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1. you’re sweet but i’m sick (i hurt myself for kicks) by babysdeer

   Fandoms: &TEAM (Band)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   05 Dec 2025

   Tags

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   • Hirota Riki | Maki & Wang Yixiang | Nicholas
   • Byun Euijoo | EJ/Wang Yixiang | Nicholas
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Self-Harm
   • Past Suicide Attempts
   • Recovery
   • Non-Sexual Intimacy
   • Soft Byun Euijoo | EJ
   • Wang Yixiang | Nicholas Acts Like a Sad Wet Cat
   • maki and nicholas are brothers
   • Hopeful Ending

   Summary

   he’s okay. nicholas repeats the words in his head again and again as he clings to euijoo. his chest feels cracked open and hollowed out, a shell of someone that he's not sure he ever was. his new meds make him sluggish and lethargic, which doesn't help with the shame and guilt he already feels for spending so much time in bed. he hasn't been able to stomach a full meal in three weeks. he doesn't feel any better, despite the treatment he's been receiving.

   but for some reason, when euijoo says he's okay, nicholas believes him.

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