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1. you carved this dirty hole in me; live in it by fumavist

   Fandoms: &TEAM (Band)  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   15 Oct 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Byun Euijoo | EJ/Wang Yixiang | Nicholas
   • Byun Euijoo | EJ
   • Wang Yixiang | Nicholas
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Angst
   • kuma is here bc they’re canon
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Hate Speech
   • Emotionally Repressed Byun Euijoo | EJ
   • Wang Yixiang | Nicholas Acts Like a Sad Wet Cat
   • Coming of Age
   • they don’t have sex but something that’s way worse
   • this is not the end of their story!
   • underdeveloped plot
   • i’m sorry i just really needed to get this out
   • Hurt now Comfort later

   Summary

   Euijoo at the end, though he was more than ready to accept whatever Nicholas would give him, was not worth it.

    

   Or: Nicholas moves into Euijoo’s small town and makes room for himself there, in Euijoo’s heart

   Series

   • Part 1 of am i allowed to; even then, will i have all of you?

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