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1. 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all by BlessedEtherealFox

   Fandoms: Final Fantasy XVI  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M, Multi
   • Work in Progress

   18 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Clive Rosfield/Cidolfus Telamon
   • Cidolfus Telamon/Barnabas Tharmr
   • Clive Rosfield
   • Cidolfus Telamon
   • Barnabas Tharmr
   • Biast (Final Fantasy XVI)
   • Joshua Rosfield
   • Jill Warrick
   • Anabella Rosfield
   • Gav (Final Fantasy XVI)
   • Hugo Kupka
   • Benedikta Harman
   • Ifrit (Final Fantasy XVI)
   • Ramuh (Final Fantasy XVI)
   • Ultima (Final Fantasy XVI)
   • Byron Rosfield
   • Tarja (Final Fantasy XVI)
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics
   • Time Travel
   • Top Clive Rosfield
   • Top Cidolfus Telamon
   • Bottom Barnabas Tharmr
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Past Child Abuse
   • Warning for Anabella Rosfield
   • Consequences
   • Dark Clive Rosfield
   • Alpha Cidolfus Telamon
   • Alpha Clive Rosfield
   • Omega Barnabas Tharmr
   • Beta Biast
   • Non-Traditional Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics
   • Protective Clive Rosfield
   • Protective Biast
   • A bit of Joshua Rosfield Bashing
   • Alternate Universe - Time Travel
   • Time Shenanigans
   • Not Beta Read

   Summary

   His story wasn't anything special. As he died on that beach, Clive contemplated what he would do to save his loved ones.

   Would he become the hero to sacrifice all to save the world? Or would he decide to be the villain and sacrifice the world to save the ones his loved? There was a story he once read of a someone who wasn't regarded as a hero. No, the knight had become what was conventionally known as a villain in order to save the one he loved.

   The choice between the two wasn't going to be easy especially when the memories of a past life were slow to be remembered when he was living his new life. But...if Cid lived...it would be worth it.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   18,607

   Chapters:

   5/?

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

   37

   Bookmarks:

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