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1. Out of Myself by pensational

   Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/M
   • Complete Work

   15 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Azriel/Gwyneth Berdara
   • Azriel
   • Gwyneth Berdara
   • Nesta Archeron
   • Emerie (A Court of Thorns and Roses)
   • Original Characters
   • Past Rape/Non-con
   • Medical Trauma
   • Contraceptives
   • intimate medical procedures
   • no one gets off
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Trust
   • Emotional Intimacy
   • this is a magical universe where the speculum does not exist
   • and is better for it
   • Vaginal Fingering
   • the important part is I found it hot
   • sort of smut
   • Kind of smut
   • If You Squint - Freeform

   Summary

   Having a medical procedure to take away her cycle and also prevent accidental pregancy seems like a great idea. Until Gwyn realises that to make it happen, she has to let someone touch her intimately.

   Or: I'm obsessed with the dichotomy of Az being someone known for violent acts taking the utmost care to be soft vs. Gwyn as someone who has experienced incredibly violent trauma scared to let anyone touch her again deciding that he is the only one who can.

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