his mind, maybe.
(Bill puts Stanford in a time loop until he gets the answer that he wants.)
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- Part 8 of hymns
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thoughts that are above you (i've gotten so good at lying to myself) by orphan_account
Fandoms: Gravity Falls
22 Dec 2015
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Step one: you fall in love. Things are okay at step one. Don't take another step. Stay frozen. Don't move. Don't move. If you move, you will only make things worse. Don't move, don't look in the mirror, don't ask questions. There are too many sentences that start with don't. There are too many sentences that end with I love you. There are too many prophecies that end with I love you.
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- Part 9 of hymns
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Stanford wants so much to give in, to feel Bill in this (not real) (hallucination) form, to feel something that he hasn't felt in so, so long. Need, want, longing. He hasn't been kissed or touched in thirty years. He hasn't been himself in thirty years. He hasn't felt anything in thirty years.
But it's Bill. Bill who would laugh I told you that you were weak at him, Bill who would enjoy hurting him like thirty years of longing finally fulfilled.
"Just tell me who you think put it up," Bill whispers, "and we can start."
(Maybe it is time for Stanford to let Bill know that he is more than a numb mind and a soft body. Maybe it is time that Bill learned that Stanford has armor.)Series
- Part 10 of hymns
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He knows it's not a hallucination on instinct; this is real, this has to be real. There's something inside of him and he doesn't know how to feel. There's something inside of him that's terrifying but Stanford wants to bow to it, wants to hand himself over. This — thing, being, entity — inside of him wants to destroy, like in his dreams, but Stanford can't decide if he's against the feeling, against the destruction. He should be. He should be.
But, see: he is tired of being alone.
(Or: the one where Stanford and Bill have a telepathic bond and Stanford knows Bill's going to betray him before it happens.
He falls for Bill and his flattery anyways.)
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- Part 11 of hymns