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Bathroom Floor by Stillhurting
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Feb 2026
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“I am in control. I make the decisions,” Shane murmured to himself for the hundredth time that hour.
He felt a little bit insane, sitting on the cold bathroom floor locked in a civil war with himself. On one side: his rational brain; on the other, the oily, persistent whisper trying to sell him a regret he couldn’t afford. His stomach squirmed with what could either be nausea or anxiety—it all felt the same at this point.
Just do it. You’ll feel so much lighter and cleaner once it is all out of your system.
The temptation to believe that lie was a physical weight. He was exhausted from the fight. He could feel his dinner sitting like a stone in the pit of his stomach, heavy and stagnant. He knew he probably would feel better if he could get rid of it. But… fuck.
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Shane is struggling with a dangerous urge and is flighting a lonely battle with himself on the bathroom floor. Until Ilya reminds him that he’s not alone.
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“I can’t, I can’t do this.” Shane looks down at his feet, panting, looking so fucking beautiful and Ilya aches. Shane is ripping his heart out, gripping it tight in his hand how he is Ilya’s t-shirt.
“Hollander,” Ilya says, and it’s a plea. It’s I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it, I shouldn’t have said it, come back.
“I’m sorry,” Shane breathes, his eyes screwed shut like if he looks at Ilya, he’ll break. Will come running back to the couch. But he doesn’t want that, doesn’t want Ilya, so he turns and leaves and Ilya is alone.
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so pretty when you beg me by gimmekiss
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Jan 2026
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“You are so pretty when you beg me. Do it some more.”
Shane babbles out pleas and cries for Ilya to fuck him. He isn’t sure how long he begs, but he stops when he feels Ilya’s hand against his cheek. He automatically opens his mouth and Ilya slips his index and middle finger into his mouth, pushing back into his throat. Shane resists the urge to gag. A tear slips down his cheek.
“Good boy, Hollander. Beg me so nicely. I will fuck you. Because I want to. Not because you deserve it. Understand?”
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“Words, Hollander. Tell me that you are helpful.”
Shane clears his throat. “I-I’m helpful. When you need to come.”
“молодец. Good boy,” Ilya breathes, starting to really move his hand now.
He can physically see the moment the fog takes over Shane’s brain. The one that always comes over him when they’re hooking up or fucking. He watches Shane’s eyes go glassy and his mouth hang open, and his lips get wet and he knows he has him. Knows that Shane will do whatever he asks now. He loves when he’s like this. Fuck.
“You are, aren’t you?” he asks. “My good boy?”
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the quiet things that no one ever knows by Jnotasynonym
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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Equally reckless and obsessive, Shane is controlled by an eating disorder, Ilya is damned by his demons.
But it’s the good memories that rise first, isn’t it? The perfect ones, rose-tinted glasses, Shane had once called it. A phrase Ilya hadn’t understood at all.
Eight fucking years, and he’d kept Hollander at arm’s length.
“You heard what they’re saying about Hollander?”
“Haven't you seen him? Must be sick or something.”
“Well, you seen him yet? Must be sick or something.”//
“Shane—“
“Oh, enough with this bullshit. I’m not stupid, Ilya. Are you taking them?”
“Taking what?”
“Your fucking meds, obviously.”OR A retrospective look at Shane & Ilya's relationship over the years, and now.